DAY 9: A SONG THAT MAKES ME HOPEFUL

Babe . how i miss writing here every single day . yet , i have no idea , so no post . sorry guys . brain has been running so slow lately . how are you ? im here just fine . taking care of my father every single day makes me stronger and even stronger . fulfill his needs , massage his only 'bone-and-skin-left' body , making him happy , it's enough for me to say that im happy with my life so far . im not a typical teens who will make use of the whole sem breaks by hanging out with friends , going to every mall to shop for raya and so whatever . im a first daughter , who have her mom staying far away in pahang , who have to take care of her dad . im a sister , who have to manage her 2 heroes , who have to send and pick up her heroes of school , who have to take responsibilities in managing everything that im alone never think i'll have to do it at my age right now . yet , with all these responsibilities being placed on my shoulder , i know it's not even a burden for me . in fact , i accept it with all my heart and take it as a bless . maybe Allah give these test to me so that i can appreciate my family more . who knows , aite ? ilyana , after all you've been through and for anything that you'll be facing in future , i begged you to stay strong . you have to be strong no matter what ! why ? because your abah , your mama and your adik-adik are depending on YOU . now and the times ahead .

Still , im a human being . there's a time that i feel happy . there's a time i feel so tired and exhausted . there's a time i feel so sad . there's a time that i feel so down . there's a time that i feel like im losing myself , im losing hope and finally i want to give up . im not as strong as every people think i am . no i am not . im just pretending that i am strong all this while . so there's a song that makes me hopeful , a song that gives me some inspirational . i have nothing to say anymore . it's enuff i think . so just listen to it . and i hope it can give you some hope too , just like what it may gives me . but still , pray and al-Quran is the best cure of all . take care guys . love ya :') .

Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

Holding On ,

Fitrah Ilyana .