is it a mistakes ?

babe , i'm hurt . siyesly . yup . my fault . let myself for being lost in feelings . its been so far than da real path . i've been setting the limit earlier . but then ? after knowing him for sum tymes , i didn't realize whre n when i was in him . i had crossing da boundary dat was made by myself ! y ? yes , coz he's so sweet . he's charming . he's romantic . he treats me well . like wat every girls dream of . time by time , i started to build da sweet dreamz . but life isn't owes hepy ryte ? for him , i was juz da most spsyl bes fwenz in his life ! dis small heart was broke in pieces since dat day . wat he's talking , wat he's doing , is all bcos of i was his bes fwenz ? is it my fault ? over-feeling ? let my heart be played by anybody ? so bad of me . he keep asking me y , y , n y ? u want da answer ? y i owes feel unright ? bad mood ? dats was all bcoz of u ! yes , u cn find another gurl who suits u well . but for me ? it's hard to find another love . bcoz i'm owes dreaming of u as my soulmate . bt it's useless isn't it ? no point . yes , it was my mistakes who allowing my own self to be lost in this game . i'm lose !

waktu berguling . lambat merantai langkah perjalanan kita . berjuta cerita . terukir dalam . menjadi sebuah dilema . mengertikah engkau . perasaanku tak terhapuskan . malam menangis . titis embun membasahi mata hatiku . mencuba bertahan di atas puing-puing cinta yg telah rapuh . apa yg ku genggam . tak mudah utk aku lepaskan . aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu . dan telah ku berikan seluruh hatiku . tapi mengapa baru kini kau bertanyakan cintaku . aku pun tak mengerti yg terjadi . apa salah dan kurang ku padamu . kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan . kerna sekali cinta . aku tetap cinta .

a confession 'bout FITRAH .

babe , last on9 before go back to kampung perhaps ? hee . SELAMAT HARI RAYA ! i'm so xcited now ! cannot wait to celebrate eid ! fitrah da bayar ? hahah . i mean zakat lar . gee . not my name . yea i'm proud dat my name is FITRAH ILYANA oke . hehe . y my name fitrah ? bcoz i was born a day b4 hari raya aidifitri . then bcoz of dat , my dad had to pay for my FITRAH dat year . dat's y my name is FITRAH . very symbolic isn't it ? oh yes , it's very meaningful to me . oh forgot ! important ! guys , i want to seek for a forgiveness from everyone of u . since dis 16 years alive , my mistakes is so uncountable . infinity . so , i'm sorry for all da silly mistakes dat i did . rough words , acts , misbehaviour etc . hope dis girl will be forgiven . dis gurl is human . couldn't escape from making mistakes . nobody's perfect . so2 sorry guys . 0-0 oke ? gee . u guys are invited to my house dis eid oke ? ur baju raya is ready ? mine is yes ! hee . busuk , ur baju raya matter is settled yet ? if not then buy a ready-made one lorh . i know u are not comfortable with it . but at da same time i couldn't imagine u wearing tee n jeans pg raye . hehe . ha , i'll upload pic raye asap oke ? gee . oh god , fitrah wants to go back to kampung ! tomorrow evening . a couple of hours more . ugh . dis year i will wearing green kurung pahang . same colours with azrul . hepy ! hepy ! hehe . dis guy said dat he was my husband . hahah . sept 17th was his berday . he called me . a soooooooo-long conversation . 2 hrs n a half oke . believe it ? hah . unbelievable . then now i'm getting to know him well . yes he's a nice person . n da most important is he is sincere . truly . he accept me as who i am . hope dis relationship will lasts longer . amin !

away to kampung !

babe ! nie na bgtaw nie , fitrah nak balik kg tumorrow lpas subuh ! its nearby act . rembau jea . kepoh jea kan . hahah . ta saba ! ta saba ! na poyo sket nie . dis gurl yg slalunye malas ta abes2 tuh na tlg nenek dye wat kuih raya ! hahah . cm ta caye jea kan ? bajet pndy jea fitrah tuh wat kuih . masuk dapur pun liat skaly kan ? hahah . alaa . jeles lar tuh . fitrah rajin lar dis week , kan nenek ? salah ke? tak salah but weird ! taufan 3 ary 3 mlm . hehe . esok org blek ngan makcu taw . abg ! dun say anything ! org taw abg tuh jeles . org rajin . wek ! ha org tau abg tade klas weekend nie . nenek suh blek tlg kemas umah . jgn ngelat ! hahah . klu abg tipu , rahsia abg ade kat org . bgtaw kak sha ty . gee . na tdow lar . na gtaw tuh jea . hak2 . poyo lbey fitrah nie . daa ~~

life is fair though .

babe , lame ta online ! pc org ta sembuh ag lar . mama , i need my pc ! plz , kol cine tuh ubatkan pc kite . mama slalu bz , ssh klu keep borrowing yours . plz ? pray ! pray ! through dis week , of cos lar mcm2 da happened kan . if not , then our life will be dull for sure . hepy . bahagia . sedih . kecewa . sket aty . insaf . smue ade . ha pg td kan , hina asenyer . kah2 . makcu lar . keta broke down depan hall skola . zahid nmpak . hahah . assembly dlm keta eh ? hee . ta pasal2 org kena tulis nme dgn KP ry nie mkcu . ta adil kan ? org da dtg awal da , tp kena gak tulis nme dtg lewat . salah ke org tggu mkcu smpy abah dtg . ta ptut btul kan KP tuh ? ta memahami ! bia la , Allah kan adil . Dia tau ape yg terbaek utk hambaNya . watever it is , sumpah klaka lar ry nie mkcu . makcu pun lmbat pg keje kan . hentam lar labu . gahah . tuday pun hepy gak sbb i realize i hv one more bes fwenz yg slame nie maybe aku da salah anggap dgn dye . so2 sorry hazi ! i ingat u ta ske i . honestly . dulu lar . but tuday , ternyata u're one of my great la babe . such a nice person . sharing partner . gud listener n of cos gud frenz . so , bes friends ? hee . syg kamoo lar hazi . thnx for every info n advice tuday . really make me realise da true fact in sumthings . dye mmg ta ley dipercayai . idk y i could let myself being lied with such dat kind of person . lame ! grr ! jgn harap i akan pcaye all his words nymore . go to hell ! ugh ! ha dis week i cm insaf sket laar . hee . taw nape ? sbb de satu incident in my class . ta pasal2 nme 4 ikram popular dis week . hahaha . but mmg da popular pun klas kitorg . cm cigu azlin ckp lar , " dlm byk2 klas , 4 ikram lar yg plg ssh na anta buku . " hahah . klaka btul . sory cg . fitrah ta anta ag latihan phy fitrah kt cigu . monday i'll send it oke . gee . ha pasal popular tuh kan ? kitorg kena tipu idup2 . ta sngke gler ! da girl dat i thought was nice , innocent was act not . she not even lied to us , but to principal , GPK 1 , HEM , our form tch , cg aniza n all da tchrs . wat act happened ? it was a long story to be telled . mlas lar na cite . things had happened . nw dye da pindah da pun . ta kesa lar ape pun , bt i learnt sumthing . b4 nie i ta pena terpkir pun na tipu cg smpy cm tuh skaly . plg jhat fitrah pun , stakat ta wat hw n fly klas jea lar kowt . tul tak ? ke jahat ag ? oke lar , slalu gak lar lnggar rulez skola . heh . normal lar tuh kan . ta kan na jd skema . ta adventure lar zman skola . hee . n satu ag , jgn kciwakan aty mak ayah kite . i can't imagine hw her dad's feeling when he knows 'bout dis past days . mst kcewa , sdey kan . i pray dat i will not make my parenz frustrated of me . mama , abah , kite syg mama abah ! kite janji , kite akan capai cita2 kita n make both of u proud of me . kite akan jd contoh terbaek utk abg n adek . kite sedar kite anak sulung . maybe kite ta ley jd sepandai afifah , but i'll try my best to prove to the world dat i can be wat i want to be . erm , wat else ? him ? oh god . i hate him truly . idk y . oke la fine . u pasan i ske u kan ? so wat ? diam2 jea lar . i ta ckp pun kan ? n u pun ta ske i kan ? i tau u ske org laen . oke da . settle masalah . i pun tade pape kaitan ngan u ag . ta ya la berat2 pale otak pk pasal i ag . lupakan jea . anggap bnda nie ta penah happened . nie tak . yg u nak memberontak tunjuk kat i yg u ta ske i apasal ? ello , i bukan doll oke . i bkan anak patung or teddy bear yg tade prasaan . i manusia ! i'm human ! ade aty dan prasaan ! i malu tau tak ! aty i sket ble u wat i cm pmpuan tade maruah ! ugh ! fine , klu u ta ske i , u na hate i terpulang . but ta payah na tnjuk to da whole world . fyi , dulu maybe i ade prasaan dgn u , but now maybe tak lagi . now i sedar , nie rupenya yg Allah na tunjukkan kat i . i'm sorry for everything . n i maafkan u . but i takan lupe seumur idup ape yg i dah lalui taon nie . oh god ! hw can i face him n her . plz give me sum ways ? i'm sure ak takan sepenuhnya ikhlas after dis . cool down fitrah . u kuat kan ? org penah ckp , jgn pilih utk bersama dgn org yg kite suka , sbb maybe org yg kte ske akan pegy tggalkan kita utk org yg dye cnta . sbaeknye , plihlah org yg ikhlas cntakan kte krana dye takan tggalkan kita utk org yg mnyukai dye . azrul said dat he'll be a great person in my life slamenyer . maybe i should think of it shouldn't i ? watever it is , cnta yg kekal abadi hanyalah cnta pada yg maha Esa . banji mashite .

di atas normal .

babe , i'm just back from village . currently hearing my baby you by marc anthony . no tense . automatically remembering him . who frankly i say dat is really annoying , irritating , frustrating . dis gurl is trying to hate him . perhaps ? even i know dat i can't . oh boy , i realy need u in my life . but i dun want to put my dignity at the bottom as well . wat i could do now ? oh gosh . its very complicated . i think it's a mistake to fall in love wit u . as u were not in me . so , i was shaming myself isn't it ? but , i didn't realized since i was in u . sorry . it was not my fault . no force in feelings ryte ? watever . at least , u'd known my feelin' . rather than i keep it wit myself , it was me who suffered alone . so , no regret please ! forget him if u can . no , i love him ! haish . he's secretive lar . please terus-terang bley kan ? suke maen tarik tali .

fikiranku . tak dapatku mengerti . kaki di kepala . kepala di kaki . fikiranku . patutnya menyedari . siapa yg harus , dan tak harus ku cari . tetapi tak dapatku mengerti . sesuatu . yg baru ku sedari . ku mencintaimu . tanpa sebab yg pasti . sesuatu yg harusnya terjadi . kau sakiti aku . kau yg harus aku benci . tetapi tak dapatku mengerti . ku mencari sesuatu yg mustahil . ku mencari hati yg ku benci . berapa jauh ku mencari , berapa lama ku menyelami . namun , tetap tak dapat ku temui .

such a boring life .

babe , it's boring here right now . i'm not goin' to skewl tuday . juz spending my free time at home . stomach-ache . + other reasons . mama n abah r goin' to bentong . they r visiting one of our relatives there . sick maybe . wit atuk n nenek . if i go 2 skewl then i've to went at 4.30 . oh god i dun want . exhausting oke . couldn't bear it . so ponteng lar tuday . looks like i've to catch up everything tumorrow . since tuday has arab , chem , phy , n bio . help me please ! GRR ! borink lorh . idk wat to do act . lazy 'bout finishing omework . dari pg kat snie . dpan laptop mama . busuk , da sehat ? take ur med in time oke ? ily lar . qis , da oke ngan amey ? hope u feel better . me ? da oke ngan him ? ntah lar . his ego is higher than klcc . ta suke ckp terus ta ske . i dun care 'bout it nyway . mayb i'm not suits u well . abg , na exam kan ry nie ? wat leklok oke ? jgn sik ingat kak sha jea . hahah . ha ! dun sleep ! abg uh bkan ley caye . kaki tidow . tmbah exam ptg2 nie . kul 2 smpy 4 . am i right ? watever it is , do the best ! assignment abg org bley tlg . but exam i can't . u're alone there . tp i know abg ley wat . trust me . org syg abg taw . u're my brother dari dulu till forever . u're great la abg ! oke , stops till now . daa ~~

messy life all da way.

babe ,

here i am ,

still in front of mama's laptop .

she's free now n dats y i'm here .

tried to throw up everything since yesterday .

oh yea .

happy independence day btw .

even it's late .

haha .

yesterday i wore kurung to mukhnisa .

amek berkat ramadhan .

hahah .

dey said dat i was 'ayu' with dat kurung .

it fits me well .

yek !

couldn't believe it .

back from it ,

i had a long conversation with him .

sms only .

he's realy not romantic ! frankly .

maybe he acted like dat juz with me .

so k then .

ur right !

after dat , sms-ed with azrul .

still a long period of time .

i asked him for the voice-sms since he had promised for dat .

he said he was not ready yet .

plus his voice ta sedap .

ello , i dun care oke .

my voice is so like dat .

perhaps .

but he said dat mine was perfect .

mcm cigu .

he heard me practicing at penang .

oh god ! shame ! shame !

he's crazy !

manje lar , husky2 , ape lar . bla . bla .

i couldn't say nothin' .

all i could is just laughing .

yes ! it was funny oke !

no one ever said dat to me .

but aida once said dat i had husky voice .

is it true ?

never noticed it . hahah .

tuday is another messy .

semlm malas na wat notes history .

so then tuday mcm lipas kudung wat .

siyesli .

time bio curi2 bwat .

time chemistry , math mode .

cigu i'm sorry . desperate . hehe .

tanggung lar fitrah .

sape suh awk rajin sgt .

lawan2 dgn saddiq , hajar , zirah , mirabell .

hahah .

smue golongan rajin wat nota lar nie .

gee .

finally i manage to finish it .

tepat2 cigu fatin masuk .

hahah .

tapi ,

it was irritating dat i'd to accept da fact dat cigu fatin ta nak pun nota .

terus masuk bab 8 .

oh gosh !

my hand was hurt .

penat jea gabra ta tentu pasal .

haish .

tp at least i berjaya gak lar finishkan note tuh .

eyt , smlm qis saket gusi .

pity her .

plus miss amey ag .

saba babe .

it'll be benefit later on .

tuday , my busuk is sick .

oh god ,

how me worried of her .

busuk , get well soon yea .

rajin2 makan ubat .

nty da sehat bley pegy skola .

i miss u lar dear .

oh over-writing .

pen-off now !

daa ~~

MeLaNcHoLiC..

babe,,
so long since da last one..
been missing blogging so much..
cpu broke down..
i admit dat was my fault..
over-limit maybe..
then mama abah boikot ta mau betulkan pc i..
benci betul..
so now da results,,
i'm blogging n myspacing using mama's laptop..
gasak lar..
janji i dpt on9..
separuh gler da..
many things happened during this period of time..
here are sum of that ;

pose pun da nak masuk 10 ary da..

but i think it's not too late to wish,,

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK!

even i cn only manage to fast for 2 days only..

ugh!

7 days na kena ganti..

masak lar awk fitrah..

last year it was only 5..

then?

yea,,he has done an unexpected things past days..

he made me speechless nyway..

wat did he done?

he tagged me in ms..

under the word of "princess"!

oh gosh!

ape kena mamat nie?

wat he's trying to say?

ape maksud dye?

ello cik abg , i couldn't read ur heart n mind oke..

straight to da point bole kan?

busuk was laughing,,

she were not believe it also act..

mamat tuh mmg da sah2 gile lar..

god,,my heart beating real hard now..

wat can i say?

serah pada ketentuan Ilahi jea lar..

tuday i got new fwenz..

frankly,,he's a guy..

named akmal haziq..

my kazen introduced me to him..

ape motif pun ta taw..

so fwenz?

huluran perkenalan terjalin kini..

ta salah de rmai kawan ryte?

abg's kazen pun send his regards to me..

i bkan kenal pun..

lantak la haih..

huh,,
y i'm feelin lyke crying?
i'm useless isn't it?
mama keep scolding me..
itu tak kena..
ini tak kena..
y mama?
wat things i've done wrong?
org ta ske lar sik kena mrah jea..
org tau,,
org malas,,
ta pndy msak,,
ta pndy kemas umah,,
bgn pun lambat,,
masuk dapur jarang2,,
org tau org teruk,,
but plz,,
dun compare me with others!
kat skola kena compare,,
kat umah kena compare,,
org rimas lar!
i felt like nobody trust me..
smue org ckp i teruk..
i tau i teruk..
i ta pndy cm afifah..
i ta rajin cm shikin..
but i do hv my strength!
mama slalu ckp,,
bersyukur dgn ape yg kite ade..
but now?
with those compliments thrown to me??
cn u guarantee dat i could handle my mind from pkir bkan2??
tlg lar,,
i'm begging now!
accept me as who i am..
org ta nak jadi hipokrit..
klw btul org salah,,
tegur lar org baek2..
org bley trime..
but plz,,
dun ever compare me with anybody else..
u're not increasing my spirit instead throw it away to the dustbin..
org mohon..
faham lar org skaly nie aje..
i do want to feel appreciated lyke anybody else feel..
let me hv dat kind of feeling for a moment?
i couldn't handle it anymore..
is there any way dat i could run away from this?
truly,,
i'm realy sick n tired of this..
i'm afraid dat i'll lost in this battle of emotion..

i made a wed card tuday!

babe!

tensyennyer!

td da wat pjg2 dye ta save plak!

ugh! tenet cm bodo ar!

tape2..

write it again fitrah..hish ilang idea da...

- tuday woke up at 10.15 . early than yesterday . early lar sgt! uwwek!
- ponteng skola ag tuday . pecah rekod minggu nie one day only pegi skola . teruk betul . ello . skola i ade H1N1 taw . abah mama ckp ta yah pegi . kte kena patuh ckp mereka btul tak ? hahah . alasan ! take for granted ! tape , skali-skala jea . gee .
- las nyte i dreamt of kna mrah ngan tch punitha sbb lmbat angkat baldi air . wat da heck i wanna do wit dat pale ? ngarut . ngarut!
- i didn't touch even a single inch of da book tuday . means ta study lar tuh . ta study maknenyer omework pun ta wat ag lar kan ? pe nak jd fitrah . malas sgt nieyh ? ble na jd rajin ? tgk lar taon dpan kowt . wat?!
- hearing ' my baby you ' by marc anthony now! boy,,dis song is specially dedicated for you oke!
- away to my village dis nyte! ghombau mari! hahah . kenduri umah nenek tghari sok . sunday mlm umah opah . uish . kurus lar i 2 days non-stop . gahah . tape , i syg nenek ngan opah i . rela berkorban punyer . hak2 .
- da conclusion is , omework i sure2 ta wat . then tangguh ary isnin baru wat . is it true ?! yup . u know da means of M.A.L.A.S ? huh . reason ag fitrah . gahah .
- last but not least , monday i nak smbung pose ganti i yg berbaki 5 ary ag . uish . byknyer! tuh lar , sape suh mlas ryte ? hak2 . period lar kacau . kowt tak , dis week da settled da kan . jgn salahkan takdir fitrah . hak2 . wish me luck taw !
- take care ! will continue my journey back from kampung k ? kat kampung tade tenet lorh . hak2 . daa~~

mogok ta jadi...

babe,,
tuday i started my lyfe at 11.30..
woke up very late!
cz yesterday i slept very late..
4 in the morning..uish!
dahsyat!
hahah..
brekfes maggi jea..mlas!
then help bibik cuttin' vege..
skaly-skala jenguk dpur..
hahah..
* jd pmpuan melayu terakhir!
then on9 jea keje..
ptg vacuum blik..
hahah..dats all xtvt for tuday..

kdit i da kering abes da nie!

when will abah tpup 4 me?

plz abah?

text busuk ta ley reply,,,

text naeimah pun ta ley reply,,,

sorry guyz!

will reply all ur msg a.s.a.p!

<3>

now back to da main topic above..

busuk, so2 srry mogok ta jd lorh..

he ym-ed me juz now..

ta smpy aty na bia cm tuh jea..

erm,,

tuday,,

da cnversation is more to heart-and-feelings..

i pun ta taw lar how we can go out of da topic..

first2 talk 'bout exam jea..

then dye tye i y i semcm jea tuesday ry tuh..

prasan plak dye?!

* couldn't he realize dat was coz of him?!

to be honest,,

i said coz of him lar..

mke kedekut benar nak reply smile owg..

his reason is dat he bad mood..

oke fine..terpaksa trime..

than i asked him 'bout his statement in fb..

he said dat he dun like dat gurl..

dye juz ta mau owg kte dye smbonk..

* again kena trime!

ugh!nyway i feel very relieved!

i said i shocked wit his statement..

then he asked me,,

" fitrah ske ..... eh? "

omg! i was speechless..

couldn't expect he spoke dat words!

"erm?????" i replied..

then he said,,

" nampak lar.."

not to denied i juz said "sorry!"

"its oke..tape lar..ta kesah pun.."

* i thought dat he would hate me!

so i decided to keep it silent..

bia lar..

wait 'till abes skola..

nyway,,

now i can sleep lena cket maybe?

busuk,,

tenkiu so much!ily!

gtg now,,
na maen game..
take care!
daa~~

P/S : qis,,awt lme ta msj??imy lorh!

nasi campur...

babe,,,
its not wat i ate tuday oke..
but evrything was mixed up lyke 'nasi campur' tuday..
da lar mlaz pg skola,,
then pegi shopping plak ngan mama kat parkson..haha
from 10 to 2 sumthing oke..
mama said,,
" owg laen pg shopping after skewl,,, * referred to georgians!
kamu pg shopping tyme owg laen skola! "
hahah ta ptut btul kan..
ponteng skola then went rounding2..gahah..
sorry cigu! sape suh pengetua bakhil cuti ryte?
ktowg pun wat lar cuti tak rasmi.. * dun blame us plz!
so cuti sem ktowg ta rugi nty.. ;) noty me!

hey! i bought a dress lorh!
* bkn shopping lar nmenyer if went home empty-hand ryte? har2..
purple in colour,,,
realy beautiful for my eyes lar..
n won mama's eyes too!
hee..but not my money yg kluar taw..
my mama lar...hak2..sian mama..
later kte blanje mama mkn taw..
* dwet poket da kering!

i jupe dak georgian sowg nie bapak kerek gler!

ugh,,

meluat otak,,mata,,hati dan jiwa tgk dye!

bajet lawa sgt ler..

ouh,,forgot!

she was so proud dat she's georgian!

ello!

i'm shamsians oke!

ta heboh pun!

ad gak spesies cnie erk?

now 'bout him..

really mkn aty lar ngan mamat sowg nie..

apekan daya..

tensyennyer!

sumtymes i wondered wat he act feel 'bout me?

dye syg i btul2 ke or sje2 na ske2??

idk n i wanna know lorh!

hey,,

if u think dat i can read ur mind n heart??

sorry coz da answer is NO!

plz say depan2..

i was very tired now oke!

he was just like 'maen tarik tali'..

kdg2 syg,,kdg tidak..

wtf?!

nak duga aty dan prasaan i??

oke fine! u hope!

maybe i should follow busuk's advice..

ignore him!

then see his reaction..

if he can play it,,

dun think dat i can't be a player in YOUR game too!

dgn i masam2 muka..

msj pun nyakitkan aty..

but dgn owg laen ley plak mesra2,,gelak2..

for wat??

na sketkan aty i??

YES u're success!

pnat la pkir bnda yg ta penah nak sudah nie..

it really hurts me!

one thing!
bkak fb,,
found sumthing dat i dun want to see!
damn hurt!
she has everything!
y should she disturb mine?!
my fwen! my happyness! my bes fwen! my life!
and now him?!
oh my godness..
wat da hell she think she wnts to do?!
plz,,
i beg!!!
tlg lar plgkan sdikit kbahagiaan i!
i've lost everything!
since u come,,
da smile dat rises in mine,,
bkan spenuhnya ikhlas from da bottom of my heart..
tlong,,
i need my strength back!
plz dun disturb me!
u can conquer da skewl!
but not my life!

i did somethin' wrong, didn't i?

babe,,
tuday everything seems not ryte 2 me..
bad luck!
it was so early dat all my smile scattered away..
naim forgotten me,,
but so k,,
she said dat she didn't notice me..
accepted reason..
coz dat ws my fault wearing white uniform tuday..
then,,
he also lancar mogok sore..
mrajuk ngan i lar tuh..
ble da ptg2 bru gettin' better..
then my busuk..
i ade wat salah ngan dye ke?
i tried to talk,,joking with her..
but mcm ta lyan jea..
i pun ase serba salah sgt..
maybe she has her own probs yg tade kaitan ngan i..
but with anyone else dye oke jea..
or she was angry with me coz i called her like dat?
sory weyh,,
i'll not kol u with dat name again..
guyz,,
if anybody yg ta puas aty with me,,
plz bgtau i ley??
kdg2 i pun ta pasan yg i da tersketkan aty owg..
but tlg jgn pendam2 ngan i,,
i need to know my fault..
sory if i'd made mistakes to sape2...
then my tuition book pun tggal!
shit!
tensyennyer!!!!
hw i want 2 study tunyte without dat book?!
ugh!
sabar fitrah!
stay cool..
ad hikmah behind all dis test..
k la,,
wanna take my bath..
daa~~

bLiK KaMpUnG...

babe,,,
wat u doin'?
i juz come back from my village..
blik ngan my makcu..
amek atuk,,nenek ngan opah..
miss dat place..
quiet a long period since da last one..
baby ikhwan pun da besar cket..
bru around 2 weeks ta jupe dye..
whoa! miss him a lot..
his name is realy similar to my fwen..
'ikhwan'..
hahah sori ai!!
erm,,,
pe ag erk??
ry nie dis tuan puteri mmg lazy gler...
oh god!!
tuday i woke up at 7.30!
amazing!
hahah,,so early i think..
pecah tradisi fitrah bgn awal..gahah..
tp mndi lmbat cket..
around 8.30..sbb reading novel dlu..
its getting to da climax..
love dat novel lorh..
maira and fajar..
fitrah and ???
fitrah and ......
gahah..sytttt!
omework ta wat lngsung ag..
maybe to-more-row will do it..
fitrah malas sgt2 nie!
hee..
k lar,,
mama suh tlg bibik siap nasi..
aiyo...kan fitrah da ckp fitrah mlas..hahah..
daa babe~~~
c u later k..

BoRiNk DaY...

babe,,
borink nieyh..
da la ta pegy skola..
kantoi!!
mama abah ta bg pegy..
my skola da ade kes H1N1..
so,,amek langkah berjage2 lar..
tkut lorh..
pg skola pkai mask lar after dis..gahah..
tuday bgn kul 9 stgh..
so-late-for-a-girl-like-me!dush!
yesterday tdo kul 12 lbey..
text busuk ta reply..
sbb da tdow..
sory bsuk!!
then pg klinik,,
mukhriz had fever..auta lbey..
brekfes n went home..
now i'm front of com..blogging..
hearing song,,,
" i will always love you "
omg!
miss my fwenz..
busuk,,naeimah,,my new neighbour,,miz and husna..
and him also!!
but quiet frust with him..
i hate him!!
bloodyhell..
sumtymes,,
i think i want to let him go..
he owez hurting..
maybe i jea yg tersua2 ngan dye..
he never bother me..
very shameful!
da la fitrah,,
many boyz out there..
he's annoying!!!
ugh,,i wanna cry!!
couldn't accept the reality..
last in his top fwenz list??
ugh!
shit!!
da lar..forget it and him..
bye babe...

dEaTh??

babe,,

creepy entry??

nothings to do with it act..

juz a title..

coz of the poem that i'd learnt tuday..

dis morning,,

i bengang tahap maksimum already..

with the guy named hazim!!

ugh!

he's realy too much!

ta responsible langsung..

ngelat wat keje..

then push all his work to me and naeimah..

honest lar klu btul ta nak wat..

no need to give such dat stupid nonsense reason..

ta msuk akal btul..

da la i nak study chemistry ngan tch zai..

we were late tuday..

chem class had started almost 15 min..

ta cukup kaki na lari from lbrary to da class..

da la skip arabic..

kowt marks oke tape gak..

managed to get only 60 in sumative..

da pecahkan rekod ta sdar2 dri ag fitrah kan??

bagus lar..

* (tadi darurat,,tape lar..forgiven..)

is it true??

yes coz of hazim's work...

blah ah...

wat sket aty jea ingat...

dis evening,,

i pkir na escape klas tch punitha * (mama saddiq n sepet ) ;)

luck i was not to..

da class is so interesting..hahah..

finally,,

i succeed!!my 'wood-hand' is getting softer..hak2..

i was drawing tuday!!

cn u imagine??believe it plz..

here's da prove oke..

original dari ladang..;)

act dis is yesterday work..

but couldn't manage to do it..

coz of bz tgk taiwan story yg hero2nya ensem na maty..gahah..

so i did it curi-curi in klas father-in-law hawa..

ckgu isa lar..

pergh,,

almost half of klas sleeping in his class..

luck i was not 1 of them for tuday..gahah..

bz drawing lar..

even the result is just so-so..

like the kindergarten kids..;)

shame!!

then, tch asked us to do a poem dat related to death..

u wondered y??

coz tuday we learnt "there's been a death in the opposite house".

anything as long as it related...

so,,

the tyme to 'perah otak' pun started...

i juz write wat i am expert too..

LOVE!

death and LOVE!!

here's da poem!!

" Yesterday i saw him,

The one i shared his beautiful smile,

The warmness of his touch and hug that i grabbed,

The spirit that he offered,

Gave me extra strength to stand on the world,

Today?!

I couldn't see his smile rises after my tears,

I couldn't hear even a single word from him,

His touch that i couldn't feel anymore,

And the calmness of his will always be a apart of my heart,

All that i could do is remebering the sweet memories,

And a line of pray to replace the ' I LOVE YOU ',

He has gone forever,

But not in mine..."

tch said that was so romantic,,,

hahah,,blooming heart..ngeh2..;)

maybe cz of da effect of reading too much love novels..

gahah..even all my essay is related to sumthing dat i realy love to talk to..

dat was LOVE!

sorry,,

can't do anything..

dat's wat i am...hee..

oke,,

last things,,

tch pun asked us to compare the 'death' with sumthing else..

many answers appeared...

lightning,,,nightmare,,,raining,,bla,,bla,,bla,,,

i dun know wat i'm gonna say,,

it happened so fast dat i couldn't even think..

so juz say sumthing dat crossed my mind..

" death is TIME.. "

irreversible and forever..hahah

quite reasonable ryte??

watever..

yg ptg i enjoyed the english class tuday..

not sleepy like usual i had..

gud improvement..kuang! kuang! kuang!

wah!!

over-writing..

will stop by now..

na tdow!!

even esok ta skola..

H1N1 kat skola..tkowt + my dad ta bg pegi..

so akur kehendak Ilahi..heheh

busuk,,

u stay sowg2 tu-more-row k??

sory!!!

gtg now!!

daa~~

take care..

ha,,

almost forgotten,,

da word "nightmare" is came from him!!

je ta'imme!!!

yes,,i do love him!!

ny probs?

so,,bonne nuit!