Wednesday, April 25, 2012

HATI BERBISIK

Babe . just a short and random post . gian nak blog senanya . tapi pemalas . so , tunyte 6 things yang terlintas kat kepala immediately akan tercatat dlm post nehhh . simple kann konsep begini ? padat , ringkat , tepat , telus dan jujur . :)

**1  I'm worried of my family condition right now . its getting worse time by time . Ya Allah , kuatkan aku menghadapi segala ujian dari-Mu . akan aku hadapi segalanya dengan penuh tabah beserta senyuman yang tak akan putus .

**2  Kelakarnyaa bila nampak orang yang aku tak berapa nak kenal hentam-hentam aku . sindir-sindir kau tuhh tak termakan dek aku lahh wahai penyindir yang cantek . memang aku perasan lahh kann sebab kau obvious gila bangang dedicated benda tuhh dekat aku . but , ketahuilah olehmu bahawa kau tak pernah jumpa aku punn . ko takk kenal aku punn . aku lagi lahh tak kenal kau . kau yang cari aku dulu , add aku dulu segala kann ? setakat kau dengar cerita dari sebelah pihak kau dah mengata aku macam-macam , then aku tahulahh kau perempuan jenis apa . hmmm ? so , thanks for all the compliment . i'll take it as a sincere advice from a FRIEND to her FRIEND . aku tak marah punn . in fact , terima kasih banyak-banyak sebab kau bukan menjatuhkan aku . tapi kau menguatkan aku . alhamdulillah , dapat aku sedekah pahala :)

**3  this one is for kak ana and aunty lah ! kak ana , lamaa gilaa tak bukak blog kak ana . and actually this one nak cakap happy belated birthday to kak ana and aunty lah ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! much ♥♥♥ mmuahhh ! kak ana , kita jeles tgk cinema depan rumah kak ana tuhhhh . grrrrrr ! hahaha .

**4  Jahatnyaa aku . nampak sangat dah lama aku mengabaikan kawan-kawan aku sampai aku lupa Amy tinggal kat Taman nama apa . sampai aku lupa adik-beradik Fatin ada berapa orang . sampai aku lupa birthday korang bila . Fatin may kann ? amy August kann ? khilafnyaaaa aku . korang , im so sorry for neglecting you guys . bukan tuhh niat aku . sebab terlalu sibuk , aku lupa semua life aku . sumpah im crying right now . bila memikirkan betapa teruknya aku sebagai kawan . maafkan aku . :'(

**5  To Amira Norizan , aku rindu kau wehhh . rindu sangat-sangat . setahun aku terperuk kat UM , setahun gak lahh aku tak jumpa kau langsung . memang aku rasa kau jauh sangat . tapi maybe tuhh salah aku ego sangat nak tunggu kau text and call aku dulu . padahal no rule in our friendship kann ? aku tahu kau kecik hati dengan aku . maybe kau rasa aku tak ambik berat pasal kau , pasal fatin . actually i do . every time before aku tdow , aku selalu berharap yang aku akan jumpa korang . walaupun hanya dlm mimpi . cukuplahh buat aku lepas rindu . cepatlahh habes final amy , aku nak cari kau balik dekat rumah and ganggu malam-malam kau . banyak benda aku nak cerita . i love you Pingu .

**6 To Fatin Murtadza , kau selalu ambik berat pasal aku . saban hari , nama aku menghiasi blog kau . jujur cakap , aku suka sangat . itu tandanya dlm hati kau masih ada aku , masih ada Amy . kau selalu like status fb aku . kau selalu chat dengan aku bila kau ada masa . aku jea yang kadang-kadang terleka . tapi aku tahu , walaupun apa yang kau buat tuh bagi org laen mcm simple , tapi bagi aku , itu tanda sokongan dari kau untuk aku kannn ? aku ingat lagi , antara kita bertiga , aku yang paling manja . aku gak yang paling jahat . bila ada org laen yang duduk rapat dengan korang , aku mesti merajuk , buat muka , and taknak ckp dengan korang . sama gak bila korang simpan rahsia dari aku . bukan aku cemburu sayang . aku cuma takott akan kehilangan korang . itu aje . and now , satu jea aku mintakk , terus kuat and stay as much as you can . tak lama lagi kita akan bersatu semula . aku nantikan saat itu dengan penuh sabar . 

Bad friend ,
Fitrah Ilyana

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

SUDAH CUKUP SUDAH

Babe . i wanna rise up a song . at first , i wanna hear this song because of the band's name . Yes , it is given after my mama's name . Nirwana Band . ironic ha ? and then , after hearing to this song for the first time , i know this is what my heart speaks . so guys , lets hear to what my conscience mean . enjoy :)




Monday, April 16, 2012

HAPPY TIME :)

Babe , last post cerita pasal exam kann ? now cerita pasal aktiviti lepas exam . second last paper is statistics and last paper is english . so basically , for this ilyana , her last paper is statistics . why ? becuz english is just objective question . that's heaven right ? yes it is ! hahaha . so this ilyana decide taknak study English langsung . and percayalah , she did it . huhu . that's why abes jea paper Statistics that Thursday , pmpuan nehh dah meroyan ckp dia dahh freee dekat fb . padahal belum punn senanyaaa . dasar tak sedar diri . *dush!


Then , petang tuhhh bermalas-malasan lahh dalam bilik . ngeeee . Roommate tercinta decide nak download Gossip Girl satu series terus . bergiga-giga memori dia . hahaha . she's so determined i tell you . that is why i love her . then , aku punn meneruskan misi nak habeskan Bicara Hati yang dah tertangguh sejak 3 ke 4 minggu yang lalu . heeee . memang kami lupa diri yang esok still ada paper lagikk kann ? ish ish ish . then , Putri datang ajak kami keluar . Putri baby , sorry sangat2 . bukan aku taknak kuar dengan kau . tapi memang prinsip aku takkan keluar berjimba sebelum paper habes . aku malas sebab nanti hati aku takkan senang . so sorry baby ! nanti aku turun BK kita jimba dekat Rasta lagi okie ? huuuuuuu love yaa ! 


And then , habes Bicara Hati , rayau-rayau tenet yang tak brape nak laju . sebab semua orang dah rasa bebas , terkinja-kinja nak online jugaa ! bukak DramaCrazy and terlekat plak dekat muvie Personal Taste ! tengok episod tuhh sampai mandi dekat pukul 8 kau ! haaa amek . penangan cite Korea punyaaa pasal . lupa diri gila bangang . Mira masih meneruskan misi yang saban kali tergendala disebabkan line wi-fi yang seumpama siput . tapi , dia tetap sabar dan terus menabahkan diri menghadapi rintangan . ececeh ayat kau nak makan kasut pmpuan .


Malam tuhhh pulak ? haaaa malam tuhhh kami terlebih makan vitamin R . apakahh ? vitamin Rajin . uhuuuuu . jangan nak membongak ilyana . sebenarnya malam tuhh plug kat bilik kami semuanyaa tak function . i dont know why it happened to be like that actually . tapi kemungkinan besar disebabkan oleh dia kepenatan yang teramat setelah kami menggunakannya tanpa had dari pukul doblas tengah hari sampai ke 8 malam tanpa henti . dia punn dah pandai mintak nyawa . dikhuatiri plug2 itu mogok dan memberontak malam itu . hahaha . so , laptop tak boleh pasang , radio tak boleh bukak , phone punn tak boleh charge . (nasib baek phone dah charge petang tuhh lagik)


Then , apa kami buat demi mengisi malam kami yang kebosanan ? (bukan reti nak blaja . haha) kami pasang mp3 phone sekuat hati dan mulakann misi mem-packing barang disebabkan masa untuk pulang semakin suntuk . huuuuu . so , masa tuhh , sebarang text dan panggilan telefon yang masuk tak akan dilayan . kami tengah rajin , mana boleh kacau . hahaha . perihal mengemas barang , sumpah penat gila ! nampak mcm sikit jea barang . padahal mengemut-ngemut barang2 aku . memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi i tell you . mujur aku mampu menahan iman untuk tak membiarkan barang aku bersepah dan terlentang membuta . hahahaha .


Malam tuhh , aku tak mampu nak habeskan kemas semuanyaaa . idung tuan puteri nehh yang sememangnya alahan terhadap habuk dan bendasing , terus bersin tak berhenti . soo , aku begitu irritating dengan keadaan idung yang banjir , terus berhenti separuh jalan dengan berkata dalam hati : takpe , esok masih ada . sambung nanti aje . huuuuu . at that time , mira dah habes kemas . i tell you kan yang cik kak saya nehh memang rajin . ngeeeee . and after tuhh , dia start bukak buku BI . OMG aku ternganga sekejap . tapi tahu ape respons dia ? nehhh mak aku yang suruh . hahahaha dengan buat muka comel dia tayang gigi atas katil , memang dia comell . heeeee . tambah satu point to sesape yang berangan nak tackle rumet terchenta aku , Emira Ezuna , dia anak yang taat . heeeee . sorry guys , she is TAKEN ! sebarang permohonan tidak akan dilayan . :D


Malam tuhhh , aku tdow awal sebab keadaan hidung yang tidak mengizinkan aku untuk bertahan lebih lama . plus kepenatan badan yang bekerja keras tanpa henti . (ayat poyo mintak kesian) KONON ! hahahaha . pukul 2 aku lelap , tanpa menyentuh buku BI langsung , tanpa memikirkan paper esok yang masih bersisa . hahahaha . good job ilyana . pagi esok , lagi 20 min nak masuk dewan exam baru terkial-kial selak buku BI refresh ape yang patut . this ilyana memang crazy . jangan terkejut kalau dapat result nanti BI kau keluar U which mean UNSATISFACTORY perempuan . padan muka kau nanti . sungguh berani tindakan kau . hakhak . till the next post , nak cerita pasal keluar berjimba dengan roommate tercinta . night peeps ! love ya ! :D



Potato-to-be,
Fitrah Ilyana .

Sunday, April 15, 2012

EXAM HABES !

Babe . its been a while since the last long emo post . haha forget it by the way . it's been my past . the ONLY thing that left is the memory . soo , just move on . :)


Many things to be told . many things to be dig out from this lady . many things happened in between this period . smile , laugh , tears and everything . so lemme start from the beginning . it wont be told the whole everything in one long post . hahah pepel will get boring with all my gross stuff . huuuu . first thing first ! one in every post okie ? since now im holding back my title as Penganggur Terhormat . so , i have so many free time . enjoy !


This is my first thing . Final exam stuff and the environmental issue . wahhhh ! hahahaha . im FREEEEE now ! even the start was so tragic . hahah . good job ilyana . hmmmm , i think PASUM final exm was the most horror thing that ever happened to all the PASUMian . yet , PASUM is the most amazing moment so far . :)
PASUM students have to face 9 papers of 4 core subject and english . huuuuu . and our paper are everyday ! no gap at all . kau ada ? tak kann ? can you imagine how we gonna survive with all those science and math subject to revise every single day . many chapter to be cover up . as for this person yang memang tak sedar diri suka study and revise last min , tiap2 malam memang berdengung lahh otak nak study , nak memahamkan chapter , nak hafal formula , nak baca nota , nak baca tutorial , nak buat past year in one night . fuhhhhh berasap otak . and exam week is the most tense week for me . no doubt ! yet , after two weeks , i think its worth it . even its not perfect tapi i think i did okay for all the papers except for one . wait , i tell more about it below . :)


Exam hall kami jauh . great betul UM nehh suka torture student dia bagi kurus ckett . kena pergi awal ckett lahh if that so kannn ? every night , sleep around 2 to 3 am . depends on how tough the paper is . and woke up around 7.30 am . memang subuh gajah kann ? kantoi . haha . and abah is the most patient guy yang setia kejutkann aku bangun tiap-tiap pagi . that is why he is the ONLY guy yang berjaya mendapat tempat di hati aku bermula dari saat itu . heeeee . i love you abah ! okay back to the topic . kami keluar kolej at about 8.15 am and start lahh menapak . sabar betul kitorang berjalan sehingga ke hujung simpang . bila sampai , cari tempat kosong yang masih available , bersila .. ye bersila atas lantai tuan puan . hahaha sadis betul . and then , start lahh cover balik ape yang patut . tyme tuhh lahh baru aku nak menyusahkan mira tanya itu , tanya ini . hahaha . and dia seperti biasa , begitu sabar melayan kerenah roommate dia yang memang dikenali suka menyusahkan hidup dia . heeee . but usually waktu2 dah suntuk pagi tuh , yang hanya ada setakat 20 min , aku mampu hafal formula jea lahh . nak baca nota ke ape ke , memang tak sempat . or else , nanti otak aku cramp , langsung ilang semua . tak sanggup ! heeeee . and here's the thing yang aku usung tiap-tiap hari masuk exam hall :

Slip kebenaran masuk exam .
   
Kad matriks
Pencil case dan wallet juga !
Emm , overall 9 paper was okay . start with chemistry 3 and end up with English . tapi when it comes to English , sumpah aku nekad taknak study . sebab objektif sahaja . sooo , tembak aje ape yang patut . weeee . bahagia betul idup ilyana . i just worried on algebra and calculus sebab i did it suck . horrible gilaaa . just hope on the statistics only right now . so , statistics , please be well . cover up my algebra and calculus bolehhh ? waaaaaa , now dah mula rindu PASUM ! kolej , audi , BT , BS , BK , lab , KBT , Kafe KK12 , etc . fuhhhhhh , till then , daaaa ~

The most important thing , i miss HER the MOST !!!

Ex-PASUMians , 
Fitrah Ilyana

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

I'D TRY ENOUGH

When you leave me alone , i understand .

When you said you are busy with work , i understand .
When you simply left me talking with the phone , i understand .
When you spoke those harsh words to me , i understand .
When you behave like strangers , i understand .
When you began to be like all those pepel out there , i understand .
When you changed , i understand .
When you simply act like nothing happened , i understand .
When you forget my important dates , i understand .
When you don't understand this ilyana , i understand .
When you don't apologize , i understand .
When you find me only when you want to , i understand .
When you disappears at the moment i need you the most , i understand .
When you forget your promises , i understand .
When you think i can accept all that you did , i understand .
When you act like you dont give a damn on everything , i understand .
i TRY to understand everything that you have done to me .
Every single thing .
Yet , when i stop loving you ,
I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND . . .
in fact , i heard you got another baby girl , aren't you ?
Its okay . we dont have any commitment together so far .
So you may have ONE if you want . no offence . :)


P/S : This girl is having her final exam . Pray for her . And sorry for everything . Good luck guys . Live well !

That's it ,
Fitrah Ilyana .

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

IT'S FOR YOU

Babe ! sorry for not updating in a while . im just in the phase of 'gila-sebab-nak-final-exam' . final is just in front of my college door shouting : HEY FELLA , COME TO ME BABY ! plus , this week is the last week of tutorial . so , i have to make extra effort to catch up everything . speaking the truth , this young lads is not as busy as you think . she just busy doing all the last minute stuffs . as usual . because the entire wold knows that FITRAH ILYANA is really a last-minute-doing-things person . hahaha yes that's me and im proud of that bad habit im owned . *face palm* i have to pause my mission for a while . because i have some rubbish to be thrown . haha dengar sini ilyana nak membebel . taknak dengar pegy maen jauh-jauh . first , my OP turns was so lucky number . 9th out of 11th group . great lahh kann ? org laen dah seronok berjimba-jimba , aku minggu depan duk tayang muka buat OP dengan Putri . kan babe kann ? aku baru cadang nak duk rumah seminggu straight next week . kacau schedule aku lahh OP haram neyh . takpe ilyana . no complaint . balik selasa petang ke UM , abes OP rabu pagi tuh then balik lahh seremban balik . komuter kann ada . mcm tak pernah balik sorang . haha tapi , tapi orang laen banyak OP this week . then next week brape kerat jea yang tinggal . and here comes the sayu moment when kita dok membebel kat depan , org kat blakang duk buat taik mata . but i tell you guys right now , aku bawak 5 pasang kasut siap2 masa OP nanti . korang tdow , aku bagi makan kasut . haha . memang suara aku lullaby korang tdow lahh kan ? you wish ! ngeeee . okay , lets move to the second thing . mid sem 2 result . yang aku buat macam harom tuhh . yang aku blaja memaen tuh . and result dia ? aku baru dapat tadi . haah #onlyinPASUM we got mid sem result 2 weeks before the final exam . if it was okay , then boleh masuk dewan exam dengan muka confident gila bangang . tapi bila result mintak kaki sepak muka , masuk dewan exam final nanti , mengucap siap-siap . <--- dats what i felt before . and after got the results ? -----> Alhamdulillah . bolehlahh hidup lagi . Kamal kata solid A . hahaha . fikirlahh sendiri . :) congrats ilyana . well done ! study lahh last min mcm tuh lagik ye final neyh . kau tgk berapa cebis markah plak kau kutip nanti . okay third , SPM results keluar esok . to my kekasih gelap tersayang a.k.a adik sedare teman merempit , esok kita tengok siapa lagik handal yee ? haha . and to all my juniors , hopefully results korang lagi gempak lahh dari kami yee . sebab kami memang sengaja taknak gempakkan results kami dulu . sebab kami ingin mencari pelapis yang lebih berkaliber pada masa hadapan kelak . wewewewe handal lagik BM aku rupanyaaa . :D and to those yang manage to menggadaikan diri menjadi PASUMian 2012-2013 nanti , awal-awal akak nak cakap . persiapkan diri , teguhkan iman , tabahkan hati , kuatkan minda , cekalkan jiwa . because PASUM is not as heaven as its name . jangan terkejut bila tgk budak matriks , asasi UiTM , UIA semua bersepah 4.00 flat tapi di PASUM hanya sekadar 3.50 or else . be ready all the PASUM-ian-to-be ! :) emmm what else ? nothing i guess . for the time being , my internal hormone , my physical appearance will absolutely in chaotic-worst-form ever ! between this 3 weeks period , it just me and myself fighting to resist everything for the sake of final . so kalau nampak ilyana dalam keadaan tak terurus , ignore her . because that what she really needs right now . serabut minah neyh , bukannya dia nak study punn . she will study . yes , she will . a night before the exam . haha . berani nyaa lah kau prempuan hoyy . kay lahh , i want to sleep now . tomorrow got OP from my tutor-mate . mama cakap : kalau taknak org tidow tyme kamu present , jangan tidow tyme org laen tgh present . its karma baby . wuhuuuu , mama pandai cakap Karma lahhh . haha . ilyana ! sini bukan tempat menganjing . senyap . sooo , untuk mengelakkan dari memakan kasut esok hari , saya perlukan tidur yang cukup . errrr , maybe tak . tapi at least cukup-cukup , kira okay lahh . hahaha . till then , night peeps ! daaa ~

inilah kekasih gelapku :)

Final exam victim,
Fitrah Ilyana .

Thursday, March 15, 2012

DAY 3 : A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF YOUR PARENTS

Babe ! looks like im very determined to finish this mission , isnt it ? haha gebang . you know what gebang is ? naaa forget it if you dont know . its a bluff word . ngeeee . and if one said that word to you , the proper answer is : "Yes , that's me." hahahaha . enuff with those nonsense ilyana . back to the title above . hmmm , a song that reminds me of my parents ? actually if you read back the post before , the tagged is "a song that reminds you of one/both your parents" . and as for me , why should i choose a song only for one if i have both mama and abah kan ? its not fair i think . haha yeah im thinking too much . :)

But if it meant for one only . i do have that songs for them separately . and if it reminds me of them , of course we thought of the oldies song , aite ? actually its not . why ? because a song that reminds me of my abah is this song :

 ~YANK - WALI BAND ~


Haha to those who dont know this song , please click that play button . why this song reminds me of my abah ? because this song is his favourite song . he used to sing this song almost every single second in the car . haha and i think its cute . because actually if im not in that high mood , i will risen up my smile as soon as he sings this song to me . with his mimic of face . with those slank , dance , gelek and so whatever he's doing as the accessories of the song , it was funny i tell you ! ironically , he's like telling me that somebody are taking me from him . and he won't let them to do so because i will be his forever . and i will laugh immediately . no doubt . because i feel loved and i know he loves me so much which he cannot even bear to lose me . awwwww abah , you know your daughter so well . there's no one else will pamper me as you do . there's no one else will kiss and hug me as perfect as you always do :') I miss you !

Next . a song that reminds me of my mama . what do you think it will be ? here it is :

MAMA - SPICE GIRLS


Haaaa hear first this song . why this song reminds me of mama ? because of the title kann ? no lahhh . but actually , it is YES . haha . i still remember one day , mama was so down . she got angry to every single pepel in the house . and this lucky daughter , pretend not to understand her mama's situation at that time , started to cry after being yelled at . cengeng . then , after a while , this daughter felt guilty . and one fact : she used to be like this everytime . haha . she decided to apologize . unfortunately , she was too ego to said that amazing words on four eyes with her mama . she then go to youtube and searching for the right song . this is the moment when she found this song . the first time listening to this song , she cried . yes she cried because this songs seemed to fit her in every words . no one will understand that feeling . she was so fascinated with the meaningful lyrics of this materials , then she sends the link to her mama's IM . great anak-anak nowadays . high-tech isnt it ? haha . after a while , mama came out from her room bringing her laptop along , with that song are still playing in her laptop , went straight to her daughter and hugged her so tightly . that moment was so incredible that i even cant describe it in words . it was calmful , full of warmth and naaaaa it was perfect . the most perfect place in the world are being in mama's hugs . definitely .

So , i guess that's the end of our story . hahaha ayat macam haram . now it's 2.29 am already . i guess this post is suitable at this time . so that i have to sleep in tears after this . haha night peeps ! :')

I do miss my diamonds at home . Smile ilyana . Everything's gonna be okay .

Your manja daughter,
Fitrah Ilyana .

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

DAY 2 : A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF YOUR MOST RECENT EX-BOYFRIEND


Babe . i bet i can see the question mark on your face after seeing such a horror title of this post , isn't it ? remember about this or not ? im sure you don't . haha why i'm saying like that ? because i blogged about this long time ago . before i made myself stuck in PASUM . when im still a round potato on the coach . hahaha . want to read about this post ? here's the link :


Haha at that time , i thought im the most hardworking person to finish all the 25 songs . muehehe . unfortunately , i preferred to be a really big-and-round potato instead . :D but now , rather than studying 24-7 , im very insist to finish this mission . ohhh heyy i did the first one also ! here :


And now here comes the second one . hmmm . "A Song That Reminds Me of My Most Recent Ex-Boyfriend" . haha sensitive issue i guess . so kay . just for fun baby . no offence please :) First question : Who is my most recent ex-bf ? hahaha eager to know ? im sorry . you cant . he was a memory . so let it be the way it should be . Okay second question is more important dudes . What's the song ? the most pity song ever . huhu why ? because it reminds me of the past . pepel said let bygone be bygone . yet , that line doesn't fit me enuff . as i love to hear to this song over and over again . so enjoy first . *drumroll please* 

~ BILA RINDU - RUFFEDGE ~



Haha jiwang aite ? i know im a jiwang type . so i dont care . i love this song . and yes , this song reminds me of him sometimes . just reminds . no hard feelings okay . why this song out of million songs ? i don't know why actually . it just that one day , i was shuffling my mp3 and out of sudden , i stopped at this song and it just my conscience to edit this song and set the chorus part as his message tone . ironic isn't it . no other reason . ohh yes , this songs is meaningful definitely . and up until now , this chorus part still remain as his message tone . just the difference is , the message tone is SELDOM popped out of my phone . haha okay enuff ! to you , Mr. Ex , you know who you are . so just a simple wish fer you : Hye ! Live well and do take care ! :)

This girl ,
Fitrah Ilyana .

SORTING

Babe . im getting busier . busier and always busier till final ends . sometimes i cant even manage my schedule . just like tonight . everything is so messed up . okay cool ilyana . manage it one by one . start slowly . first thing first .

TUTORIAL

  • Probability - DONE :)
  • Modern physics - DONE :)
  • Enthalpy and crystalline - DONE :)
  • Immunity and respiration - HELL NO ! :/ (do it tomorrow after matrices)
  • Matrices - GRRRR NO ! (do it on 11 tomorrow) *sigh*
LAB REPORT
  • Heredity Problem - OMG I HATE THIS . (will do weds night)
TEST
  • Statistics - tomorrow (will study in a short while)
  • Modern physics - also tomorrow :O (study also after this) *sigh again*
  • Biology - thursday (no study needed . En Ikhwan's is much simpler . can discuss ! ) ngeee
  • Integration - ohh damn i hate volume . please be nice test baby .
DATELINE
  • OP speech outline - OHH S**T ! i hate this really much . submitted this WEDS ! i bet i will sleep at no hours tomorrow night . gahhhh . -.-"
  • Final exam - 2nd April . study yet ? you ask the wrong person if you expect to get YES as an answer . im the last minute person and it will remains as it is . haha crazy aite ? ;)
NEXT TUTORIAL
  • This friday will think of it . so many stuff to settled first . oh God im so dead .
See how hectic i am ? want to have this much of burden every single week , juniors ? then , UM will be the exact place , i tell ya . night ! :)

Mrs  Book ,
Fitrah Ilyana .

Thursday, March 8, 2012

NAUGHTY KE ?

Babe ! aku noty ke ? aku degil ke ? haha you know what ? semua orang cakap aku macam tuh . orang cakap aku degil sebab tak suka makan . org cakap aku degil sebab aku suka mandi malam . Putri cakapa aku degil sebab even ada sore throat punn duk minum ais lagik . degil ehh tuh ? aku rasa aku taklah degil sangat . wahaha . tapi tadi after one incident neyh , terus aku fikir . haah betul lahh kowt aku degil and noty sebenarnyaa . haha . listen read this bedtime stories IF AND ONLY IF you are really interested . because it kinda boring i guess . teehee

This evening , got bio lab . haa loser kan , dak fizikal dah free gila takde lab , kitorg duk tersepuk pakai lab coat dlm bio lab lagik . -.-" then , i knew already yg this week practical is about genetics heredity . alaa yang pasal Mendel First Law , Mendel Second Law segala tuhh . junior-junior saya tentu tahu . kan adik2 akak kan ? haha . and trust me , it was super-banyak soalan dia . for me yang memang tahap kemalasan melampaui batasan akal fikiran , aku decide nak buat dulu lahh benda alah tuh . and last night , aku laksanakan lahh misi suci murni aku tuh sampai dekat pukul 4 setengah . which end up pagi tadi aku terbabas tidur sampai pukul 9 setengah , tak pergi tuto bio and 10 marks test aku melayang begitu sahaja . hahaha . go die . aku tak pedulik . tapi pedulik gak senanyaa . cuma dah taley nak wat ape dahh kan . pasrah aje lahh . haha . okay pas tuh , tadi aku pergi lab dengan begitu senang hati nyaa sebab i got nothing to do to fill those 3 hours . dalam hati dah fikir nak berjimba-jimba dahh lahh kacau org . kacau Aiman . dia gemar cari benda nak bahan aku . hikhik . sekali masuk dalam lab , demo bagi briefing cakap kalau ada yang dah buat dulu siap-siap , dia tak terima . dia suruh buat time tuh gak . yang dah buat tuh hanya boleh buat reference only . and i was like :O WHATTHEFISH?!!

tapi , buat-buat muka terkejut aku mcm tuh punn , ingat aku neyh baek tahap dewa kayangan ke nak rewrite balik benda alah menimbun tuhh ? sia-sia jea lahh pengorbanan 10 marks bio test aku terbang kann . hahaha . aku pun buat muka hipokrit sengih-sengih ckp Yes Miss . siap angguk-angguk lagik tanda faham . padahal dalam hati , dah ada bayangan setan dahh . haha . then , dengan muka confident , keluarkan lahh kertas kosong , maen salin jea ape yang ada depan mata . konon-konon tekun lahh padahal hampeh . macam harom kerja aku . alaa , bukan aku sorang yang buat mcm tuh . majoriti kwn2 aku semua punn mcm tuh . so tayah nak risau sangat lahh kan . chill2 sudah . haha . so , aku bermain-main dengan begitu suka hati nyaa bersama kawan-kawan aku . bila dia datang , cover kertas , tanya-tanya soklan cket then problem settled . takdelahh kantoi punn . kihkih . then , bila dah nak dekat 4 setengah , kuarkan kertas yang dah siap tuh , betulkan2 cket , buat2 buzy konon nak kejar masa , pas tuh dia pun ckp sape dah siap boleh hantar ye . takan aku plak nak jadi org first hantar kann ? obvious gila bangang aku nanti . then , aku pun sambung lah jimba2 gelak2 dengan dorg . pas tuh bila tgk dah ramai org hantar aku pun kemas2 barang , stapler paper , and there my report selamat dah nak mendarat kat tgn demo . 

Here's the best part . aku pun senyum , hantar paper tuh kat dia and terus sign out . masa aku nak sign out tuh lahh dia ckp . "Awak neyh nakal betul kann ? suka main-main saya tengok . Patutlahh siap lambat . cuba serius buat kerja . mesti kul 4 tadi dah siap ." kata beliau sambil tersenyum . wakaka . aku pun speechless tetber . malas nak soal jawab , aku capai tgn dia , salam , ambik barang terus keluar . and persoalan tuh terus bermain-main dalam otak aku . nakal ke aku ? haha . :)

Si Noty ,
Fitrah Ilyana .

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

BROKEN


ITS OVER . THAT'S IT
I'M DONE .
:'(

Monday, March 5, 2012

FACT #5

i love babies ! :)
This gonna be a short and packed one . Enjoy !

#1 Full name ?
Fitrah Ilyana binti Abd Halip . exactly as in IC .

#2 Current crush ?
Chester See . damn he's so cute i tell you !

#3 Addiction ?
Anything to do with Vanilla . yes everything please .

#4 How tall am i ?
2 months ago , 154cm . now you know how 'katik' i am . -.-"

#5 Relationship status ?
IC stated : BUJANG :)

#6 Girls i trust ?
First and foremost , Nirwana binti Mohd Rashid . my beloved mama . second would be Noor Amira Norizan and Fatin Mohamad Murtadza .

#7 Boys i trust ?
My AAFZ . only we know who they are to us kan Fatin kan Amy kann ? there are too . :)

#8 Current mood ?
Chaos .

#9 Favorite colour ?
Pink . all-time-favourite . orange and red can be considered as well . teehee

#10 Confession ?
Saya sayang roommate saya Emira Ezuna . but i never said that to her . i dont know why :(

#11 Who i miss ?
My heart : abah , mama , makcu , helmi and adik . My AAFZ tooo !

#12 Who i last hugged ?
My soulmate : Putri Hanisah binti Aman :')

#13 Who understands me ?
My twin : Zuraidah Mohammad a.k.a makcu tercintaa . ♥♥♥

#14 Someone who is always there for me ?
BFF : Siti Na'eimah Osman .

#15 Last text ?
I know i will survive , babe .

#16 What pissed me off lately ?
Final exam pressure .

#17 Who makes me laugh the most ?
The boobies : Putri , Farah , Fatin and Mimi ! :)

#18 Who i do the craziest stuff with ?
My lesbo partner : Nur Ayuni binti Nor Sobri .

#19 Who makes me smile ?
Who deserves to see my smile .

#20 What am i listening to ?
The One That Got Away - Tiffany Alvord and Chester See Cover . SUPERB !

#21 Turn ons ?
Go home !

#22 Turn offs ?
Tutorial and final exam :O

#23 Bestfriends ?
Every single name stated above .

#24 Second confess ?
I miss them so much . :")

#25 What i hate ?
People looking at me like i am an alien .

#26 Who's annoying ?
Myself . :D

Confess by ,
Fitrah Ilyana .

Thursday, February 23, 2012

UNRESISTABLE

Babe . im in bad condition . i dont know why im being this weak . the most weakest me since the first time i stepped my foot in here . UM . okay fine . the first university in Malaysia . hebat . pandai . well-known . superb . bla bla bla . all those praise , all those excitement came over when i said im UM Asasian student . yet , put yourself in my shoe . then you know how suffered i am as an Asasian here . the pressure , the expectation , the syllabus , the schedule , everything here is like we are geniuses enuff . gahhhh im so tired . im so exhausted . to catch up all the tutorial , to finish the lab , making the report , lecture back and forth from 8 to 6 sometimes . non-stop . im not a robot . im a human being . i just want this torture to be ended soon . patient ilyana . it just about one month and a half away before you can be as free as the bird . yet , that one and a half month is not an easy period i bet . that will surely be the most super-duper-hardest above all . be strong baby . i know you can do it . never give up because you don't know what Allah has planned for you . learn to be acceptable . accept all the fate . tak lama lagi ilyana . tak lama lagi . mesti ada hikmah behind all this . sabarlah hati . :(

Friday, February 17, 2012

THE BLOOD THAT BINDS

Babe , okay this is great . im at home . YEAH finally . ahah after a week in such a hell , now i can breath the fresh Margosa air freely . mid term yang macam haram tuh is OVER ! yeah applause applause ! just because it was exam then UM is a hell . if NOT , UM will be heaven definitely . haha padahal sendiri yang pressure tak tentu hala sebenarnyaa . so now im home , my life surely be superb lahh of course kann . got TV , got the fastest internet access ever , got food other than KK12 Kafe's , got comfy bed , got Pooh BB , got Panda Baby , got Bear Fira , got everything ! but the most prior goes to the pepel inside : Mama , Abah , Gemok and Makcu ! wahahaha . syiok dohhh . but missing Helmi so much . so kay sweetie , tomorrow will see him soon . cannot wait any longer anymore ! fuhhh patient baby patient . wahh i think many things to be told today . stay tuned or press the X button at the corner will be fine as well :)

This evening helmi call rumah . hearing his voice made me cried . i dont know why yet , i know im missing him . he's my brother dude . so what ? he said : "Abang rindu" (ingatkan kental , dalam hati ada taman juge rupe nyaaa) then he asked if we will come . and i said yeah sure we will . tomorrow will be . omaigod tak sabar ! then we talked a lil bit afta he said he got to go . nak basuh baju . and he said : "banyak benda abg blaja kat sini ayong" . im speechless . yes im touched . to know the fact that he's getting matured , there's no other thing that made me even happier . Ya Allah , ada hikmahnya Kau tempatkan dia di sana . By hearing the environment behind , i guess he adapted . he can manage the chaos as well . not like you , So-The-Anak-Manja-One ilyana . baru kena ragging cket time MHS , dah call mama nanges-nanges tersepit kat pintu lif . WHATTHE ? #takpedulik !

Okay , now about this another guy , Si Gemok yang comel . Amirul Mukhriz . this afternoon reached Seremban terus pick-up dia kat skool . then masuk kereta terus borak dengan dia .

Me : Adik , ape macam tinggal sorang ? best ?
Adik : entahlahh . okay jea . as usual . and i got abang's phone yang lama tuhh . so best lahh .
Me : Abang tak bawak phone ke ? (saja nak test)
Adik : Tak . cikgu dia tak bagi bawak phone pergi sekolah . nanti kena rampas .
Me : abes tuh kenapa adik tak pakai C3 abang ?
Adik : Phone abang kat mama . mama simpan .
Me : Ohhh yeke . adik tak boring ke duk rumah sorang-sorang ?
Adik : Taklahh . adik banyak tidur aje . penat . (padahal faham dia sunyi , taknak mngaku!)
Me : Adik tak rindu abang ?
Adik : Tak ponn . abang kan selalu kacau adik . so adik suka lahh kalau abang takde . tak bergaduh . (jawapan mengelak)
Me : Elle yelahh tuh . mama cakap adik nangis masa abang nak pergi pagi tuhh ?
Adik : Mana ada ! adik nangis sebab adik nak ikut mama . thats all . no more hidden reason . (AGAIN!)

Then he changed the topic immediately . so clever this young man kann ? and so the EGO one ! lagi tinggi dari Dubai Tower ego dia neyh if you guys nak tau . he deadly denied the fact that actually he felt the lost . tapi , langit tak selalu cerah . dia ingat dia boleh lepas dari aku . after Helmi call tadi , i ran upstairs nak bagitahu abah . then saw him dekat PC table . maen game lahh tuh . saja jerit kuat-kuat : "Abah , Bang Mie call" (and tak sebut TADI punnn! saja nak buat dia ingat helmi TENGAH call) guess his reaction ? jumped from the chair and dengan penuh upaya berlari nak turun ! haaaa see ! action speaks louder than words lahhh Mukhriz . you cant lie anymore . haha gotcha !

Me : asal kamu ? abang mie call tadi lahh . ayong dah hung-up dahh ponn .
Adik : *grinned* (tuh jea dia mampu buat at that time.dah kantoi)
Me : Hahaha cakap jea lahh kau rindu abang kan mok ?
Adik : Mana adalahh . i just want to ask abang if he missed me . that's all .

Hahaha adik adik . whatever reason come out , i dont care . your spontaneous and involuntary action nak kejar phone just now revealed everything that you meant to hide . so , well done mukhriz . tak payah nak ego sangat lahh . im actually proud of you okie . no need to be ashamed or anything . because you should have that feeling . its not a crime to miss your own brotha dik . in fact , im glad that i have this two young hero who look tough outside , yet fragile inside . this is what we call the REAL LOVE OF ALL . now i know i can count on you both . right now im proud to say that I LOVE YOU BRO !

Enuff fer now . nak tacink dahh . k bye !

PENCINTA TERBAIK

Ps : Kem Motivasi Asasi ? O.o ? memang tak lahh aku nak pergi . GO DIE !

First out of 3 ,
Fitrah Ilyana .

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE


Babe ! okay promise this post won't be long . :)
Let me put it in point so that i wont exaggerate too much . i know im keypad-maniac . -.-"

1. This mid sem is half way along . and i guess im not perform . yes it sucked . last minute study . serves you right ilyana !
2. I miss Margosa damn hell . i miss abah's hug . i miss mama's food . i miss gemok's yell . i miss makcu's blabber . gahhhh i miss everything at home . Zul's right . home is where my heart belong . homesick . :(
3. Helmi's currently home : Sek Men Teknik Jasin , Melaka . and this young man is whom i missed the most . they send him there without me . mid sem aite ? sedar diri .
4. I'm crying in the shower almost everyday . this is the worst week ever ! this ilyana had become so weak . gahhhh what happened baby where are you ?
5. I miss my AAFZ damn much . i dreamt of being at Fatin's place at Morocco last night . i want to see her and being in her cuddle right now . pls Fatin ? untung lahh Fatin double A ada pm kat fb . aku memang loser ponn tersepuk kat UM sorang-sorang takde sape kisah . kecikk hati dengan Amy . :'(

K bye .

Si Loser ,
Fitrah Ilyana .