IT COULD BE WORSE

I'M SORRY

Sometimes , i get jealous thinking that someone else could make you happier than i could . i guess it's my insecurities acting up . because i know i'm not the prettiest , fairest , smartest or most fun and exciting person to get along with . but , i do know that no matter how hard and long you look ; you'll never find somebody that loves you like i do .

Ilyana , keep this in your mind .

NO EXPECTATIONS , NO DISSAPOINTMENTS

Sekian , terima kasih .

Selamat malam . :)

Blissful Thursday ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 1 : A SONG FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD

babe ! my mission to complete this 25 days begin NOW ! woot ! woot ! ceh gebang jea lebih . haha . for day 1 , a song fom my childhood . fuhhh . this first task is a tough one . childhood uh . zaman tok kaduk dulu . mana nak hengat . paling2 lagu tepuk amai-amai , air pasang malam , lagu 3 kupang and all those kanak-kanak songs . haha . so i decided to choose this one song . tajuk dy "Raindrops Keep Falling on  My Head" by BJ Thomas . kenapa lagu neyh ? sbb lagu neyh memang favourite aku dari aku tadika lagi . sebab melody dy yang best and beralun-alun . fyi , pmpuan neyh memang suka lagu yang rhythm dy beralun-alun . (abaikan ejaan rhythm sy yang berterabur itu . sy dah tak skola . haha) act , mula-mula tyme type title td , dlm pale otak ada lagu laen . tapi tak jadi lah . lagu neyh lagi penting . haha abaikan lagu yg ada dlm otak td . shooh shooh ! haha okay diam ilyana . cite balik ! dulu since i'm 4 kalau tak silap , abah mama slalu belikan CD belaja tuh tau . alaa yang mcm ada lagu-lagu , blaja ABC 123 , blaja baju-baju , buah , sayur smue tuh lah . then kan CD kanak-kanak mcm tuh mengamalkan prinsip learn through the songs kan ? kan ? haha . from that CD lahh aku dgr lagu neyh . emm i still remembered , CD tuh blaja tentang manners and clothing . ada alien2 lah bagai . haha comel jea . because CD tuh my fav , aku dgr lagu neyh byk-byk kali , campur joget2 gedik goyang2 inul dulu , terus hafal lirik dy . sampai sekarang ! haa caye tak ? caye tak ? haha tapi tyme tuh , lagu neyh budak-budak yg nyanyi . and dorg nyanyi cm pendek jea lahh . and aku pun dulu kecik2 lagi , so tak paham mende pon yg dy mencarut dlm lagu neyh . but bila aku dah besar panjang mcm neyh , eh silap . besar bulat mcm neyh , hahahaha ! baru aku tau yg lagu neyh senanya panjang lagi . and lagu neyh ada dlm cite Spiderman 2 ! and penuh bermakna lirik dy . b4 neyh kan aku ada ckp , lagu yg aku dgr smue ada maknanya . so lagu ini pon tak terkecuali . sooo ,,, enjoy this rhythmic (again ! abaikan kesalahan spelling itu!) song readers ! :)

Keep smiling ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

25 DAYS , 25 SONGS

babe ! since fitrahilyana memang takde buat pape pon duk umah neyh , selain busy urus rumah tangga , jadi kentang atas kerusi , and sibuk isi borang itu ini , untuk menghilangkan kebosanan , tetber rasa nak buat keje gila neyh . haha . maybe takkan update berturut-turut , but i will try my best to finish this 25 songs in different 25 days okay ? haha . the first one will come maybe tonight ! :))

LOL ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

A DATE TO REMEMBER

Babe ! nothing much to say . hanya melahirkan rasa bersyukur yang teramat ke hadrat Ilahi for this wonderful perfect day .

23 MARCH 2011

Terima kasih atas anugerah dari-Mu Ya Allah . hari terindah . hari teristimewa . tarikh aku melihat dunia , tarikh itu juga ditakdirkan aku melihat slip keputusan peperiksaan SPM aku . tiada kata yang mampu aku lafazkan melainkan Alhamdulillah . tiada apa yang membuatku gembira melainkan melihat senyuman bahagia di raut wajah mama dan abah . tiada apa yang membuat hati aku puas selain mengetahui guru-guruku bangga dengan apa yang telah aku capai . benar orang cakap , Allah memberi apa yang kita perlu , bukan apa yang kita mahu . sesungguhnya aku bersyukur dengan kurniaan ini . :)

i once prayed that this result will be my best birthday ever .
and YES , 11A's adalah Hadiah Hari Lahir paling bermakna bagi FITRAHILYANA .
dan tarikh 23 MARCH is a date that will be remembered lifetime !

ILYANA , FINALLY U'VE PROVED THAT YOU REALLY CAN DO IT ! :DD

Terima kasih cikgu-cikgu , sudi mengajar saya , mendidik saya dan sabar melayan kerenah saya .
Terima kasih mama abah , memahami dan menasihati ayong tanpa penat dan jemu .
Terima kasih family , atas sokongan yang tidak bertepi .
Terima kasih kawan-kawan , kerana menjadi sebahagian daripada tulang yang menyokong tubuh ini daripada rebah .

Tahniah kawan-kawan . kita berjaya buktikan kita memang HEBAT . walau berapa pun kita dapat , itu kejayaan terindah buat diri kita because one day in future , we will thank that result for what we became later . Teruskan melangkah menuju ke mercu !

To you ILYANA ,

apa hala tuju seterusnya ?

one word !

you'll go for it ilyana .

IRELAND

P/S : To all yang dah wish HAPPY BIRTHDAY , terima kasih korang . nak sebut satu-satu ramai sangat . but trust me , you all mean the world to me . i love you all guys ~
To Amy dengan Atin , terima kasih for that bear panda yang gebu itu ! ehem2 dgr cerita sampai ke Alamanda cari Panda yea ? thankyou sayangs ! terharu sangaaaaat . i love you !

Saya berjaya ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

THE MATTER OF TIME

Babe .

in just a few hours ,,

all my steps , all my vision , all my mind ,

everything's will be changed .

nervous ?

yes i am .

how it will be ?

i don't know .

what you expected ?

for the BEST i'm sure .

if you get what you want ?

Alhamdulillah .

if it turned out to be different ?

Allah plan for the best in future .

are you regret ?

no i'm not .

what's your plan ?

Let's wait for the SPM result first tomorrow :)

P/S : Happy 18th Birthday Ilyana . When ? Also tomorrow . And yeah , tomorrow was a real BIG day for this girl named FITRAHILYANA . May Allah bless you always and hope tomorrow was a lucky days perhaps ? AMIIIIIN ! away guys , wish me luck ! ~

Waiting in patience ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

KNOW ME WELL :)

Babe ! since i'm boring enuff tuday . just read this random-typo . haha :DD

• Awk , saya benci bila saya type text bebel panjang2 tapi awk jwb 'oh ok2' , 'emm yela2' , 'xtau' , 'pape je la'. geram tau tak ! tampar nak ?
• i hate waiting for my phone to charge when i really need it . in fact , i need it almost every second of everyday ! :)
• i hate it when i accidentally cancel my super long text . hey man , who can remember everything again right ? and i end up sending the real short text . haha
• i love sleeping while listening to the music . tgk lah radio bagak besar sebelah telinga . haha padahal klw dah membuta , tak sedar pape pon .
• i don't realise that i'm laughing while reading a text in front of people , then i realized that i'm looking completely retarded . haha dah diam ! tuh mmg fav aku gelak sorang2 . wakaka
• "i never want to talk to you again!!" the next day...... "hey awk.watpe?" yes , it's true . haha gebang lebih .
• i can talk to you all day , and never get bored :)
• wasting time is my hobby ! especially when i'm sitting for hours in front of pc doing nothing . haha
• when pepel 'like' my status on fb , i feel special . yes i am :)
• i get really paranoid when people have my phone . that's my TOP SECRET okay ! haha
• "but i love you" is the best sentence . "i love you but" is the most hurtful sentence .
• i expressing myself through the SONGS because it can describe EXACTLY how i feel in indirect way :) every song i listen have their own meaning . now you know why kan ?
• i'm extremely tired , but i'm determined to stay up until half past 3 or even 4 just for you .
• i'll always be here for you . even if you need to talk at 4a.m . i'm always here . yeah all of you readers . since i always sleep late at night . haha
• i love you just the way you are . no reason at all .
• *wake up in the middle of the night , look at the phone clock* yes , i still have time to sleep ! haha :DD
• i always talk to someone when i'm half asleep , and not remembering it later . haha LOL that's funny !
• i love to travel ! i ♥ Holidays !
• when i'm crying , and someone hugs me , or talking to me , or asks me what's wrong , or calls me , it makes me cry even more .
• i love it when someone i miss , randomly texts me .
• listening to the sad songs when you're already sad only to end up feeling worse .
• Yes , everything i wrote is all about YOU ! i was just hoping that you got the hint .
• when i'm bored , i open and close my phone for no reason .
• i even google my name when i'm bored . and found everything related to it . haha it's cute !

P/S : i'm proud to be myself . this is who FITRAHILYANA is . if you don't accept me at my worst , then you don't deserve me at my best . got it ? daa readers ~

Anda bagaimana ?

Fitrah Ilyana .

CAMERON MEMORIES :)

Babe ! okay awk , this is for you . :)

memang dah tertinggal keretapi dah cite neyh .

tapi tak elok menganak tirikan post2 lama kan ?

so here is it . enjoy !

P/S : complaint adalah DILARANG ! :DD

Pesanan Penaja : Klik Picture untuk Pembesaran Berganda . Harap Maklum .

Okay lagi tinggi dari mama . GREAT ! ngeeee . tgk kasut lahh .

Gemok bajet dy model okay fine ! aku nak gak . haha .

Kami adik-beradik . yeke ? yang ado ! makcu lahhh itu . hehe

Currypuff girl + upin dan ipin . haa best kan ? haha

Model sambilan Teacino :)

Kami wanita emas ! haha !

Bertambahlah populasi orang utan di Malaysia dengan adanya dia . wakaka

Omaigod ! Omaigod ! saya tinggi ! sukasuka ! :)

Bajet hawt ala-ala Shamsul Yusof . piiiiiirahhhh ! :DD

Muka maintain padahal kaki dah nak tercabut pakai heels :))

No comment ! strawberry itu comel !

3 budak gemok ! haha !

Cowboy jalanan , Amirul Mukhriz

My lovely sweethearts ;)

Happy family . psst ! psst ! tgk helmi yang poyo pose mcm tak cukup sifat tuh . haha

Promote promote ! dua singgit . waaahhhh , ada bakat . ngee

Shopping dgn mama memang tak boleh dipisahkan . haha

Waaaahhhh SUPERMAN ! ingat Joe Brooks . weee

okay , neyh saja pict menggedik ! abaikan :)

Sayalah itu ,

Fitrah Ilyana .



FEMALE DICTIONARY

Babe , read here !

Nothing , forget it = You better figure out what you did wrong .
Are you tired ? = Please don't go to sleep , i love talking to you .
I'm OK , yeah i'm fine , don't worry = Hold me tight , i need a shoulder to cry on .
It's up to you , I don't care = I still care , but i'm just tired of arguing with you .
I'm cold = get a blanket and cuddle with me .
Leave me alone = Please don't go .
I love you = Tell me you do MORE !

P/S : Man who said woman is complicated is the one who don't even have intention to understand woman even a lil bit .

I'm a woman ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

FRAGILE

DON'T TRUST TOO MUCH ,

DON'T LOVE TOO MUCH ,

DON'T HOPE TOO MUCH .

because that TOO MUCH ,

can HURT you TOO MUCH !

P/S : Thank you for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely NOTHING .

I wish i could ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

LET THE KEYPAD TAPPING :)

Babe ! dah lama tak mewujudkan kemerepekan kan ? hahah abaikan kesalahan tatabahasa itu kerana perempuan comel ini dah lama tak blaja BM dengan cikgu Fatimah . otak dah rusting bak kata tch punitha . huhu . so what else to say ? takde idea tapi tgn gatal nak menaip . so lovely fingers , follow the brain please ? :)

Nothing much to say , sementelahan rutin harian saya masih sama setiap hari . haha makan , tidow , bangun , tengok tv , baca novel , tidow lagi , bgn balik , on9 : tumblr , facebook , and back to blogger . haha i ♥ Blogger ku sayang . huhu . and yeah doing some house chores too . if kemalasan tidak memenjarakan diri ini lah . haha if not , i'm yet sure that i'll be the only potato on the coach for the whole long day ! yes i am . dah jangan mengutuk . aku tau aku yg ckp itu . haha :DD

For now , saya rasa saya dah sembuh dari kesakitan yang membelenggu tubuh badan . last tuesday , afta dikejarkan ke rumah saket kerana kesaketan yang melampau , akhirnya i'm fully recovered i guess ? ;)

yeah finally , saya berani jejak kaki dlm klinik ! tuh pun only afta 5 hours berpeluh-peluh menahan saket . tau fitrahilyana memang penakut pegy klinik . bukan apa , i'm just afraid nak terima kenyataan klw2 saya ada penyakit berbahaya ke kan . okay gelakkanlah saya sekarang sebab perangai mcm budak-budak . memang pon kenyataannya mcm tuh . haha . but seriously , the pain felt like dying ! okay mama abah , kite janji taknak degil2 lagi . insaf dah sekejap . huhu jangan caye . nty dy buat balek perangai lama dy tdow kul 3,4 pagi tuh . haha okay dah diam ilyana .

Now dah pukul sebelas lebih , time to sleep ilyana ! dah janji dgn mama akan tdow awal for this week . ha ? yeah this week only . haha daa readers ! night world ~

Waiting for your call ,

Fitrah Ilyana .