Thursday, July 30, 2009

dEaTh??

babe,,
creepy entry??
nothings to do with it act..
juz a title..
coz of the poem that i'd learnt tuday..
dis morning,,
i bengang tahap maksimum already..
with the guy named hazim!!
ugh!
he's realy too much!
ta responsible langsung..
ngelat wat keje..
then push all his work to me and naeimah..
honest lar klu btul ta nak wat..
no need to give such dat stupid nonsense reason..
ta msuk akal btul..
da la i nak study chemistry ngan tch zai..
we were late tuday..
chem class had started almost 15 min..
ta cukup kaki na lari from lbrary to da class..
da la skip arabic..
kowt marks oke tape gak..
managed to get only 60 in sumative..
da pecahkan rekod ta sdar2 dri ag fitrah kan??
bagus lar..
* (tadi darurat,,tape lar..forgiven..)
is it true??
yes coz of hazim's work...
blah ah...
wat sket aty jea ingat...
dis evening,,
i pkir na escape klas tch punitha * (mama saddiq n sepet ) ;)
luck i was not to..
da class is so interesting..hahah..
finally,,
i succeed!!my 'wood-hand' is getting softer..hak2..
i was drawing tuday!!
cn u imagine??believe it plz..
here's da prove oke..
original dari ladang..;)
act dis is yesterday work..
but couldn't manage to do it..
coz of bz tgk taiwan story yg hero2nya ensem na maty..gahah..
so i did it curi-curi in klas father-in-law hawa..
ckgu isa lar..
pergh,,
almost half of klas sleeping in his class..
luck i was not 1 of them for tuday..gahah..
bz drawing lar..
even the result is just so-so..
like the kindergarten kids..;)
shame!!
then, tch asked us to do a poem dat related to death..
u wondered y??
coz tuday we learnt "there's been a death in the opposite house".
anything as long as it related...
so,,
the tyme to 'perah otak' pun started...
i juz write wat i am expert too..
LOVE!
death and LOVE!!
here's da poem!!

" Yesterday i saw him,

The one i shared his beautiful smile,

The warmness of his touch and hug that i grabbed,

The spirit that he offered,

Gave me extra strength to stand on the world,

Today?!

I couldn't see his smile rises after my tears,

I couldn't hear even a single word from him,

His touch that i couldn't feel anymore,

And the calmness of his will always be a apart of my heart,

All that i could do is remebering the sweet memories,

And a line of pray to replace the ' I LOVE YOU ',

He has gone forever,

But not in mine..."

tch said that was so romantic,,,

hahah,,blooming heart..ngeh2..;)

maybe cz of da effect of reading too much love novels..

gahah..even all my essay is related to sumthing dat i realy love to talk to..

dat was LOVE!

sorry,,

can't do anything..

dat's wat i am...hee..

oke,,

last things,,

tch pun asked us to compare the 'death' with sumthing else..

many answers appeared...

lightning,,,nightmare,,,raining,,bla,,bla,,bla,,,

i dun know wat i'm gonna say,,

it happened so fast dat i couldn't even think..

so juz say sumthing dat crossed my mind..

" death is TIME.. "

irreversible and forever..hahah

quite reasonable ryte??

watever..

yg ptg i enjoyed the english class tuday..

not sleepy like usual i had..

gud improvement..kuang! kuang! kuang!

wah!!

over-writing..

will stop by now..

na tdow!!

even esok ta skola..

H1N1 kat skola..tkowt + my dad ta bg pegi..

so akur kehendak Ilahi..heheh

busuk,,

u stay sowg2 tu-more-row k??

sory!!!

gtg now!!

daa~~

take care..

ha,,

almost forgotten,,

da word "nightmare" is came from him!!

je ta'imme!!!

yes,,i do love him!!

ny probs?

so,,bonne nuit!

Friday, July 24, 2009

ReLeaSe FroM SuFFeReD!!Na TiDoW PuaS2...

babe!!
ugh . finally .
released from the suffered !
could not handle da tense nymore .
shit .
exam was stupid .
answering lyke kindergarten kidz .
cn u imagine ?
dun hv tyme 2 study even a single thing .
answering questions blindly .
dun know y ,
everything was mixed up now .
sad , frust , alone , hatred .
mixed to one .
sad coz of him ??
dun know ..
a lil bit maybe ..
owez bz like all da 24 hrs is his .
then me ??
damn it .
juz forget it .
frust ?
of cos !
my heart was juz like ' thrown-away-to-the-rock ' ..
my results is oke i think .
even i couldn't beat her !
so wat !! any probs ?!
watever . go to hell .
ugh . do i care ?
i'm lucky dat all my fwenz really support me .
tch zai really support me .
she's da only wan dat still trust my ability .
<3>
at least i'd got 2A1 by now .
thnx to ALLAH .
hatred ?
yup !
y owez follow me ?
copycat everything dat i did ?
omg ! rimas oke !
plz dun disturb me anymore !
so k . i do hv my own ways .
juz wait n see .
u had everything .
so ?
no need to disturb mine .
enough !
full stop !
plz . sumbody !
help me !
yes !
one thing !
juz happened 'bout a moment ago .
he called me ' yana ' .
busuk ,,,
terharunyer !
gahah . i'm realy in love !
full stop !
ouh , gtg now !
c u later babe !
<333> .


Saturday, May 16, 2009

bRiNg HiM To tHe ToP!!



~AKIM~
aKaN BeRaKsi Di gRaNd FiNaLe aKaDeMi FaNtaSiA 7 ToNyTe!!!

CoMe oN!!

aFuNdi aKiM
uNtiL hE BeCoMe LiKe ThiS!!

ThiS GuY,,,

aFiQ HaKiM BiN aHmaD!!

WiLL PerFoRm Da BeSt ToNyTe!!

pRaY FoR HiS SuCcEsS...




bRiNg aLL OuR bEaUtiFuL BaNNeR tO GiVe HiM FuLLy sUpPoRt...


aLL Da GaFiMMeRs,,,

GeRaKaN pEnYoKoNg aFiQ HaKiM,,,







LeT's aFuNdi aKim!!

LeT HiM bE aT tHe ToP...

aNd Be ThE BEST aMoNg tHe BEST!!

Monday, May 11, 2009

iT's a TeEn LiFe....

ThiS iS WaT TeEn iS aLL aBoUt...
iT's aLL aBoUt a GurL...
eNjOy!!!








GurL iS VeRy CoMpLiCaTeD...
eVeRyThiNg MuSt Be PeRfeCT...
sO,,BoYs!!!
bE ReaDy...
LiFe aS a TeEn iS NoT CoMpLeTe WiThOuT LOVE!!!
XOXO...;)))
eVeRyThiNg sEeMs LiKe iN a HeaVeN,,,
dOn'T eVeR LiE tO GurL iF YoU WaNt tHe ReLaTioNsHiP LaSts LoNgEr!!!
ReMemBeR!!
tRuSt iS Da gReaT pRioRiTy FoR aLL GurL!!!

GuRLs aRe LoYaL!!!
DuN eVeR TrYiNg tO cHeaT uS!!!
FriEnDsHiP iS oNe ThiNg ThaT iS VeRy SyNoNym WiTh ThE GuRLz...
GurL CaN LiVe WiThOuT MAN iN ThEiR LiFe,,,
BuT wE CaNnOt LiVe WiThOuT bFF bY oUr SiDe...
GoSsiPpiNg iS Da BeSt acTiViTy wHeN wE aLwaYz MeT..
MeaNwHiLe,,
bFf iS Da pLaCe wHeRe wE sHaRiNg eVeRyThiNg,,,
sHaRiNg oUr sEcReTs,,,
oUr LaUgHTeR,,
oUr pRobLeMs WiTh bOyZ,,,
aNd oF CoS oUr TeaRs...
FaSHiOn aNd GuRLz CanNoT bE sEpaRaTeD!!!
No WoNdEr wE'LL TaKe a FeW hOuRs tO GeT ReaDy..
No CoMpLaiNts pLeaSe!!
DiS iS wHo wE acTuaLLy aRe..
aCcEpTs uS aS wHo wE aRe...

Da CoNcLuSiOn HeRe iS,,,
LiFe aS a TeEnaGeRs GurL iS vErY wOnDeRFuL!!!
i WaS vErY gLaD tO bE BoRn aS a GurL...

oUr LiFe iS FuLL WiTh CoLouRz!!!
BuT!!!
sUmTyMeS,,
LiFe aS a TeEn iSn'T aS EaSy aS iT LoOkS... :]
ThE TeaRs aLso RoLLiNg DoWn oUr ChEeKs...

SuMTyMeS wE FeLt LiKe LiFe iS sUcH a JeRk!!!

FiNaLLy,,,

ThE sMiLeS RiSeS aGaiN oN oUr FaCeS,,,

DaT's Da ReaLiTy oF LiFe aS a TeEnaGeRs aNd a GuRl...

FiGhTiNg aGaiNsT oUr oWn eMoTiOnS...;)))


eXaM! eXaM! eXaM! uGh!!!!

can you see this messy room??
omg,,,
dis is how my study section looks lyke...
lots of books here and there..
a pile of notez at the edge..
ugh!!

tomorrow is exam,,,
can u imagine,,
how i can read tons of the notez like this in one nyte??
i'm getting fed-up!!
oh gosh!!
this books also??
chemistry??
bio??
phy??
add math??
english??
i"m dying!!!

my nerves getting thunderstruck,,,
i'm totally not ready yet!!
i hate dis exam room...
where is my friends??
at the back there??
getting crazy!!



i'm always praying that i will not being like this...
i thought of being relax,,
and plz jgn tensyen2..
u can do it babe!!




finally,,,
for all pepel who will take their exam,,,
n for myself,,,
GOOD LUCK..



can't wait to finish all this nonsense...
i want to enjoy!!!
pray for my succes ya???
<333
daa~

HePy MoTheR's DaY!!!

ATTENTION!!!!

FoR a VeRy SpeCiaL PeRsOn NaMeD,,,

NIRWANA BINTI MOHD RASHID,,,

WiTh a VeRy gReaT HoNoUr,,,

i DeDiCaTeD tHiS eSpEciaLLy FoR You...

FrOm,,,

BaBy TaLk...

To,,,

TeLLiNg sToRieS,,,

To,,,

hEaRT tO hEaRT TaLkS,,,

ToDaY,,,

i WaNt tO TeLL YoU ThaT,,

HoW LuCKy i aM,,,

aNd HoW sPeCiaL YoU aRe...

HaPPy MoTHeR's DaY,,,

MaMa...

i LoVe You So MuCh...

i Can'T LiVe WiThOuT YoU...

NoW,,,

ThE BeSt ThiNg PeOpLe WiLL SaY To mE iS,,,

LiKe MoTheR,,,

LiKe DaUghTeR....

YouR CoNFiDeNcE,,,
TaUgHt Me i CoULd Do aNyThiNg!!!



YoU'Re SuCh a VeRy gReaT aNd WoNDeRFuL WoMaN i EveR HaD...
My MAMA iS tHe MosT BeaUTiFuL WoMaN i eVeR SaW..
aLL i aM i oWe To mY MAMA...
i aTTriBuTe aLL mY sUcCeSs iN LiFe,,,
To ThE MoRaL,,,
iNTeLLecTuaL,,,
aNd PhYsiCaL eDuCaTiOn,,
i ReCeiVeD FRoM HeR...
WiTh LoTs oF <333,,,
uR BeLoVeD DauGhTeR,,,
~ FiTRaH iLyaNa BiNTi aBd HaLiP ~

Sunday, May 10, 2009

AF sToRy!!!

know this guy???


yup!!!
dis very handsome guy is NUBHAN!!!
one of my idol..
he's so cute,,
he's so handsome,,
and of course he's HOT!!
y i like him??
sbb dye ensem lar of cos..hahah..
dye glak funny lorh..comey gler2 ouh..
dye noty also...
sng cter everything pasal dye i admire lar..
hahah..
although many people talk badly 'bout him,,
but he managed to get,,
3RD PLACE IN AKADEMI FANTASIA 6 oke!!!
da ade manager sndri ag..
kowg ape ade???
so,,,
pepel shut ur mouth oke...
hahah...


and dis 2009 year,,
wat about dis guy???
knal ke sape dye???


dulu mmg ta knal kowt,,,
tp skunk???
dis is one of da transformation of AF7...
salah seorg bntang kelahiran Akademi Fantasia 7...
Muhamad Afiq Hakim bin Ahmad...
AKIM lar!!!
can u see da big difference before and after??
totally differed ouh..
dulu serabai jea..
skunk da ensem abes siowt..
hahah..
bak kata dye ah,,,
dulu dye wash his hair pkai sabun badan jea...
skunk da pkai syampu..hahah...
klaka ah dye nie...

nape i post pic dye??
sbb in AF7 i minat dye sowg jea..hahah...
dye nie same cm nubhan,,,
ensem,,cute,,cumey,,and ensem...
++ dye noty gak lar..ahaks...
of cos lar dye HOT among the HOTTEST...ngeh..
watever it is,,,
he's getting better and improved until now...
psst! getting handsome too...dush!!omg...hahahah..
roll ur cursor down and enjoy the transformation of AKIM!!!

ta sure when pix nie dicapture...
nyway,,,he's totally damn HOT!!


pix ms dye ouh...
mamat nie mmg cute ouh...
can i have him???
hahah..;)
dis pix when 3rd konsert kowt ta silap...
he sang anak gembala by sudirman...
da transformation had started...
see his new style of hair??

of cos lar 7th concert...
situasi ouh babe!!
kasi pecah nyer concert!!
energy level superb!!
second best concert..
da best mstilah dis 9th concert,,,
i'm yours...hahah..
and for all of you,,,
i want to announce dat,,,
this guy named AKIM had qualified himself in FINAL CONCERT AF7!!!
AFUNDI AKIM!!!!
I'M YOURS!!!

i'M BaCk!!!


oit babe!!!
omg rndunyer na blogging!!!
hahah..
ta tau nape,,
b4 nie mlas gler na blogging ouh..
bt ary nie tergerak lak na blogging..
hahah..many things happened since last day b4...
bt ta mau ingt2 ag da...
became history as well...
now,,,open new door,,,
starts new lyfe..
forgot everything b4!!
hepy2 alwayz k!!
chaiyok dear!!

appreciating,,,

qis,,,
u've always by my side,,,
no matter wat happened,,,
u've be a very good listener...
can't imagine my life without you..
i can live without a man,,,
but siyesli i can't live without a bff like you...
<333>
babe...
~ SuRaYa BaLqiS HiShaMuDiN ~



Thursday, March 19, 2009

LyFe iS jUsT LiKe a WhEeL...


idup mmg mcm sebuah roda...
kdg2 kte kat atas,,,
kdg2 kte kat bwah...
satu masa dlu,,,
ak ta pnah prcaye pada kata-kata nie...
tp bru skarang ak pham,,,
how it feels when kte brade di bwah...
mungkin minggu lepas aku bley tertawa gembira,,,
but now,,,
ak ta tau,,,
ble lagi saatnye ak mampu untuk mengukir segaris senyuman lagi...
org slalu ckp,,,
the feel of losing sumone that we love is realy2 hard..
but i never feel dat kind of feeling,,,
until,,,
Allah uji ak buat kesekian kalinya...
dua insan yg pling ak syg pergi dari idup ak dgn cara yg btul2 ak ta jangka...
nurafieqah amiera...
ak knal dye sjak kali pertama ak mnjejakkan kaki di bumi SHAMS..
dye la owg pertama yg tegur ak di kelas 1 ikhlas...
masa merapatkan hubungan kitowg..
hbungan yg menginjak ke taon ke-4 nie finally mmrlukan pngorbanan yg bkan sikit..
mungkin ini pengorbanan yg mnguji kkuatan hbungan ini..
hnya ak yg susa sgt ingin mnerima prubahan nie..
sbb dis change terlalu mndadak..
i dun hv any preparation at all..
ak tau dye ade mohon sbp tuh..
and ak pun tau dye dpt offer second intake scn muar..
but i dun expect she'll accept dat offer..
mungkin nie nilai fwenship yg ak agungkan,,,
dye lngsung ta bgtau ak yg dye decide na pg..
ak tau pun dri naeimah...
knape dye ta bgtau ak dye na pnda??
ape dye rase fwenship nie tade nilai da ke??
ak sdey sgt,,
ak terkilan gler..
smpy aty dye ta bgtau ak...
maybe dye ta nak ak sdey..
tp bg ak,,
dats not da reasonable reason!!
by hook or by crook,,
dye mst bgtau ak..
ak brhak tau,,
sbb dye bes fwen ak..
once dlu,,,
ktowg berempat pnah jnji,,
"we'll stay together until SPM"...
tp jnji hanya tggal jnji..
da itu plihan dye,,
we can't do anything..
ak hnya ley support her decision n mendoakan dye..
wlupown ini yg ak trime,,
tp ko ttp shabat ak dunia akhirat..
byk memori yg kita cptakan bersama..
hnya itu yg tggal sbgai bkalan ak..
thnx 4 everything..
moga ko sukses di sne..
mmg ini yg ko idam2kan slame nie kan??
bergelar plajar 'sains'...
now u got wat u want..
jgn sia2kan pluang nie k..
<333>
satu ag beban yg menghempap ak ary nie,,
juga sgt sukar utk ak mnghadapinya..
sikit masa dahulu,,,
ak pnah mnghdapinya..
tp ta steruk skrg..
owg yg ak syg,,
owg yg ak cnta,,
owg yg mndiami sdut teristimewa di aty ak,,
owg yg ta pnah ak jngka akan mninggalkan ak,,
juga telah pergi menjarakkan diri..
sjujurnyer,,
ak mmg sdey..
terlmpau sdey..
tnpa dpt ak ekspresikan keperitan itu melalui kata2..
tp ape yg bley ak lakukan??
da itu plihan mereka..
ak tiade hak utk mlarang..
ak bkn sape2..
bkn sape2 utk difikirkan,,
bkn sape2 utk dipatuhi sgala khendaknya,,
walaupun,,
jauh di sudut aty,,
ak tidak merelakan kepergiannya..
mungkin owg akan kata ak ptgkan diri sendiri,,
egois,,
tp itu yg ak rase dan ak perlu jujur dgn prasaan ak..
mungkin tade sape yg akan fham gejolak rasa yg ak hadapi..
persepsi owg laen mkin menganggap ini sbg hal remeh..
tp tidak bg ak..
ingin skaly ak menjerit maluahkan suara aty yg mronta2..
"tolong jgn tgalkan yana buat kesekian kalinya."
tp ak ta mampu mnghlang cita-cita owg laen..
prgilah engkau terbang..
mngejar cita-citamu..
ak akan sntiasa mnantimu di sini..
tp ak mhon,,
kmbalilah kpdku smula..
mkin owg ingat ak tbah,,
nmun hkikatnyer aku lbey lemah dr ape yg owg sngkekan..
ak hnya brpura-pura tabah..
hnya Allah saje yg tau btapa peritnya aty mnerima brita bahawa ak hrus khilangan dua insan yg sgt ak sayangi SEKALIGUS..
seakan-akan dunia telah berhenti berputar..
btapa robeknye aty,,
ble dye seakan2 ta memahami ape yg ak rase saat dan ketika ini..
syg,,
ak relakan kpergianmu,,,
ak tiada hak utk mlarangmu mnggapai cita-cita..
mskipun ak mnjadi lilin yg mmbkar dri hnya utk memberi cahaya,,,
ak rela...
asal kau pun turut bahagia..

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Saturday, February 7, 2009

update! update! ;))

babe,,,
ak ta jd transfer sbpi jempol..
ak syg skola..wah!!hahahah..yeke??
act ak mmg ta nk pnda pown..
biala ak trus hbiskan SPM ak kt cnie..
skola ak skunk pown sgt okay 4 me..
honestly,,
ak mmg hepy kat cnie..
even rse terkongkong n rimas tuh adalah cket..
gler open doe..hahah..
bkn ape,,
ak kan jenis yg ske free..
x ske diarah2 owg..
tp tau2 je ah KP kt skewl ak cmne..
smue x ley wat..
skema gler nk maty..
sorry to say!!i'm not dat type..
ak bkn gurl yg terikat dgn praturan sebegitu..
ak dgn dunia ak..
ak wat ape yg ak ske..
as long as ape yg ak wat tuh not beyond da stage lar..
tp begar tuh mmg da sebati ngan dunia ak..
so,,,
konklusinya di sini,,,
ak ta mau pg sbp sb ak ta nak terikat dgn rulez yg mrepek2 tuh..hahah
ok x reason ak?hak2..
second!!sbb ak ta mau tnggalkan owg2 yg plg ak syg kt skola..
WALAUPUN..sue bgai nk rak pjuk ak g jempol..
hee..
so,,sng cter,,,bye! bye! jempol..
perjuanganku di SHAMS msih blum berakhir..
lately,,,
bz gler ngan omework..
tnggi hw klah klcc..
every nyte,,
ak tdo 2,3 pagi..
juz nak siapkan hw..
lucky me,,
ak jrg ngantuk tyme blaja..
except for psi,,,bm,,,
math tuh kdg2 jea ah..
klu period after recess tghari mmg gler ngantuk ah..
ta kre ape sbj pown..
mata x ley bkak da..
hahahah..
tp stakat nie,,
slewat mne pun ak tdo,,
hw ak ttp ta pnah fully accomplished..
sbb??
ntah..ak pun ta tau..hahahah..gler!
jgn nty ak kna dnda suda r..
oh god!!! pray 4 not!!
btw,,,
skunk ak da tusyen..
chemist..hee..
how??
bes gler..
dpt experience bru..
mklumla,,
da 3 taon ta pnah tusyen...
suasana learning yg bru..
fwenz bru..
athirah of course..
she's cute u know!!hahahah..
ad gak fwenz lme..
fared da shy one,,,
amer da heboh one,,
timah da bes gurl,,
hazim da yellow one,,
n nabel,,
old fwenz one..
haha..
x sngka jupe dye kat stu..
ape ag erk??
ta tau da..
otak kering act..
pasal ape??
dat lucky guy??
ta mau cter pasal dye!!
klu cter pun dye bkn nk ngaku tuh dye..
gpown dye da bhagia wit his gurl..
ta mau kacau ah..
perhaps we remain as bez fwenz only...
like wat he alwayz told me..
mrajuk ah!!
finished!!
full stop!!
gtg,,,
take care,,,
daa~~
<333>
;))