FLOPPERS

Babe ! 2 papers done . 7 more to go before the leisure time . gahhhh . a day was exactly like a year . enuff with english ilyana . tired of struggling to find the right words , the correct terms of writing the essays . ughhh . it was disaster . i know i'm suck on writing . so , no offence baby . it just a small piece . after all , it only the internal MUET aite ? just let it go . concentrate on the real MUET next 19th . wuhuuuu . in fact , reading , listening and speaking can cover this mess of writing paper perhaps ? ahaaaaa . clever ilyana . so , what's up ? how's the physics 1 ? just okay . yes , i mean it . just okay . no time to re-check . yeah ilyana was so particular of underlining the answer , writing in the most neat ways of all , bla bla bla . dats why you got no time to check back . hahaha . i just wish that i didn't make the silly and careless mistakes . that's all i hope . because everybody knows that ilyana was so fussy in doing everything . ngeeee . that's it . concentrate on the chemistry 1 and reproduction ilyana . so that it would not be as s*** as the FB0111 (4) one . ahaaaa . ignore it . fer now , daaa peeps ! i wanna take a nap for a while . hehe :DD

P/S : terima kasih on call dengan saya sampai pagi . :)

Drowning ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

HASIL KERJA ILYANA

Babe ! this is what ilyana did when she was alone and macam nak gile study for final . enjoy this crazy things from ilyana then :) Fatin , tengoklahh panda anda beraksi . lepaskan rindu anda setelah sekian lama tak jumpa saya tau ! fitrah ilyana yang fatin kenal dulu , tak segemok sekarang ! omaigod ! :DDDDD

rajinnya bear-bear saye study kan ?

Chenta hati saya :)

Panda BB

Bear Fira !

Bahagia benar muka dia :D

Eh ? tak kenal kan ?

Muka mintak penampar

Perempuan melayu terakhir

Cantek wallpaper - coretan rasa hati :P

Fatin , Amy , dah lepas rindu ? panda awak semakin membesar kan ? heee i miss you ! mmuahh !

Crazier ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

BIO MANIAC

Babe , i'm freakin' out nervous thinking of the upcoming final in just a few days . haihhhh ilyana . you can suffer from now on . yeah i'm struggling and suffering now . grrrrrr . you make me hypertense , final . well done !

I'm studying bio right now and it was all messed up in my mind . with the bryopyhtes , pteridophyte , angiosperm , hormonal control , reproduction , life cycle , sporangia , bla bla bla . gahhhhh pls treat me well , biology . i was only about to flip on En Mahassan's notes . i'm not doing anything on Dr. Shida's and Puan Mahanum's . ohhh ilyana , you're so dead ! where is the reproduction notes ? male , female hormonal control ? oogenesis ? spermatogenesis ? taenia sp ? echinodermata ? phylum ? animalia ? gahhhhh . i'm getting crazier pepel . i should open up my notes now . wake up ilyana ! -.-"

Kasihani aku ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

FACE THE BOOK

Ilyana , keep this in your mind and nailed it in your heart , please .

"Never take someone for granted .

Hold every person close to your heart .

Because you may wake up one day ,

And realize that you've lost a diamond ,

While you were too busy collecting stones ."

Physics , please be nice okie ? jgn kusutkan minda dan akal fikiran sy . many things to be catch up menjelang final . you know your ability , ilyana !

P/S : mon âme soeur , je t'aime . :)

Study mood ON ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

FACT #1

OUR BABY :)

Those minutes where i'm alone , just me and my pillow . I think . Like a lot . I think about everything , anything . It varies from "What am i doing with my life?" to "Do you really love me?" The room is so silent , but my mind is so loud . It drives me crazy because the things I would never think about , I think about . Sometimes , I hate it because it brings up things I rather never think about again . The split second before sleep is the most active second of my life .

P/S : Thank you for making me feel like really alone tonight . =.="

Rejected ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

MUET ? WOOHOOOO

Babe !

MUET was so freaking 'awesome' ! =.="

memang what the ........ lahh kan . haihhh

just forget it ilyana . enuff for that .

it past already .

concentrate for another component .

3 more waiting ilyana .

reading , writing and listening .

dah2 , jgn pkir lagi dah .

put aside the toilet cleaner thing .

after all , it was the job that contribute the most in society though . hahhhhh

P/S : sayang , i need you .

Band 5 please ?

Fitrah Ilyana .

MUET FREAK :O

Babe ! i'm currently at UM . and counting days HOURS for external real MUET speaking test . omaigod , it was so scary okay ! i'm keep thinking of how i'm gonna talk , how if i don't hv point to talk to , how i'm supposed to behave , how if i got blank suddenly , how if i'm stucked at the middle and struggling to find the suitable words , how this , how that and bla bla bla . haihhhhh . just relax ilyana . u will be just fine after all . as if ? yes , as if . no matter how you're gonna cool myself down , i'm still nervous all over the time . pray fer me guys . till then , daaaa ~

P/S : sayang , ada orang cakap saya sweet . haha :DD

Your fair lady ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

SECRET BUBBLING

A kiss on the lips means

I LOVE YOU

A kiss on the ear means

YOU ARE SPECIAL

A kiss on the nose means

LAUGHTER

A kiss on the cheek means

FRIENDSHIP

A kiss on the forehead means

I COMFORT YOU

A kiss on the back of your hand means

I ADORE YOU

A kiss on the shoulder means

YOU ARE WONDERFUL

A kiss anywhere else means

BE CAREFUL

Playing with your hair means

I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU

Holding your hand means

HAPPINESS

Arms around your waist means

YOU'RE MINE AND I NEED YOU

A hug means

I CARE

Nibbling on your ear means

START WARMING UP

Smiling at each other means

I LIKE YOU

Lifting eyebrows / winking means

FLIRTATION

Looking around means

HIDING FEELINGS

A tender kiss on the side of your lips means

YOU'RE MINE

Wetting your lips mean

WAITING FOR A KISS

A tear drop means

I'M LOSING YOU

Crying means

I LOST YOU

When she stares at your mouth

KISS HER

When she pushes or hits you like a dumb ass cause she thinks that she's stronger than you

GRAB HER AND DON'T LET GO

When she starts cursing at you and and trying to act tough

KISS HER AND TELL HER THAT YOU LOVE HER

When she's quiet

ASK WHAT'S WRONG

When she ignores you

GIVE HER YOUR ATTENTION

When she pulls away

PULL HER BACK

When you see her at her worst

TELL HER SHE'S BEAUTIFUL

When you see her start crying

JUST HOLD HER AND DON'T SAY A WORD

When you see her walking

SNEAK UP BEHIND HER AND HUG HER WAIST FROM BEHIND

When she's scared

PROTECT HER

When she steals your favorite stuff

LET HER KEEP IT AND SLEEP WITH IT FOR A NIGHT

When she doesn't answer for a long time

REASSURE HER THAT EVERYTHING'S OKAY

When she looks at you with doubt

BACK YOURSELF UP

When she says she likes you

SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW !

When she bumps into you

BUMP HER BACK AND MAKE HER LAUGH

When she tells you a secret

KEEP IT SAFE AND UNTOLD

When she looks at you in your eyes

DON'T LOOK AWAY UNTIL SHE DOES

When she says it's over

SHE STILL WANT YOU TO BE HERS

This is me ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

HATIKU MILIKMU

Di sisimu aku terdiam seribu bahasa

Di hatiku bergetar sejuta rasa

Nafasku terhenti bila melihat dirimu

Terasa pantas degupan jantungku

Mungkinkah hatiku milikmu jua

Ku sayang padamu........

Note untuk kau kawan ,

Terima kasih buat aku macam neyh .

Terima kasih sebab ko buat aku hilang rasa percaya kat kau .

and if one day ,

aku perlukan pertolongan ,

aku janji dengan diri aku ,

bukan kau yang aku cari .

Thank you for everything .

Now baru aku tahu , nilai ertinya kawan bagi kau .

Fine .

Don't worry , aku tak akan benci kau .

Sebab mama aku tak pernah ajar aku untuk membenci orang lain .

Tapi , mulai hari neyh jangan salahkan aku andai aku berlagak asing dengan kau , sebab aku tak mahu terkena lagi .

cukuplah maruah dan nilai harga diri aku dipijak-pijak .

Sayang ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

FROWN

Babe . can i cry the most out loud now ? why ? it was complicated to talk about . complicated enuff to tell everything in words . ilyana ke yang terlebih sensitif ? ilyana ke yang salah ? ilyana e yang jahat ? yee semua ilyana . puas kan ? puas dapat buat hati kecil neyh rasa serba salah yang teramat sangat . aku ke yang tak memahami hati dan perasaan orang laen ? bukan aku membabi buta melakukan sesuatu tindakan . bukan aku tak cuba . aku cuba untuk jadi insan yang memahami setiap hati dan nurani orang sekeliling aku . tapi apakan daya . aku juga manusia biasa . aku tak mampu nak memuaskan hati semua orang . tapi ,,, aku mohon sedikit pengertian dari terus menghukum aku . boleh kan ma ? i demand your understanding . i demand your attention .  should i beg to get your full attention back to me again ? memang kita cemburu ma . memang kita sedih . bila perhatian yang selama neyh tertumpu dekat kita terbahagi 2 and peratus nya lebih kepada dia . siapa kita sebenarnya ? can i get my mama back ? ya allah , tabahkan hatiku Ya Allah . berikan aku petunjuk-Mu . sesungguhnya hati ini mula berfikir yang bukan-bukan . bantu hamba-Mu mengharungi ujian ini . Ma , kita minta maaf andai kita tak mampu jadi anak yang memahami , anak yang taat , anak yang menurut kata . tapi kita nak mama tahu yang kita dah cuba yang terbaik untuk memuaskan hati semua orang . tapi , bila kita dipaksa untuk membuat pilihan , tersekat dalam dilema , kita harap mama faham yang kita terpaksa buat mcm tuh . bukan niat kita mengetepikan mama tapi it just that i cannot do anything . pls mama forgive me . 

Tuhan tolong yakinkan aku , aku masih di sini . :'(