MeLaNcHoLiC..

babe,,
so long since da last one..
been missing blogging so much..
cpu broke down..
i admit dat was my fault..
over-limit maybe..
then mama abah boikot ta mau betulkan pc i..
benci betul..
so now da results,,
i'm blogging n myspacing using mama's laptop..
gasak lar..
janji i dpt on9..
separuh gler da..
many things happened during this period of time..
here are sum of that ;

pose pun da nak masuk 10 ary da..

but i think it's not too late to wish,,

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK!

even i cn only manage to fast for 2 days only..

ugh!

7 days na kena ganti..

masak lar awk fitrah..

last year it was only 5..

then?

yea,,he has done an unexpected things past days..

he made me speechless nyway..

wat did he done?

he tagged me in ms..

under the word of "princess"!

oh gosh!

ape kena mamat nie?

wat he's trying to say?

ape maksud dye?

ello cik abg , i couldn't read ur heart n mind oke..

straight to da point bole kan?

busuk was laughing,,

she were not believe it also act..

mamat tuh mmg da sah2 gile lar..

god,,my heart beating real hard now..

wat can i say?

serah pada ketentuan Ilahi jea lar..

tuday i got new fwenz..

frankly,,he's a guy..

named akmal haziq..

my kazen introduced me to him..

ape motif pun ta taw..

so fwenz?

huluran perkenalan terjalin kini..

ta salah de rmai kawan ryte?

abg's kazen pun send his regards to me..

i bkan kenal pun..

lantak la haih..

huh,,
y i'm feelin lyke crying?
i'm useless isn't it?
mama keep scolding me..
itu tak kena..
ini tak kena..
y mama?
wat things i've done wrong?
org ta ske lar sik kena mrah jea..
org tau,,
org malas,,
ta pndy msak,,
ta pndy kemas umah,,
bgn pun lambat,,
masuk dapur jarang2,,
org tau org teruk,,
but plz,,
dun compare me with others!
kat skola kena compare,,
kat umah kena compare,,
org rimas lar!
i felt like nobody trust me..
smue org ckp i teruk..
i tau i teruk..
i ta pndy cm afifah..
i ta rajin cm shikin..
but i do hv my strength!
mama slalu ckp,,
bersyukur dgn ape yg kite ade..
but now?
with those compliments thrown to me??
cn u guarantee dat i could handle my mind from pkir bkan2??
tlg lar,,
i'm begging now!
accept me as who i am..
org ta nak jadi hipokrit..
klw btul org salah,,
tegur lar org baek2..
org bley trime..
but plz,,
dun ever compare me with anybody else..
u're not increasing my spirit instead throw it away to the dustbin..
org mohon..
faham lar org skaly nie aje..
i do want to feel appreciated lyke anybody else feel..
let me hv dat kind of feeling for a moment?
i couldn't handle it anymore..
is there any way dat i could run away from this?
truly,,
i'm realy sick n tired of this..
i'm afraid dat i'll lost in this battle of emotion..