update! update! ;))

babe,,,

ak ta jd transfer sbpi jempol..

ak syg skola..wah!!hahahah..yeke??

act ak mmg ta nk pnda pown..

biala ak trus hbiskan SPM ak kt cnie..

skola ak skunk pown sgt okay 4 me..

honestly,,

ak mmg hepy kat cnie..

even rse terkongkong n rimas tuh adalah cket..

gler open doe..hahah..

bkn ape,,

ak kan jenis yg ske free..

x ske diarah2 owg..

tp tau2 je ah KP kt skewl ak cmne..

smue x ley wat..

skema gler nk maty..

sorry to say!!i'm not dat type..

ak bkn gurl yg terikat dgn praturan sebegitu..

ak dgn dunia ak..

ak wat ape yg ak ske..

as long as ape yg ak wat tuh not beyond da stage lar..

tp begar tuh mmg da sebati ngan dunia ak..

so,,,

konklusinya di sini,,,

ak ta mau pg sbp sb ak ta nak terikat dgn rulez yg mrepek2 tuh..hahah

ok x reason ak?hak2..

second!!sbb ak ta mau tnggalkan owg2 yg plg ak syg kt skola..

WALAUPUN..sue bgai nk rak pjuk ak g jempol..

hee..

so,,sng cter,,,bye! bye! jempol..

perjuanganku di SHAMS msih blum berakhir..

lately,,,

bz gler ngan omework..

tnggi hw klah klcc..

every nyte,,

ak tdo 2,3 pagi..

juz nak siapkan hw..

lucky me,,

ak jrg ngantuk tyme blaja..

except for psi,,,bm,,,

math tuh kdg2 jea ah..

klu period after recess tghari mmg gler ngantuk ah..

ta kre ape sbj pown..

mata x ley bkak da..

hahahah..

tp stakat nie,,

slewat mne pun ak tdo,,

hw ak ttp ta pnah fully accomplished..

sbb??

ntah..ak pun ta tau..hahahah..gler!

jgn nty ak kna dnda suda r..

oh god!!! pray 4 not!!

btw,,,

skunk ak da tusyen..

chemist..hee..

how??

bes gler..

dpt experience bru..

mklumla,,

da 3 taon ta pnah tusyen...

suasana learning yg bru..

fwenz bru..

athirah of course..

she's cute u know!!hahahah..

ad gak fwenz lme..

fared da shy one,,,

amer da heboh one,,

timah da bes gurl,,

hazim da yellow one,,

n nabel,,

old fwenz one..

haha..

x sngka jupe dye kat stu..

ape ag erk??

ta tau da..

otak kering act..

pasal ape??

dat lucky guy??

ta mau cter pasal dye!!

klu cter pun dye bkn nk ngaku tuh dye..

gpown dye da bhagia wit his gurl..

ta mau kacau ah..

perhaps we remain as bez fwenz only...

like wat he alwayz told me..

mrajuk ah!!

finished!!

full stop!!

gtg,,,

take care,,,

daa~~

<333>

;))

aKu Da gLeR kE??

babe,,,

wat happened to me??

ntah ah,,

otak ak semcm jea..

kdg2 ak hepy...

kdg2 ak sdey..

i dun even know my feeling ryte now..

ntah ah..

maybe i'm in love??

tp xkan dgn bes fwen ak sndri??

tp ta kowt??

but i'm jelez if he doesn't reply my msj..

forgotten me!!

argh!!so hard when it comes to feeling2 nie..

i dun want to ruin my fwenship..

i dun even ask him about his feelings towards me..

he already has mia..

sbb 2 ak ta mau tnye..

qis suh ak tnye..

naeimah pun suh ak tnye..

tp ak tkut..

tkut nty ak blek yg kciwa..

i know,,

ak ta ley lari dri msalah..

tp tape ah..

biakan dlu..

let it go with da flow..

ade mase yg seswai ak akan tnye..

wait till i'm ready enough..

to be rejected esp..

hahahah..

qis ade prob,,,

amey kat mrsm serting..

she realy2 hope to study in da same earth with amey..

ak pun tmpang hepy klu dye hepy..

unfortunately,,,

dye dpt mrsm kuantan..

pity of her..

shocked gler lar..

dye da hepy2 da..

dye cnfident dye dpt stu mktab ngan amey..

las2 cnie plak jdnyer...

i'm sure she damn down to earth now..

n 4 sure ryte now she really need amey by her side..

2 give fully support..

tp at this tyme gak lar,,,

hp mamat bertuah tuh kna rmpas..

siannyer kwn ak!!

tp tape,,

ak ykin she's a strong gurl..

dye x cm ak..

ak nie cengeng!!

dye pasti dpt survive kat sne..

dye ley mnx tkar ke serting after dat..

chaiyok qis!!

dun forget,,

i'm alwayz ryte here beside u..

all da tyme!!

k la,,

tade mende ag na cter..

ha,,

bsar kmngkinan,,

ak ta pegy jempol..

x mau tgalkan kwn2 ak n dat guy..

hee..

but still in thinking process..

nty2 ak cte ah..

daa~~

bUmPeR iSsUe!!

since i've never blogging since 3 weeks ago,,,
dis is everything 'bout the whole 3 weeks!!!
enjoy reading as well!!

FiRsT DaY oF Ma SkEwL...

wow!!!clisye title..

huk2..

nothing happened really..

pagi tue bgn awl,,,

excited nk pkai bju baru n everything new la..

byasela,,

pink is da priority!!

everything is pink...

hak2..

excited gler doe mau jmpe kwn2 blek..

ehee,,,

nothing interesting sgt than that..

juz harung orientation weeks dgn jayanya..

wlupown muak dgr ceramah tiap2 ary..

sorry ckgu!!mmg hate gler dgr cramah..

tp at least ak da ade hala tuju..

pediatrician,,,

here i comes!!hak2.

pe ak mrepek nieyh??

mY cLaSs 2009...

byase lar,,

after orientation mst lar msuk klas baru kan??

ag la sdey part nieyh,,,

ak wat drama hndustan tyme nie...

from earlier ag ak da tau dak straight a's stu klas,,,

2 yg x bes tuh..

ak tau syifa' mst terasa...

dye kna psah ngan ak...

ak nekad ak kna jd kuat 4 her,,,

at da tyme ckgu announce klas,,,

ak tau ak msuk 4 scn 1...4 ikram..

ngan naeimah n fieqah lar..

ak da start sdey da,,,

kna psah la katekan..

syifa' msuk 4 scn 3...4 ikhlas..

glad gak lar sbb blah klas ak..

ak positivekan dri n tgk syifa' da ok,,,

ak pown mlangkah ke klas ngan azam bru...

tp smangat ak mrudum cm jtuh dri gnung everest after dat...

ak rse cm terasing sgt ble msuk klas,,

fieqah n naeimah da ad tmpat smue...

da start lar ak feel semcm...

lpas tuh syifa lak jmpe ak...

bnteng ak mmg rboh lar...

ak down gler...

truk gak ak ngs tyme tuh...

ak tkut ak x dpt survive kat klas tuh...

pressure tnggi,,,

persaingan sengit,,

expectations high,,,

2 smue lar...

tp at last,,,ak okay gak lar...

lpas syifa pjuk smue...

hee,,,lmah btul ak kan??

and dpt support from sue and 'him' also...

hee...x sngka dye nmpk ak ngs...

so caring la you...

thnx so much...

love u la babe!!!hee...

all my fwenz who support me esp sue,,

million thnx!!

cyunk kamoo lbey!!

moga2 bhagia ngan amey hngga ke jinjang plamin..hee..

da mle mraban mne ntah!

bZ gLeR sEnGaL DoE!!

then ak da start bz wit tons of omework!!!

mcm klcc omework ak everyday lol...

tdo kul 2,,3,, pagi...

mte pown da ade cincin!!hahahah..

kdg2 rse cm nk give up...

tp cpt2 motivate dri..

brpntang maut sblum ajal..hak2..

nseb baek dis boy teman!!

tp dye slalu tdo dlu..

gramnyer!!

but its oke,,,

x mrah dye pown..

juz geram jerk..

ehee...

CoNFuSeD???

yupz!!ak ngah confused ryte now...

know y??

sbb otak n aty nk confused lar..

ehee...

no lar,,

eksyeli ary nie result SBP da kuar..

ak mlas nk tgk sbb ak target ak mmg x dpt...

tp byase la,,,

lumrah aty ade keinginan nak tau kan??

ak pown bkak lar,,,

u know wat?!

ak dpt sbpi jempol,,,

integrasi jempol...

tp 2 la pasal...

ble da tau mle la prasaan confused 2 dtg...

nk pg ke tak nak??

sue suruh ak pg,,,

she put her hope on me...

really hope dat i'll go...

she count on me..

ntahla..

ak pown x sure nk g ke x...

jas suh ak pkir baek2...

dat 'guy' x tau ag...

sian dye,,,

tp ak x smpy aty nk gtau dye...

td ak suh dye kol ak pown,,,

sbb nk gtau pasal tuh..

tp nseb baek dye x kol..

i'm not ready yet...

ak tkut dye sdey..

n ak x nk pisah ngan dye...

same goes to 3 kwn2 baek ak..

ak pown x smpy aty nk gtau dowg..

ktowg da janji nk stay smpy SPM..

nty la,,

ak tggu mse yg seswai..

smpy ble nk sorok kan??

sue jerk yg tau pasal nie at the time being...

mama abah x pksa ak pg...

haish ak bnci mmilih!!!!

xpe2 cool down babe...

nty ak pkir2kan dlu pasal bnda nie..

ehee,,

gpown dftar lmbt ag..

10 feb 09...

lmbt?!!!

oh gosh!!

DaT LuCkY dEaR GuY??

x mau cter pjg2..

nty owg dpt detect sape..

ehee,,,

he's so special,,

he made me feel perfect with him,,,

he accept me as who i am,,,

never complaining me,,,

understand every single of me,,,

always there beside me,,,

everytime!!

he say me CUTE!!

wan thing that no one ever say it to me,,,

he called me yana!!

hak2...cute little name maybe??

syg ke tak kat dye??

of course la syg...

syg sgt2 tau!!!

he's very2 caring...

gler mty nyer caring lar...

dats y ak syg dye...hahaha..

he alwayz make me smiling,,,

make me laughing,,,

make me smiling,,,

kdg2 make me geram ble dye tdo awal,,,

kte nk teman ak wat omework,,,

tp skejap jerk,,,

lpas tuh dye wat ak smile again,,,

dats him,,,

SYG YANA??

ntahla dye,,,

ak pown x tau,,,

klu dye bce,,,

dye tau yg ini adalah dye,,,

he said once,,,

'dye sowg yg ley pgl ak yana'

hahaha,,,

love u too la babe...

tp ktowg x kapel tau!!!

hahaha...

ape ag nk cter eh??

ntahla,,,

kowt ade ag,,,

next entry ak cter..

da pnat perah otak mngarang ayat..

ehee..

ary tuh ak tertarik naeimah's chair...

sian dye jtuh..

ehee,,,

sory syg!!

moga ketemu di lain entry...

aishiteru guyz!!

daa~

NeW yEaR...bYe! bYe! 2008

hye babe...

idk wat i'm going to say ryte now...

but since today is new year,,,

i want to immortalize dis date in ma blog...

1 JANUARY 2009...

gudbye 2008!!

gudbye all da hatred memories...

i want to start everything new...

so,,,

here's my 'azam' for 2009...

idk whether i can real it all..

but,,,

i know i can try!!

1. no tinggal2 solat!!!a little bit realize i think??ehee..

2. no B!!!i hv to study real hard...no honeymoon years!!ahah..

3. dare to take every risk in ma life!!!no negative2!!!will alwayz positive now!!ak brany!!

4. pandai masak!!means??i kena rajin turun dapur la...uhuh..

5. rajin2 senaman!!i'm getting chubby..oh gosh!!

6. maintain my shape..ahaha bley ke??

7. keep smiling!!buang bad mood,,,cengeng,,,n hot-tempered..nty cpt tua doe!!x mau!!

8. rajin2 kan diri pegi ko-ko...ko-ko marks kna naek..ak x nk pegi PLKN!!

9. kna pkai softlan byk2...ak nie ganaz!!ahahaha..

10. tak nak wat owg nangeh ag la...esp mama,,abah,,n all my bes fwen also..x bes!!dosa!!

11. tak nak melawan ckp mama abah...nty ALLAH marah!!

12. be a good sister...good example to adek2kuh yg noty teramat!!

13. pose settle by March!!pose nazar 4 ary...pose ganti 5 ary...huh...

14. get a boyfriend...ahahahah mrepek! mrepek!

i think dis only kowt??

erm its okay..

if i have one later,,,

i'll add-on..

cm pizza hut la plak..;)

daaaaaa~~

- i'm a new person -

Ma PmR PaSsEd WiTh FLyiNg CoLoUr!!!

hye babe!!!
hepy!hepy!hepy!
finally,,,
PMR result had gave its sunshine..
to me especially!!!!
guess wat i get???

9A's iN Ma HaNd LoL!!!!

i'm hepy and very satisfied with ma result...
i'd made everyone who's loving me proud of me n myself!!
i promise to myself,,,
no B for da future!!
dis is juz da beginning...
so many challenges wait for me in front there..
so,,,
lets rock da world!!!!!!!
u're da great gurl babe!!

- so satisfied!! -

aLL Da WaY tO CaMeRoN + ReSuLt

hye babe...
juz a short entry here..
two things important...
hepy vs nervous...
i'm going to cameron tomorrow...
until tuesday..
the date of 30 dec 2008..
the day where the PMR result is announced...
the nerves come like hell you know...
like da world is going to be end..
watever it is,,,
i have to go through it...
i have to face da fact,,,da reality...
whether it is good or jerk..
so,,,
da conclusion is...
enjoy the hols i think??
bcause my result is already there..
only me who dun know it yet...
huh!okay be right here after da hols!!
will tell u later about my vacation n my result also...
daa~

- my nerves getting hardcore -

tHe jEaLoUs FeEL aLsO cOmE sUmTyMeS...

hye babe...
y dis kind of feeling should come to my lyfe??
me also dun know..
sumtymes i want to be like other people..
to love and to be loved..
but,,,
i never feel all dat kind of things...
all my love story is same...
juz love without being loved...
no reply!!
n because of dat i hate to fall in love...
eventhough i want to fall in love..
maybe the time hasn't come yet..
maybe dis is da instict of a teenager's lyfe...
a girl like me,,,
i admit dat fact...
but if i get enough love from mama and abah,,,
i will not hoping to get some love from another people who called 'MAN'..
i dun know wat is the causes...
but the most important things here is,,,
i'm jealous ryte now!!

- jealous lyke hell -

iS iT LOVE???

hye babe...
so long since the last one..
nothing interesting to talk about...
dats why i am not around..hee..
erm,,PMR result will be announced on 30 dec 2008...
hope will pass with flying colours..
9A's like wat i'm always dreaming...
juz pray 4 me ya..
all ur prayers will be appreciated..
guess!where am i at dat tyme??
i'm at cameron!!
a little bit frustrated coz i want to meet all my fwenz..
but wat can i do..
maybe there's sumthing behind all this..
okay back to the topic!!
y i'm saying like that??
i'm fallin in love again??
i dun know...
but maybe sumone has opened my heart again...
dat guy,,,
he helped me to take my bro's toy in the drain..
he showed his gentleness...
maybe bcoz of dat i admire him..
but,,,
i dun know everything about him..
i say thank you and juz go without saying anything...
he reply by 'you're welcome' and also go juz like that..
sumtymes i regretted..
y i dun continue the conversation..
but,,,
yea only Allah knows the best for me right??
i heard all his fwenz call him 'pat'..
stand for wat??
herm,i dun know..
now i juz go with da flow...
k,,,tata!!

- confused sumtymes -

If u love someone so deeply,,,
let him go...
if he comes back to u,,,
he's yours,,,
forever to hold...
but if he doesn't,,,
then u should know that he was never meant to be yours at all...

sTaR iS tHe gReaT CoMPaNy...

hye babe...
how are you??
i'm alright...
i'm still myself...
nothing changed...hua2..
since i dun want to talk about him anymore,,,
i want to talk about star...
one of da Allah's creatures dat is very beautiful...
very special also...
i'm alwayz hears people say,,,
"if u are lonely in da middle of da nyte,,,
try looking at the same star at the sky..."
now i realise why...
because,,,
star is the greatest company...
they alwayz staying there,,,
looking at everyone of us...
they are such a loyal creature...
although sumtymes they are hiding behind the clouds,,,
but,,,
they will appear again after da cloud faded...
in spite of they juz use a little bit of sunlight,,,
but they still there,,,
shining and always shining...
whenever we want to share sumthing,,,
whether it is happy or sad,,,
they alwayz want to hear...
hearing,,,and keep hearing until we finished...
they never get bored...
i know,,,
they cannot solve our problem,,,
but,,,
they can be our friends,,,
they can be our company,,,
and they can help us to smile again...
because looking at them will make us feeling calm...
so thats y i said star is the great company...
tata!!!

- discover sumthing -

sLaMaT aRy RaYe AiDiLaDHa...

hye babe...
ak rse x terlmbat kowt nk ucap slamat ary raye kan...
wlupown da 3 ary brlalu...hik2..
ak blik kg ary sbtu ptg..
after mkcu ak blik keje...
ary ahad 2 atuk ak wat lemang...
byase la,,
fmily ak x sah kowt x wat lemang n ngacau dodol...
hehe..tp bes tau...
dpt rse suasana raye 2 cket...
first2 ngacau,,,
abg2 ak smue smangat abis trun pdang...
tp da last2...
tgal atuk ak,,,
pak long ak,,
n pak cik jep...
hahaha sian ak nengok...
ak plak??
first2 ak siap nasi nk mkn...
lpas 2 ak chow la....
ngan cousin2 ak...hak2..
ktowg asyk kna bsuh pnggan...
mne than doe...hahaha...
ha!dayah rmbut da lurus siowt...
cun abis minah tue...
bru nk msuk form 1..
klah ak ngan ikin...huk2...
tp ktowg maintain gak...
ktowg tdo lmbt mlm raye 2...
pg raye ktowg da bgn lmbt...
kan ujan...
sejuk,,,,
lg la x reti nk bgn...
ape da kelam kabut bgn nk gsok bju...
abg2 tue da la nk pg smayang raye...
hahaha ble tgk blik pg raye 2 bes sgt...
nk gelak pown ade...
fmily mak long ak da x yah rsau...
sbb da gsok bju awl2...
ak gsok bju dlu...
gsok skaly la bju fmily ak...
ak kan baek..hahaha...
anak mithali!!prasan!!
lpas 2 dayah gsok bju dye n along...
tp ntah cne gsok bju ntah minah 2..
x licin..along eh dah bsing...
ak tlg la gsok blik...
abg azrul ag sempoi...
bju x yah gsok pown...
tp abg zizi x...
mamat 2 asyk nk maintain stylo jerk...
bju dye mak ngah ak gsok la...
tp yg plg klaka sbb da lmbat,,,
abg tapa pg smayang raye pkai t-shirt jerk...
sbb x smpat nk gsok bju...
hehehe..
abg putra lngsung x pg smayang raye...
lg truk,,,
mlas nk bgn sbb2 la...hehe...
2 la knangan pg raye kan...
blik air pown brebut2...
ak mndi lmbt gak..
after mamat2 bertuah tue suda mndi..
ak x g smayang raye pown...
lpas tue ak tlg siapkan bekfes...
menu yg laen drpd ary2 byase la pastinyer...
ad lemang,,,
ktupat,,,
rendang,,,
lontong,,,
kek,,,
mcm2 ag la...
hik2...tp ary tue x g maner2 pown...
sbb ujan...
xde mood nk kuar...
owg yg rmai dtg umah nenek...
fmily kakak nenek...
dpt gak la ak jmpe owg yg ak x pnah jmpe b4 nie...
ptg tue ktowg lepak2 la smbil brak2...
atuk nenek ak mle la bkak ksah lme...
tyme anak2 dowg mude2 dlu...
mcm2 ksah ak dgr...
hahaha klaka sgt...
atuk ngan nenek ak kawen tyme umor 19 taon...
mude sgt ag kan??
bg kite...
tp bg dowg mmg da ptot kawen...
so ksimpulannyer,,,
dlu n skarang laen sgt...
so owg x ley nk bndingkan rmaja zman dlu n rmaja zman skarang...
sbb zman da brubah...
hahaha pe ak mrepek nie??
ha dgr cter result kuar 26 hb...
cuak abes doe...
tp ape ley wat kan..
trime jer la...
erm 19 smpy 21 nie,,,
fmily abah ak nk wat gathering kat PD..
so bes gilak sih!!!
x sbarnyer....
27hb plak nk g cameron...
2 brgntung pd result...
kowt result ak bes,,,
mst hols 2 plg brmkne...
hehe..da pnjang sgt nie...
tata!!!

- insan yang menikmati masa remajanya -

perfume and watch!!

hye babe...

ary nie ak x nak tlis pnjang2..

pnat owg nk bce kan...

(my fwen byk yg complain kte ak klu mnulis xde full stop..hik2)

kdg2 ble da tlis 2 mmg terleka sgt..

smpy x sedar ak da syok sndiri..;)

erm tau nape entry ak kaly nie cn tue??

hahaha eksyeli 2 things nie mmg jadi fav ak...

ak ske kumpul perfume...

sbb bau dye wangi sgt...

n sbb btol dye cntik2..

pelbagai rupa, bentuk,warna dan saiz..

jam tangan plak??

i can't live without my watch...

bg aku jam tngan is very penting sbb it tells us da tyme...

n alwayz teach ak supaya jgn bazirkan mase...hak2..

snang citer,,,

tanpa jam tangan dis gurl will ilang arah...

mcm xde tgn la..hak2..

tp ape motif ak cter pasal topik nie erk??

eksyeli my fwen pegi us ary nie...

ak doakan dye slamat pegi slamat blik ke tanah air..

hepy holidays babe...

if ko bce blog ak nie tau la kan wat should u do??

one of the 2 things...hahahaha..

dye nk bg ak present..

special from us tau...hahaha

dye tye ak ape ak nak...

so ak ckp la one of the 2 things up there...huk2..

sbb 2 la aku mrepek2 pasal dua bnda nie..

k la,,,

aku da pnat mrepek...

da sparuh gler da pown duk umah...

* hmpir mati keboringan...hak2..

nak kuar nie...

cari angin yg segar..;p

papai!!!

- minah perfume vs minah jam tangan -

hepy berday to you...

hye babe...
today ak nk wish hepi berday to sumone...
'hepy berday to you'...
tau sape sumone tue???
sumone yg sering membuatkan aku tersenyum bahagia sepanjang ary,,,
sumone yg tlah mencuri sekeping aty ini sejak 2 tahun dahulu,,,
sumone yg telah mengisi ary-aryku dgn kenangan terindah,,,
sumone yg sering memenuhi mimpi-mimpi malamku,,,
sumone yg telah membuatkan aty ini gelisah walaupun sehari tdak mlihat raut wajahnya,,,
sumone yg telah mengajar aku apa itu cinta,,,
sumone yg telah menjebakkan aku ke dalam kancah percintaan,,,
pendek kata,,
sumone nie lah yg membuatkan aku jatuh cinta,,,
sumone nie merupakan insan pertama yg pernah ak cintai,,,
sumone nie is my first love,,,
but,,,
sumone nie juga lah yg telah membuatkan aku menangis,,,
sumone nie juga lah yang telah merobekkan aty ini,,,
sumone nie juga lah yang membuatkan ak kadang kala putus harapan untuk idup dan bercinta lagi,,,
kenapa??
kerana sumone nie bukan milik aku dulu, kini dan selamanya...
dia milik org laen yg begitu bertuah dapat memilikinya...
ak telah lama sedar hakikat yg begitu memeritkan ini...
tp aku hairan,,,
kenapa aku terlampau bodoh untuk terus menerima dan mencintai sumone ini,,,
sedangkan aku sendiri terpaksa menahan aty dan perasaan aku dengan segala perbuatan dye...
bodohnyer ak...
cinta ini memang telah membutakan mata, hati dan akal fikiran ku...
sehinggakan ak tak pernah ambil peduli dengan setiap nasihat org2 yg menyayangi aku...
tapi sekarang aku telah sedar,,,
aku ambil keputusan untuk terus membuang dye jauh dari hidupku...
aku tidak mahu ingat lg tentang sumone tue..
biarlah dye bahagia dengan idupnya...
ak doakan dye sentiasa dalam lingkungan rahmat Allah...
semoga pertambahan umurnya hari ini menjadikan dia lebih matang dan lebih bertanggungjawab...
terima kasih kerana pernah hadir dalam lapangan hidupku...
dan pernah membuatkan hari-hariku ceria, gembira dan bahagia..
walaupun ak tidak pernah berasa kasih sayang darimu...
mulai hari ini,,,
aku akan tinggalkan segala masa-masa silamku,,,
dan terus memandang jauh ke hadapan,,,
mengorak langkah setapak demi setapak,,,
menuju ke bintang,,,
menuju ke puncak kejayaan,,
tanpa perlu menoleh ke belakang lagi...
aku baru sedar betapa beratnya tanggungjawab aku di atas muka bumi Allah ini...
tanggungjawab sebagai hambaNya...
untuk beribadah dan berbakti di atas tanah ini...
tanggungjawab sebagai seorang pelajar..
untuk terus menimba ilmu tanpa penat dan jemu...
hingga akhirnya ak mampu membanggakan smue org di dunia ini...
tanggungjawab sebagai seorang anak...
untuk berusaha menjadi anak yg solehah dan tau mengenang jasa mama dan abah...
untuk menyara mereka tatkala aku dewasa kelak...
untuk membalas segala jasa dan pengorbanan mereka,,,
jerih payah mereka sepanjang membesarkan aku dan adik-adik...
tanggungjawab aku sebagai seorang kakak...
untuk menjadi contoh dan teladan terbaik untuk adik-adikku...
tanggungjawab aku sebagai seorang kawan dan sahabat...
untuk sentiasa menjaga ikatan suci ini agar sentiasa terjalin utuh...
untuk jatuh cinta sekali lagi???
tidak mudah...
kerana aty ini telah dilukai...
tp sekiranya jodoh aku telah tiba,,,
aku terima ketentuan ILAHI..
tp bukan sekarang masanya...
buat kali terakhir 'SELAMAT HARI LAHIR YANG KE-17'
selamat tinggal memori...
wassalam...

-insan yang merelakan dalam kepayahan -

ke'borink'an yunk mlampaw!!!!

hye babe...
erm lme erk tak dtg singgah,,,
hak2...
takde mo0d nk blogging lowh...
ak cuti nieyh brink gler...
tak tau nk wat ape...
bgn,,,
mkan,,,
n mem'big'kan body...
hahaha...
eksyeli ak nervous gler tnggu result,,,
adik ak result da kluar...
so,,,
dgn sgala hormatnyer ak nie sdang menganggur la...hak2,,,
hopefully result ak nty tak mengeciwakan owg2 skeliling ak yg senantiasa menghrapkan ak...
bru kini ak sedar,,,
ade gak owg2 around me yg menyayangi ak,,,,
erm eksyeli ad sumthing behind dis...
nty ak citer lpas ak collect smue material k...huk2...
k la,,,
tak tau gler ape nk ckp..hahaha...
papai babe!!!!
take care ya...

- insan yg sentiasa mnghrapkan sinar Ilahi -

nota kaki 1 : erm,ak tak ley lupe kem ary tue...still fresh in ma mind...nty ak story later k??
nota kaki 2 : ak glew cket!!!bye2...
nota kaki 3 : owg still tak tau ak sape??biarlah rahsia...hak2...

sudut aty menyusun bicara,,,
kekalkan cntamu terhadap Ilahi,,,
elakkan nafsu menguasai aty,,,
muhasabah drimu seikhlas nurani,,,
agar iman teguh berdiri,,,
sinar Ilahi turut mengiringi... =)))

love vs trip...dua2 best!!!

hye babe...
ary nie ad 2 things yg happened dlm idup ak...
first,,,
td ak g trip skewl...
pg usim...
bes gler sbb dpt spent tyme ngan kwn2 ak...
bkn slalu dpt pluang cnie...
skali-skala jerk...
so,,grab da chance!!!
hahaha...
ak mmg gler cket r mlm nieyh...
sepjg ary ak asyk tersnyum jerk,,
and nothing can make me angry or bad mood 2day...
hahaha...
u know y???
nty ak story japg...
pg usim byk mmbke mata ak ttg realiti idup sbg seowg siswi....
islam x mnuntut kte tuk memakai tdung lbuh...
ttp dye mnuntut kte utk mnutup n mnjaga aurat...
n one thing that i learn is ape yg LELAKI wat PEREMPUAN pown ley wat...
kat skewl ak,,,
ktowg x ley msuk slat,,,
ktowg x ley nk lsak2,,,
smue yg LELAKI wat ktowg x ley wat...
tp kat usim,,
everything kte ley wat...
dis skewl really close my mind,,,,
ops!!!da terktuk...hehe..
skali-skala jerk...
2 kan hkikat yg everyone should accept...
ak rse klu ak x ley nk wat pediatric kat UK,,,
i should choose usim i think...hehe..
watever la!!
u know wat??
tmn usim cntik gler doe...
ak jlajah da whole park dis morning..hahaha
after dat ak g jusco s2...
nothin' spesyel...
juz jln2 ngan minah 3 owg tue...
n mkn donut dlm bas...hahaha
watever it is trip 2 mmg mninggalkan memori trindah yg x mkin ak lpekan bersma shabat2 baek ak...
i love u all!!!!
ha x sbar la 2 nk tau cter pasal 'dye'...
hahaha,,,
eksyeli bnda 2 xdela pape sgt...
n ak sndri pown x tau ape motif dye..
bt ak mmg rse bhagia sgt!!!
terasa spt di alam kyangan..hahaha
pg td b4 g usim ak lpak kat dewan...
ad rehearsal tuk mjlis akhir taon ktowg...
skaly dgn mjlis pnyampaian hdiah...
ak nmpak dye n kwn2 dye..
tp ak wat bodo jerk..
gpown dye x prasan ak...
ak pown x nk terhegeh-hegeh dpn dye..
(wlupown mte ak x bley bralih tuk tgk bnda laen..;))
ble ckgu pgl list nme student,,
ak da start cuak abis...
nme ak first2 plak form3 tue...
tp ak maintain jer la,,,
u know wat,,
ble ckgu pgl nme ak,,,
dye trus bralih cri2 ak...
jlas gler...
kwn2 ak smue prasan doe...
dak2 yg x tau trus jd tau...
malu gler ak!!!!
tp Allah jer yg tau btapa hepynyer ak saat 2...
even ak tau yg dye cri ak sbb nk drop ak,,,
bkn sbb dye ske ak...
negative again!!
cbela positive cket,,,
x bley!!!sbb dye ad mia...
ok back on track!!
at first dye x jmpe ak...
ak da hepy da...
tp tber2 ak psing jerk dye pow pndg ak...
trus ckp kat kwn dye,,
"ha da jmpe!!2 dye"
ak wat derk jer...
tp bcoz of gabra yg teramat,,
ak pown kuar cri ktnangan...
kwn ak kte lpas ak kuar dye brdri,,,
wat2 btol2 bju pas 2 psing2 blakang,,
mmg ak hepy gler n bhagia 2 xyah ckp la...
cm di awang-awangan...
bt if u ask me y he find me,,,
ak pown x tau...
cme yg ak tau dye bkn cri ak sbb dye ske kat ak,,,
dye juz nk dropkan ak sbb ak cri pasal ngan dye...
so gurl jgn prasan n mnghrap lbey2...
nty ko gak yg truk kecewa...
tp ak ttp nekad nk wish dye 'gud luck 4 spm'...
terplg r dye nk pkir ape...
k la,,,pjg gler da nieyh..
doakan esk xde pape yg memalukan happened kat ak ya..
papai..take care u!!!

nota kaki 1 : ak nk beli stu nvel 2...bes gler!!
nota kaki 2 : jgn heboh2 kat owg tau!!

sudut aty menganyam angan-angan,,,
telah datang satu runtunan rindu,,,
mnyusup shingga aku terkaku,,,
blehkah aku seru namamu???
pd setiap pnghujung rndu ini??
atau sering-sering ak berbisik sndrian,,,
krim pada angin,,,
bercrite ttg rndu pdmu!!!!

cinta dalam aty...

Mungkin ini memang jalan takdir ku,
mengagumi tanpa dicintai,
tak mengapa bagi ku,
asal kau pun bahagia,
dalam hidup mu,
dalam hidup mu.
Telah lama ku pendam perasaan itu,
menunggu hati mu, menyambut diri ku,
tak mengapa bagi ku,
mencintai mu pun adalah bahagia untuk ku,
bahagia untuk ku.
Ku ingin kau tahu,
diri ku disini,
menanti diri mu,
meski ku tunggu hingga ujung waktu ku,
dan berharap,
rasa ini ‘kan abadi untuk selamanya.
Dan izinkan aku,
memeluk diri mu,
kali ini saja,
‘tuk ucapkan s’lamat tinggal untuk s’lamanya,
dan biarkan, rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja.

hye babe...
ary nie ak tringin nk melakar bait-bait indah di atas...
tau knape??
ak pown x tau knape...
tp ak terkesan dgn liriknya...
bce sndri dan fhami mksudnya...
2 sumone yg realy knal ak,,
then they'll know how very meaningful is this wordings 4 me...
seorang lelaki itu dilahirkan dengan amanah dan tanggungjawab yg berat...
salah satunya ialah meletakkan martabat seorg wanita di tempat yg terpuji...
y should i thinking 'bout all dis things???
ntahla..
yg pasti ak ttp nk memberitahu smue owg btapa brhrganya nilai harga diri dan martabat seorang yg bergelar WANITA...
bkan hnya mnjadi prmainan seorg LELAKI...
knape org ske mempermuahkan hrga cnta mrk???
andainya cnta yg hadir di antara mrk itu cnta yg suci,,,
knape harus dijaja dan disepahkan di mana-mana???
ak still tak fham knape owg ske sgt menunjuk2 yg diowg 2 'knonnyer' loving kapel!!!!
ape ak mrapu nieyh??
da la 2,,,
byk sgt wat dosa....
because of dat 2 person,,,
i'd thinking lyke adult...
back 2 da track now gurl!!!!
ak nk cter byk bnda ag..
sb 2day byk sgt bnda hepy yg hadir dlm idup gue...
tp ak x nk post kat cnie..
ak post tmpt laen....
k bubbye!!!

nota kaki 1 : ak nk jd cm olivia...tak pnah ptus asa mngejar cntanyer...
nota kaki 2 : 4get everything yg ak mrepek kat atas!!!i'm going crazy i think??

sudut aty melepas sgalenyer,,,
tlg jgn mngade2 dpn ak!!!!!
i hate u!!!!!!!!