MAMA's LEGACY

Babe . i miss mama . i miss her so much . yeah i know i met her this morning . yet , i cant even overcome this feeling . those 2 hours with her . 5 mins hug . light kisses on my cheek and my forehead . it seemed not enough . i need to be with her for some more time . Ya Allah , sungguh aku rindu . rindu dengan sentuhan dan belaian dari seorang insan bergelar IBU . maybe im exaggerating this feeling too much . but it is a fact .

Mama , this memory of you that wandering around in my head makes me want to cry . not want to . i did cried in times ago . yes , i lost . i lost to my own promise that i will not cry anymore . mama , since i left home to pursue my dream , there's no time that you slipped away from my mind . never . you're always in my mind . sometimes , i just wondering , why did i have to live away from you ?

It's true what opah once said . you didn't know what you had until you lost your mama's face . ma , i never knew what i had until i lost your face from my sight . when i lost your kiss , your touch , your soft embrace , i wish i was strong enough . And get in my head that it's just for a while . i know i have to sacrifice on a lot of things to achieve my dreams . yet , having you so far away from me is just the hardest hurdles along my way . mama , i want you to know that the memory of you will never leave me alone .

Ma , remember those stormy nights ? i would always run to you . yes , i'm your only child yang takut kilat and petir . you used to hold me tight . whispering soothing words up to my ears . you always say it'd be alright . and suddenly , the sun started to shine . up until noww , i always tell myself those 2 words whenever i'm facing the stormy night alone here . it hurts me inside somehow . to have the feelings to be in your hug , yet i cannot even do it . i cant wait to go home !

Ma , remember those sunny , bright days ? mama always said . don't be too happy on something , because we cant even see the end of the journey . it might be happy ending , or turned out to be the worst ending . what i want you to know is , the journey will not be as easy as you expected . so expect nothing , face the steps ahead bravely and keenly , never give up even you fall headlong , and then you will be surprise of something . its not the product that important . its the process to get the product that matters . mama , i will always remember this . :')

P/S : Thanks to you . yes , YOU ! a hacker not meant to be . for being there when i need you the most . and thanks also for the beautiful-magnificent post below . i know i can count on you . :)

Mama's sweetheart ,

Fitrah Ilyana .