Babe . been a while since the last time i post something in here isn't it . btw , thanks to my hacker which actually swept away all those sawang-sawang that rises in my blog here . thanks a lot for all those exaggerating words . what you said is totally not me . i'm 100% sure . full stop . the end .
yeah i said i wanna blog every dayy if i could . yet , i lied . i actually cant . i really want to . but i just cant . im so sorry . a week back . i have anatomy SDL , physiology and biochemistry PSS together in one week . wanna add more fun ? i even had CONASS in that particular week . what the heaviest week so far . that is why i seemed vanish for quite some times . not because i dont want to , but i just cant make it into .
i said about CONASS just now right ? what's CONASS ? its not something dirty or what . im clean okayy -.-" jangan pikir lain . CONASS is actually CONtinuous ASSesment for every single medical student in Malaysia . i dont know how it is conducted at other medical school , but as for UM , it is one of the key to the world of hell for me . yes it is . im not exaggerate anything , it is a true fact . maybe due to our first experience doin' this type of question format . maybe we're nervous or what , as for me , it was suck .
How's CONASS in UM ? first time we heard this word , lecturer said that it is the MCQ questions . 10 questions for 3 parts ; Anat , Biochem and Physio . hmmm multiple choice questions . alaa kacang jea tuhhh . tanda jea A , B , C or D . then second time we heard about it , from the seniors , ehh nama memang lahh MCQ questions . bukan tanda ABCD . tapi soalan dia kena jawab whether TRUE or FALSE . and , i stated 10 questions before right ? yess , 10 big questions which consists of 5 sub-questions more . maksud ? satu part got 50 questions to be answered whether the statement is TRUE or FALSE . summed up all 3 parts , means that i have to answer 150 questions altogether . speechless . and then we asked some more , berapa lama masa nak jawab ? 50 questions for one part to be answered in 20 mins . 150 questions in 1 hour . without no gap in between the part . okayy fine . terduduk . it was crazy though . then wanna know more horrifying fact ? how they gonna evaluate this CONASS ? NEGATIVE MARKING . this one is totally hell . betul +1 mark . salah -1 mark . haa bolehh ? i never have this kind of marking before . sumpah freak out gilaaaa bangang ! gilaa tak freak out , boleh berjuta markah aku kena tolak kalau mcm tuhh .
Senior 2nd year cakap , yesss negative marking is so scary . they want to train us to make the decision only when we are sure enuff on what actually we are doing . to be a good doctor , we have to have a very good and accurate evaluation as well as making a very precise decision on what actually we want to do with our patient . this is why that kind of marking exist only in Medical School . so , we have to answer the particular statement IF AND ONLY IF we are 100% sure that we know the answer . if got questions yang ragu-ragu jangan jawab kalau rasa sayang sangat dengan markah anda . all these 'interesting' fact of conass really haunting me throughout that whole week instead of all the other stuffs (SDL and PSS) yang asal boleh semua sekali nak sumbat dalam minggu conass . tayah kejam sangat boleh kann ?
3 weeks before conass , tak fikir langsung pasal conass . masih di mood enjoyy . conass only singgah dalam otak once in a while . itu punn dalam tempoh yang tak sampai 1 minit then dia hilang entah ke mana . 2 weeks before conass , masa tuhh minggu nak raya haji . that words mcm dahh selalu jea nak semak dalam otak . selalu membebel dekat diyana dengan hanis , conass dahh makin dekat . tapi still tak insaf . tak sedar diri lagikk . bukannya nak revise . boleh plak buat statement maut , aku tak rasa pape ponn nak conass nehh wehh , takpelahh raya puas2 dulu . lepas raya kita study untuk conass ehh . padahal ada org yang sanggup tak balik kampung raya dengan family just sbb nak revise and prepare for conass . kau siap dokk nak enjoy lagik raya puas2 yeee pmpuan ? OMG , noww baru kau sedar betapa tak layak nya kau jadi medical student kann ilyana ?
one week before conass , to be precise , 5 days before conass , baru nak start menggelabah anjing . dahlahh dengan SDL upper limb yang tunggang-langgang lagikk . physiology punya PSS yang soalan dia punya banyak tak beragak . and biochem PSS yang tajuk dia ponn aku taktahu cite pasal ape . sumpah minggu tuhh sangat serabut nak kejar and catch up everything . every single day , berkurung dekat BBG just sebab nak habiskan revise all the 3 parts yang nota dia tak boleh nak tebal lagikk for every part . but still , masa tuhh bolehh lagikk rilek2 . study sambil pasang earphone . sambil whatsapp , sambil texting . bahagia betoll idup kau . and study satu topik 2 jam . boleh jea . sempat jea . bnyak masa lagikk . konon ! here comes the most tense part .
the day before conass , precisely Thursday . this is it . kemuncak segala tension . masa nehh mcm2 rasa ada . nak quit MBBS . menyesal ambik MBBS lahh nak give up lahh ape lahh . sebab serabut sangat . banyal gilaa benda tak cover yang nak dicover in a very short period of time .
at that time , physio aku baru cover cell , blood nerve and half synapse . smooth muscle , skeletal musle , muscle contraction , autonomic nervous system semua belum cover lagikk . dengan lecture note tak ber-print lagikk . dlm kelas Dr Naguib and Prof Kim aku membuta . tak dengar satu hapah . okayy itu sangat mendatangkan stress . tak tipu . and mlm last tuhh , physio jea yang finally aku mampu cover semua except for smooth muscle . tapi lecture smooth muscle aku tak berapa nak sleep so i think im pretty confident even if aku skip that topic .
then biochem , aku baru cover Enzymology , Blood clotting , dna/rna and replication . protein biochem prof kanthi langsung aku tak sentuh langsung sampai ke sudah . dna translation and transcription plak aku just baca surface2 jea . protein biochem ponn aku just depend on the knowledge gained during PSS the week before that . tak sempat nak cover . memang berserah habes dahh malam tuhh . aku tawakal jea biochem nehh .
lastly anatomy . fuhhh nehh paling gempak . aku rasa subjek yang paling aku tak prepare langsung untuk this first conass is Anatomy lahh . all those introduction to system . muscular , nervous and skeletal . aku sempat baca half of the nervous system jea . itu punn aku baca ala-ala hari Isnin petang if im not mistaken . Upper Limb plakk aku baru faham the whole picture lepas aku habes SDL dengan Dr Eliza hari Rabu tuhh . malam tuhh aku just revise balik upper limb based on notes yang senior bagik masa short class anat and past year punya conass . Histology ? lagi haram aku nak baca . malam last tuhh aku sempat discuss soalan Histo dengan Diyana , Athirah and Hanna . Histo nehh the last subject yang kitorg revise . at this moment , revise mcm tak revise jea . sebab otak dahh cukup tepu dengan segala macam benda2 lain . and we started revise Histo at 1.30 am . memang taklahh nak study all those cell and structure , layer lahh hape kebende nyaa ntah tuhh . which end up , kitorg nekad , bergantung kepada past year conass semata-mata . Ya Allah teruknya perangai .
Errrr , for me first conass sangat pressure . and i dont think it will stop only at this first conass jea . the other conass ahead is much more pressure i guess . why ? first , altogether 6 conass only bring 10% carry mark for the final . so 1 conass bring about 1.67% jea . elle sikit jea ponn . but the psiko part is that , kalau 1.67% nehh ponn kita tak boleh nak dapat , how about the 98.33% later ? second , study for conass is exactly like how i study for final masa kat PASUM dulu . conass MBBS dengan final PASUM . see the biggest gap ? 1.67% vs 100% ? noww boleh nakk psiko . study untuk conass jea punn . satu meja study dekat BBG tuhh penuh dengan segala mcm nota and reference book . taktahu lahh time final nanti aku study mcm mana plakk . third , masa kat PASUM , study untuk final , satu malam jea cukup for one subject . now MBBS ? study untuk CONASS 'jea ponnn' ! seminggu takk cukup . time final aku taktahu aku nak guna brape bnyak masa plak . fuhhhh now boleh masuk kepala dlm tanah dahh . lastly , conass made us MBBS student obesity . why ? sebab limited time nak study , menunggu nasi goreng siap masak dekat cafe dalam kadar lebih kurang 15 ke 30 mins itu dirasakan sangat membazir . jadi kami mengambil keputusan utk bergantung harap kepada all those junk foods , keropok2 yang banyak ajinomoto , sweets and biscuits together with air tin mesin gedegang untuk kekal survive during the night before conass . and finally sebab tak mampu menahan perut berkeroncong , we end up make a McD delivery request at 1 am . yang mnyaksikan kami berempat menelan sebiji burger sorg pada pukul 2 am . sangat tak berhemah perangai bakal doktor kann . betullah orang cakap . being a doctor , they treat patients , tapi diri sendiri tak terurus . ini fakta sedih .
ohhh its been too long . will tell more about the conass itself and the outcome results bila tiba masanya . tak bersedia lagikk . to be continued guys . LOL . love ya ! :)
Si pemalas lupa daratan ,
Fitrah Ilyana .
