HOW COME I DON'T KNOW?

Babe . 

his lonely back seemed so unfamiliar

i just watched him as he walked along

and tears just formed

so i just cried

because i hated myself for not knowing all this time

because he always pretended to be calm and smiled

because he always pretended to be strong in front of me

i didnt even think about it

i thought i would never see it

so i didnt know about his lonely back

after watching him for a long time

i ran to him and just hugged him

i wanted to just cry

i wanted to cry in his arms

because my gratitude toward you was so sad

you pretend to feel better after letting out a deep sigh

i can see your invisible tears

you don't cry over your scarred hearts with painful wounds

i made those scars

but why do i keep blaming you ?

and your eyes showed you were tired

but you hid it such a liar

you are forever a high sky for me

your beaten hands

your wrinkled eyes

your lonely back

im not used to any of those

i didnt know back then

i was too young

you must have been lonelier than anyone else

but i didnt approach you

maybe that's why i was like that

that's why i hurt you

even your turned back seems like baggage that i left behind

now i finally know

i hope it's not too late

i haven't done anything for you

i haven't given anything to you

but

these are the words i wanted to say so much

i love you forever

ABAH :')

Abah's lil girl ,

Fitrah Ilyana .