DAY 8: A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF MY 'FIRST LOVE'

Babe ! it's 2nd day of Ramadhan . so i think it's not too late for me to wish all my Muslim friends , Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak ! may we get more than just hungry and thirst . not only that . this month is SO special to be wasted . so lets work to gain every single barakah hidden in it. :)

Me having my first day of Ramadhan ? well i can manage , i guess . it's not too hard . having all my daily routine as usual . maybe wake up extra early for sahur . then , perform my Subuh prayer , get Gemok ready for school , send him off to school , reach home manage housechores , take a nap for a while daa daa daa . that's all . time flies so fast so it's really not a big deal , i think . and just keep that positive attitude for the next 29 days ilyana . ^^,

What makes this Ramadhan different ? having to go through it without Mama by our side . sahur without her , cooking for buka puasa without her , going to bazaar without her , buka puasa without her , tarawikh without her , i have to admit , im dying a little bit inside . there's seemed a hole that missing in every single moment without her . but yes , at least we have family here ; abah , adik , makcu and me . but her ? she have to get through it all alone there in Lipis . please imagine how she'd feel . just be strong mama . and we cant wait to have you here in Seremban tomorrow , to do wahat we need to do and what we have missed to do without you . we love you and we all here are really really missing you a lot . just come home safely . thats our only pray for now . :')

Okayyy now stop the emo thingy . chill out ilyana . mama will be back sooner . put back your smile . and lets back to our topic . a song that reminds me of my 'first love' . first thing first , define 'first love' . who is my first love ? what love ? like a purely love cinta sampai mati ? or puppy love ? or maybe my first love that lead to the mushy couple stuff and all that ? hmmmm its hard to define when it comes to this kinda feeling and emotion thing . erghhhh . 

Sokay i'll just make it simple . lets choose one person that comprises all the definition of that first love . the one that i thought will be my cinta sampai mati . my first crushes . my first love obsession . the very first person that caught my attention during my transition from the puppy love phase to a more mature love phase . and yes , it lead to the mushy , little idiot thing that i never did before that . so yeah , i decide to choose this person . let's dig back the old memories . im not here to describe about who's my first love . so no worries . we're here to describe a song that reminds me of him . and yeahh this is it :

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

why this song ? because it has many emotions behind it . hate , sad and love . why hate , why sad and why love ? naaa it's an old story . too long to be told here every single thing . but one thing i can tell here is , i started to love this song when i finally can get over him . or else , i think im gonna hate this song for the rest of my life . ahahaha and yeah if you guys wondering when i experienced my first love ? it's Form 3 . yeahh Form 3 . so young . so immature . but it still makes up who i am right now . FYI , i made this blog on that year and because of him . so ironic that im talking about him again after 5 years . now he's happy with his life . im happy all my way through my life . no hard feelings . im happy as who i am . im praying for the best of him . and yes , i have no other feelings towards him . but yeahh , everytime i listened to this song , i remembered him . the one that used to have a place in my heart . >.<

Take-home-message ? First love is not always gonna work . Last will do , perhaps . ^_^

Fall for me ?

Fitrah Ilyana .