Monday, March 29, 2010

iS iT sO HaRd ?

susahnya menuntut sebuah kemaafan yang lahir tulus ikhlas dari hati .
bukankah kita dilahirkan sebagai seorang insan yang tidak sempurna ?
setiap manusia melakukan kesalahan .
sewajarnya orang yang melakukan kesilapan itu diberikan peluang kedua .
bukan dihukum , dikutuk , diumpat tanpa ada rasa belas dan kasihan .
aib sewajarnya ditutup .
bukan didedahkan sewenang-wenangnya .
mungkin pincang tutur kataku ,
mungkin silap perbuatanku ,
mungkin aku tak sehebat , semulia kalian .
tapi aku juga manusia .
yang punya hak untuk bertapak di muka bumi Allah .
punya hati , perasaan dan nurani .
aku juga insan yang tak pernah lari dari melakukan kesilapan .
namun aku juga berhak mendapatkan peluang kedua itu .
masih adakah lagi ruang kemaafan buat diri ini ?
ya , kalian memang lebih baik dariku .
tapi , aku juga ingin dan perlu hidup sebagai seorang manusia dan pelajar lain .
seperti kalian .
maafkan aku andai segala-gala yang aku lakukan tidak menyenangkan aty semua .
apa dayaku manusia biasa .
tegurlah aku ,
bimbinglah aku ,
tapi ,
tolong jangan hina aku seperti aku binatang yang tidak punya aty nurani .
wassalam .

Sunday, March 28, 2010

JaNgaN aDa BeNCi

Andainya ada di antara kita nanti
Berubah hala serta memungkiri janji
Jangan ada benci
Suka dan duka dilalui
Jadikan kenangan di sudut hati

Andainya cita-cita tidak kesampaian
Ikatan murni terputus di pertengahan
Jangan dikesalkan
Jangan lantaran kegagalan
Kita berdendam , saling bermusuhan

Ungkit-mengungkiti
Sakit-menyakiti
Memusnahkan diri

Kita harus tabah dan bersedia
Cekal hadapi kemungkinan yang tiba
Kadang kala yang berlaku
Di luar kemahuan kau dan aku...

Friday, March 26, 2010

ma , i LoVe YoU .

Mama ,
kita sayang mama .
sorry if sumtymes kita tak faham yg mama sgt busy .
bukan kita taknak faham ,
its just dat kdg-kdg i need u to share my probs , my good news and everything .
dat nyte ,
kita tak kecik aty pun .
in fact , siyes i'm so touched by ur love mama .
i felt like u're my everything .
kita tak penah minta apa-apa for my birthday .
the kiss was so-so enough mama .
and i'm sorry sgt-sgt klau mama terasa dgn kita selama nie .
maybe i'm not a good daughter but i'm always trying for that .
sorry again .
mama jangan minta maaf kat kita .
mama tak buat apa-apa salah pun .
instead , now i promise u that i will trying to be more understanding person .
and be even more stronger as wat u always says to me .
thanx for everything mama .
and thnx also fot the baju-baju .
dat will be assumed as the present also ryte ?
i love you !

TRULY,
FITRAH ILYANA

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

WeLCoMe To 17th CoMmuNiTy !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FITRAH ILYANA !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !

May wish u :
1. panjang umur , murah rezeki .
2. 11A+ SPM !
3. sukses slaloo . in study + love + life ! ;)
4. happy slaloo . jgn sdey-sdey , nanges-nanges agy tau !
5. be a good girl . behave yourself .
6. apa agy ? ntahlaa . oh yes ! ireland , wait for her . here she comes ! ;)


I would like to thank everybody who willing to sacrifice sum of their tyme wishing me "happy birthday" ! thank u guys ! love u all !
1. Farhanah (dia wish one day before . even tak kira . but thnx ana ! ;))
2. Amy (lama awk karang ayat yea babe . hee .)
3. Awak ! (thnx yea sudi wish saya . and thnx also for the gift . and 3 hours phone call also ! ;D)
4. Makcu Epa
5. Mama (ma , pesanan mama kat FB menyentuh aty n prasaan kita !)
6. Aunty Yati
7. Acap
8. Fazmie
9. Azim
10. My ONLY busuk . nurfadhilah mohd anuar ! hee . syg , thnx !
11. Aizuddin
12. Na'eimah . syg , thank you !
13. Afiza
14. Fatin . ;D
15. Hamizah
16. Nad
17. Pqa
18. Anis
19. Aida . ILYANA , ily ! ;)
20. Bart
21. Ummi Ainina . my twins ! hehe .
22. Adlina
23. Syifa' . ingat dye dah lupa dah . hehe .
24. Fatihah Zakaria
25. Farah Sakinah
26. Naufal ! akak tak sangka ko ingat berday akak . hee . u're the earliest laa . siyes !
27. Hazirah ! weh , aq pun tggu wish ko ! hahaa .
28. Kak Hazirah
29. Kak Nisa
30. Kak Tiqah
31. Hakim Adam
32. Abg Kamal
33. Kak Safra
34. KI
35. Bid ! teman begar aku . wee . ;)

To yg tak tersenarai kat cnie , sorry sgt-sgt . maybe aku tak perasan or terlepas pandang . but siyesly , i really appreciate all ur wish guys !

Thursday, March 18, 2010

eNd .

first of all ,
from the bottom of my heart ,
i want to seek for great forgiveness from u ,
i think i'm not ready to commit with the relationship ,
the time hasn't come yet maybe ,
i don't know ,
i know u're reading this ,
but if no ,
i'm just assume u've read this ,
and from now on ,
i will not pick up ur call of reply ur text nymore ,
i'm cruel ?
up to u to think anything ,
i do have my own reason ,
dun ask me why !
i'm really cannot commit with the relationship .
u can find many better girl outside there ,
don't wait for me ,
my journey is still long ,
many things i want to achieve first ,
go find ur real path ,
thnx for everything .
now ,
i'm officially TAKING BACK MY LOVE .

sincerely,
FITRAH ILYANA

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

WaT HaPpEnEd ?

suddenly i felt like crying ?
why ?
i don't know .
unexpressable emotion .
fitrahilyana !
strong darl !

Saturday, March 13, 2010

RaNDoM QueSTioNs ...

1) Adakah anda rasa HOT ?
HOT ? sangat ! heh . panasss weh .

2) Upload wallpaper pc/laptop yg anda guna sekarang ?
Buat ape ? pict baby chumel jea pon . bukan pakwe hawwt . hakhak . ;D

3) Cerita pasal gambar .
I love to be on camera . dats all .

4) Bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza ?
Emmm . tak ingat laa . but i guess it was long long ago kowt . oh , i miss pizza . hek !

5) Lagu terakhir anda dengar ?
No Doubt - don't speak !

6) Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini ?
Tgk my daddy isi borang kebenaran show adek i . ayo . na ikowt mie ! borink !

7) Selain nama sendiri , anda dipanggil dengan nama apa ?
Oh yes . i'm very sure ! my only BUSUK called me DEBAB . oh darl , u're GEMOK okay . ;)

8) Tag lagi 8 orang .
Sape ea ? adoy takde idea lorh .
1. Suraya Balqis
2. Aida Ilyana
3. Nur Hazirah
4. Kak Nab
5. Jasmi
6. Syifa'
7. Fatin
8. Zahid

9) Siapakah org no. 1 kepada anda ?
my BESTMATE ever ! qis , ily !

10) Katakan sesuatu mengenai orang no. 5
Weh jas , good luck for SUKMA . all the best ! ;)

11) No. 3 ada hubungan dengan siapa ?
Haaaa ! i tau ! hahaha . he can be anyone . kan ? ;D

12) Bagaimana pula dengan no. 4 ?
Eh , tuh i taktau ! hehe .

13) Pesanan buat orang no. 6 ?
Syifa , sorry sbb kita agak jauh lately .

14) Kata-kata cinta buat org no. 2 ?
My only ILYANA after me , i love u darl !

15) Adakah org no. 7 dan no. 8 mempunyai persamaan ?
Yes ! they sit in a same column . hahaa . jgn gaduh-gaduh ea !

16) Berikan 5 perkara yg anda tau mengenai orang yang men-tag anda
NURFADHILAH BINTI MOHAMED ANUAR a.k.a my ONLY heroine !
- my busuk !
- matanya yg sepet dan sexy ! waaa .
- addicted to brand . hee
- debab !
- last one ! saya tau dia syg saya sgt-sgt !

17) persamaan antara kambing dan lembu ?
Haa ? tibe-tibe jea ? okay laa , i jawab gak . ada 4 kaki , 2 mata , satu mulut , ada ekor , dua2 wat korban , and last skaly dua2 makhluk ciptaan ALLAH .

18) Perasaan anda buat tag nie ?
Reduce my boredom of course !


P/S : Busuk , thnx sbb tag i . this questions realy helped me to release my tense . haahaa . ily laa gemok !

Friday, March 12, 2010

sTRoNg !

syg , i know u are strong baby !
fitrahilyana , one lessons please !
only u and pepel around u understands it very well .
darl , ily so much !
thnx to them for making u n him more stronger and even be the toughest one .

Sunday, March 7, 2010

...

DEAR BED ,
I'M SORRY I LEFT YOU ALONE THIS MORNING .
I KNOW U'RE SO LONELY RIGHT ?
TAKE ME BACK ?
ZZZZZ ...

Saturday, March 6, 2010

HiaS kHeMaH !

babe , i wanna go to skewl jap agy . membantu apa yg patut utk menghias khemah umah merah ! sy takla kreatif mane pun . but i guess i should give my physical and moral support for my team isn't it ? chaiyok fitrah ! weehee . mlm nie tsyen agy ? realy ? ayo . be strong girl . hw dah siap ? oh belum . sorry ! will do it later . hee / daa ~

Thursday, March 4, 2010

sPoRTs DaY ! cHaiYoK !

attention please !
to all the runners of RED team !
sila martabatkan rumah anda !
saya akan menyokong 100% !
chaiyok !

MERAH BOLEH !
MERAH JUARA !
CAYALAH !

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

SicK aGaiN ?!

babe . yes , i'm sick again . but not so bad since the last time . headache , hot eye , perit gler , tgn saket , ta tentu arah laa . hesh . fitrahilyana nie lembik btul laa . cubalah kuat cket fitrahilyana ! i've tried ! but then as soon as i reached home , mesti collapsed . ta larat . weak . but kuatkan gak diri . doing some homework then going for tuition at nyte . ayo . penat Allah jea tau . every nyte got classes . omework tinggi melangit . na catchup syllabus . chasing for dateline . curi masa sini sana . finish up omework . settled down urusan-urusan kerja . adoy . dgr jea pun dah penat . lum bwat agy . nie laa cabaran . yg mendatangkan tekanan . when the pressure cannot be handled anymore , tuh yg condemn . maybe , influenced by weather factor gak kowt . panas sgt . sket kpale weh . but , i have to be strong no matter wat . klw mama bleh jd kuat , nape aku tak boleh ?! yes , u can fitrahilyana ! be strong girl ! dah , jgn layan-layan sgt sket tuh . mind-setting ! nope , okay dah sehat cket . kuat fitrahilyana !
P/S : mama defence proposal esok kan ? mama said mama neves sgt . but org tau , u can handle everything right . mama tak penah gagal . and i'm very sure dat u can pass it tomorrow . good luck ma ! i'll pray for you . makcu , sorry to hear bout ikhwan . ta sangka plak fever dy tinggi sgt kan . smpy admitted . tabahkan aty makcu . i'm sure he'll be fine !

Monday, March 1, 2010

MisSioN PoSsiBLe !

babe ! oh guys , pengumuman ! pengumuman ! fitrahilyana berjaya siapkan nota sejarahnya ! setelah berapa lama terkandas , finally aku mampu bangkit kembali ! wakaka . ayat taley blah . heh . plus , essay english yg tch tggalkan as omework last thursday , juga berjaya saya siapkan ! wah ! pencapaian yg memberangsangkan i guess ? weehee . itu sahaja omework yg saya siapkan buat masa ini . hehe . akan diupdate kemudian yea . hakhak . sekian , terimakasih .

P/S : qis , perubahan itu memang perlu . the past is owes the past . forget it even i know its hard . let's concentrate on our future . setiap yg berlaku ada hikmahnya . it made you to be a stronger person , am i right ? wtv it is , i'm owes here evry single seconds . whenever you need me , u know where to find me right ? my support and pray owes with u babe ! kuatlah balqis . saya sayang awak ! and to others gak , u feel free to share anything with me . maybe i'm not a good solver , but i think i can lend my ears for a while . i want to make u guys happy bcause seeing u smiling make me happy as well . =)