SILENT

Babe . egokah aku to seek an apology ?

aku ke yang salah ?

malu ke aku nak minta maaf ?

Ya Allah , bantu aku .

maafkan aku kawan .

DEFLECTION POINT

Sebelum bertemu denganmu , hidupku bahagia

Semenjak bertemu denganmu , ku makin bahagia

Tapi ,

Maafkan ku harus pergi

Ku tak suka dengan ini

Aku tak bodoh

Terima kasih oh Tuhan

Tunjukkan siapa dia

Thankyou so much

I'm sorry GOODBYE

HUH

I'M STARTING TO HATE YOU

THANK YOU

PRECIOUS MOMENTS

Babe ! currently typo2 on the comfort bed afta having sahur dengan fammies ! what ? tak faham ? dia neyh memang perosak bahasa bangsa . taktau ke ? ^^ fammies itu families lahhhh . heeee . so , i'm officially at HOME now ! yes , i do . hajat hati nak menaikkan post last midnight , sambil feeling-feeling dalam bilik sorang2 . tapi sayang tak kesampaian disebabkan kengantukan yang melampau . effect tdow 2,3 jam 3,4 pagi masa exam week . yela study babe study . neyh lahh padahnya kan , sape suruh taknak study awal-awal . sooo , tak payah nak merungut kata penat ke hape . sape suh ko pilih options untuk study last mins kan ilyana . then , pandai-pandailah tanggung . =..=


Now kan , now kan , sayeee nak bagitau neyh , dengarlah dengarlah ! (gediknya kau pmpuan !) exam mid sem sayeee dah melabuhkan tirai petang semalam ! dengan berakhirnya paper FMAX0112-BASIC PHYSICS 2 and FKAX0111-BASIC CHEMISTRY 1 semalam , maka saya mengumumkan ilyana bebas untuk 1 hari . -.-''
yelah satu hari jea lahh . abes tutorial aku sape nak buatkan ? ilyana kann rajin . dah 3 minggu dapat tutorial tapi satu jadah haram pun tak sentuh . haa bangga lah tuh , bangga lah tuh ? ^,^ the total perfomance ? it was so-so jea . ntahlahhh , maybe sbb lack of study . eheeee (salah sendiri) . cne nak dapat 4.00 flat kalau asek maen-maen jea ilyana . aduhhh stop playing and wandering around boleh kan ? now , tengah neves tggu result plak lahh . mcm2 version dah aku dgr regarding when the results will be announced . a week , a month bla , bla , bla . i don't care at all . errrr , actually i care the most . haha . kalau boleh , kua lahhh lepas raya yeh PASUM management . pleaseeee ? sbb saya nak menikmati the leisure time of my cuti raya semaksima mungkin . huhu mengadee lahh tuh . okay shut up . (OMG report lab kimia tak bawak balik ==")


Waaaaa , nikmatnya berada di rumah . cuddling with the Pooh BB (bukan Blackberry , harap maklum) on the most comfy bed ever . pemalasnya kau , balik rumah ingat katil jea . ngeeee . actually the most precious moment being at home is the chance to buka puasa , solat terawikh , and sahur with the family . for me , kalau rumah dah dekat , memang rugi gilee lahhh kalau hujung minggu pun nak duduk kurung diri dekat UM . haha . yela , 5 ary kite semua struggling dengan exam , books , notes bagai , ape salahnya hujung minggu balik spend time dengan family . sebab kalau aku stay UM pun , bukan aku boleh siapkan semua tutorial . between pressure buka sorang-sorang dekat UM tapi tak siap keje dengan balik rumah , enjoy having time dengan family and yet tak siap keje gak , mana lagi untung ? mestilahh balek kan ? heeee . so sbb tuh lah pmpuan neyh tak muak-muak balik Seremban tiap2 kali weekends . that's the only time untuk aku bersama family . appreciate , appreciate ! ^^,


Dah habes membebel dah ilyana ? bising nye kau suh aku berhenti neyh kenapa ? haha yela dah lah ha . ohhh ! lagu neyh , lagu neyh ! Sorry seems to be the hardest word - Blue ft Elton John . sukasuka ! "What i got to do to make you love me , what i got to do to be cared , ......" ape yang perlu aku buat ? do nothing . sebab if he really loves you , he will surely make an effort without us telling them to do soo . simple kan ? okay stop it ilyana . enuff . see ya again , dearies ! till then , byebye ! mmuah ! mmuah !


P/S : awak , bazar Stadium Paroi jum ? eheeeee :DD

Tiada penghujung ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

FEAR OF FAILING :0

Babe ! CALCULUS entah mcm hapeee ntah lahh .
lebur abes dah smueee .
kalau physics takpe gak . neyh CALCULUS ilyana , CALCULUS !
compulsory subject , masuk dalam pointer tau tak .
haihhh , blaja bagai nak rak , tapi bile jawab terkial-kial .
bagus sangat lahh tuh , ntah hape yang dia blaja pun taktau .
i'm praying , bagi lahh aku lulus Ya Allah . Amiiin !


forget about that gila CALCULUS ,
nak cite pasal neyh . :DD
i found it soooooo kelakar . haha .
tadi , masa Dr. Kamariah called some students' name yang letak kad matrik merata , komfem lahh semua org pun eager nak tgk sape budak2 tuh kan ? tapi tak sorang pun yang bgn even nama yang kena panggil dekat 5,6 orang . alaa , komfem lahh malu nak bangun mengaku diri masa tuhh . depan 1000++ tuh babe . jatuh lahh ego lelaki dy kan . a'ah semua lelaki yang kena pnggil tuhh . heeeeee . tak kesahh lahh pasal tuh . tapi yang sengal nye , budak2 neyh gemar doe buat bunyi kerusi . alaa , cane nak terang eh . cm ko nak bgn konon-konon kau tuan empunya badan yang kena panggil padahal tak punnn . ntah ape motif dorg seronok benar buat cm tuh pun taktau . tapi aku rasa berpuluh kali dah aku paling kat arah bunyi-bunyi kerusi tuh sbb aku nak tgk sape yang tak syg benar kad matrik dy . hahaha . bukan sorang jea yang buat , ramai gilee yang buat . it was funny okay . heeeee :D


ohhh i got another one . this one was soo interesting , i guess . :)
masa mula-mula masuk exam CALCULUS yang mengeciwakan tadi tuhh , En Ismail ada pesan : "semua pencil box dan penutup kalkulator mesti diletakkan di atas lantai" then guess what ? semua orang did soo ! the moment everybody putting down the calculator's cover and the pencil case , the sounds of that yang terhasil , was soooooooooo cooool ! hahaha . suka aku dengar bunyi bising tuhhh . taktau nape . heeee


ehhh enuff membebel ilyana . you got 1 more day to go ! tak sabar rasanya nak habeskan satu hari neyh and celebrate kebebasan yang tak berapa nak mutlak ini dengan balik Seremban , buka puasa , makan puas2 ! weeeeeeeeee ! excited ! excited ! till then , daaaaa babe ! mmuah ! mmuah !


P/S : hidup baek-baek . jaga diri :)

Fears ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

SYNTAX ERROR

Babe ! look the title up there kan ? i guess u knew already what paper i'd been through kan ?
komfemlah has something to do with the maths kan .


FJAX0111 - ALGEBRA AND GEOMETRY


bunyi mcm senang kan ? alaa , algebra jea pun . but the fact is , it was crazy , yet better than physics lahh kan ! -.-"
it was not as tough as physics yesterday . its just the matter of time yang jadi masalah .
IF i were given (kalau jea , tapi tak mungkin lahh kan) much more time , i think i could finish it perfectly , perhaps ?
seriously tak sempat ! when Dr Fadzilah said : "masa menjawab tinggal 10 minit" , guess what ? i got almost 8 questions tak berjawab lagi . haaaaaaa , ilyana kau memang gila . mcm lipas kudung menjawab , tapi tak sempat juga . penyudahnya ? tembak jea lahh ape yang patut ditembak . i'm pro with that tembak-menembak thingy . haha :D
konklusinya , it didn't go smoothly . but , BOLEHLAHHHH . walaupun pass up tanpa semak satu haram jadah pun . eheee . hope it was just okay . :)


P/S : awak , suka lahhh bila awak care . *mengadenyeeeeee ! =.=

Surrender ?

Fitrah Ilyana .

PHYSICS ? -.-"

It was sooooo perfect ! hah tgk reaction pun tau kan ?
yelah , sape suruh fitrahilyana neyh bijak sangat belajar physics kan ?
haa amek kau .
maen tembak , maen tanda jea physics tadi .
tahniah ilyana . rajin lagi baca buku ye biar boleh jwb secemerlang tadi .
padan muka ! buat lagi selalu mcm tuh yek .
dah tawu esok nak exam , boleh maen angry birds lagi malam tadi .
alhamdulillah , esok dapat result kua telur byk2 . haha
dah2 , lupakan physics tuh . 6 more papers to go ilyana .
keep up your 'effort' ! :DD
chaiyok ! chaiyok !
oh lupa nak cakap !
Mr Chemistry , i adore you so much ! mmuah ! mmuah !


P/S : makin lama saya makin menyenangi awak . :)

Mr . Algebra ? hmm ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DISCONSOLATE DREAMER

For attractive lips ,

speak words of kindness .

For lovely eyes ,

seek out the good in people .

For a slim figure ,

share your food with the hungry .

And for poise ,

walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone .

Dear Allah ,

please give me the strength to spread my wings - the courage to leap and to fly .

Limiting factor ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

REVEALING TIME :)

Babe ! ko saje jea nak tagged aku questions2 yang cepu gangsa , cepu besi neyh kan ? naseb baek ko duduk jauh . oleh kerana ta mahu menghampakan harapan setinggi gunung kau tuh , aku jawab gaklahh soklan neyh dengan seIKHLAS hati dan seJUJUR mungkin seperti yang kau pinta . cehhh sukalahh tuh fifi oyy ! ngeeeeeee :DD


Guys , tutup mata anda kalau taknak baca jwapan merapu dari fitrahilyana :)


1. What i'm really bad at...
- cooking ! huahua . kalau taknak dapur rumah anda rentung , jangan suruh saya masak . tapi , saya akan belajar untuk jadi a good cook one day . :)


2. The one person whose arm i'd like to be in...
- satu jea ? tak boleh lebih ? then the answer would be my abah . no doubt .


3. My first best date..
- mestilah date saya dilahirkan . 23rd march 1993 . that's the beginning of everything . (saketnya lahh hati bila fitrahilyana buat-buat lurus kan ? ngeee)


4. A description of my self-esteem...
- i'm only confident when i think my appearance looks good .


5. Who my best friends are...
- ramai kowt ! takan nak sebut satu-satu . heee . u guys know who i mean . all of you are my best friends .


6. My favourite book...
- all my reference book . haa tipu ! tipu ! hahaha . belum abes ckp lahh . it supposed to be my favourite , but unfortunately , i admire my love novels more . :)


7. A description about my best friend...
- Superb !


8. My favourite animal...
- I would prefer rabbit than cat . heeeee sape tawu cerita , please diam yeh !


9. Someone i miss...
- someone ke something neyh ? hahaha . amy , atin , naeimah , aku rindu korang !


10. The reason behind my last break up..
- barang yang lepas jangan dikenang . ehh aku penah break up ke ? hahaha :DD


11. What i did yesterday ?
- berulit dengan segala mcm phylum and kingdom . ape tuh ? tanya pakcik google . heeee


12. What my greatest achievements are ?
- 11A's SPM , best student PMR . anymore ? coming soon :)


13. A description of the person i dislike the most..
- Mama ckp sy tak boleh benci org . so , i have no one to be described . harap maklum .


14. My favourite song right now
- Dari default song blog sayeeee pun dah tau kan ? heeee . currently addicted to Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts .


15. All of the pets i've ever had
- Fish (es) . tapi dah mati sebab saya excited bagi dia mkn byk-byk biar cepat besar . hakhak .


16. Favourite flavour of ice-cream
- Vanilla Musk ! ooops , tuh perfume saya . silap silap . heeee vanilla lahhh .


17. The one place i want to be right now
- Somebody bring me to i-City pleaseeeeee ?


18. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me
- Kalau diingat menimbulkan dendam . sooo , just let it go . takmau ingat dahhh .


19. Where i have lived before
- Now , saya tinggal kat UM . dulu ,,,, kat Seremban lahhh . (dasar lupa diri . hahaha)


20. I'll love you if...
- you love me as who i am and realize the weaknesses inside of me , yet still want to accept me . (jiwang ke aku ?)


21. What are my future plans ?
- Nak jadi doktor pakar kanak-kanak terbaik di dunia bolehh ? heeeee


22. An internal conflicts i have with myself
- banyak sangat ! setiap hari kita berhadapan dengan konflik . sooo , idup kita tak penah lari dari membuat pilihan .


23. What i'm doing tomorrow ?
- study lahh . mid sem exam mggu depan sayang ! jangan buat-buat lupa ehh .


24. What i want to be when i get older
- wanita , isteri , mama dan nenek terbaek . :) (ececeh tak boleh blah dgr impian dy kan ? heee)


25. Most embarassing moment
- OMG ! malu lahh nak ingat balek ! tutup muka cepat . hahaha . bila jalan salah step and nak tersungkur sampai nak peluk anak org ! apehal kau ilyana ? hahaha .


26. Two of my insecurities
- saya tak suka org pandang saya sambil senyum-senyum , bisik-bisik dgn kwn dy . i can't stop thinking of what they feel about me . it will distract my mood for the whole day .
- jangan tanya aku 'betul ke.......?' aku takkan bwat lagi benda tuhhh . haha


27. What i would do if i won the lottery ?
- bagi balek dwet tuh , cakap "awk salah org eh ? saya bukan orangnya . neyh kan haram ."


28. A description of the boy i like
- payahnya soalan ! kalau ckp pasal jehan miskin boleh tak ? hakhak .


29. What i love most about myself
- ape ea ? haha . saya suka senyum , buat iklan colgate . sooo , at least , setiap hari ada sedekah jariah yg saya buat untuk org laen kan ? maybe the smile will enlighten other's day . mana tau . heheeee


30. How many kids i want in the future ?
- neyh kena bincang dengan future hubby dulu baru decide . hahaha . dgr lahh jwapan gediks ilyana neyh . ntah sape-sape future hubby dy . mrepek jea tahu . haha


31. My idea of a perfect date
- to spend the whole day with the beloved one . simple ! its not the place or the scenery that matter . its actually spending time with the people you love the most that matter . (abaikan jawapan itu ! haha)


32. What i'm really good at ?
- memujuk makcu keluar buang maseeee ! huhuhuhu . gebang semata-mata tuhh .


33. Most traumatic experience
- when it comes to the CAT thingy ! haha


34. Where i would like to live ?
- home ? with all the people i love . :)


35. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me
- mama once said : you're getting more matured . (speechless . is it ma ?)


36. Do i like where i am now ?
- yes i do . everything happened for a reason kan ? Allah dah tentukan segalanya . aku bersyukur .


37. What can i hear right now ?
- sahutan anjing . OMG its so scary !


38. My relationship with my sibling(s)
- as it should be . air dicincang takkan putus .


39. My biggest worry currently
- boleh ke aku jawab mid sem neyh nanti ? ohhh tidak !


40. Something i've wished for repeatedly
- Ya Allah , permudahkan mama ku menghabiskan pHd nya . nak 4.00 flat boleh tak ? ngeeee .


41. My relationship with my parents
- its the blood-bond that will tied up forever . :) they're my everything .


42. What word make me the best about myself ?
- Fitrah Ilyana . the name describes the whole me .


43. Something i should have said a long time ago .
- i'm sorry mama . i've been hurting you a lot .


44. What my last text message say ?
- alaa ko saje nak korek rahsia aku kan fifi ! "................... nyte2 ! " hahaha rahsia lahh babe . ngeee .


45. What i hate most about myself ?
- pmpuan neyh manje nyeeee lahhh . Subhanallah . haha mentang-mentang dy sorg anak pmpuan . manje nyee terlebih . so ? aku tak kacau org kan . bia lahhh . heee


46. What words upset me the most ?
- "Whatever" , "Pape lah hai" dan sewaktu dengannya . if ko nak buat acuh tak acuh dengan aku , please get yourself out of my life .


47. What i hated the most about school ?
- Co-curricular activities ! yes i do hate co-co very much . dats why markah co-co pmpuan neyh dulu 78.50 jea . selalu fly co-co , ceramah smueee . haha . soooo , jgn ikut habit tak baik senior anda neyh yek . nanti menyesal . sekian .


Dah fifi , puas hati ? hahaha . aku nak sleep now boleh kan ? its 3am already . heeee . so night peeps . love you guys ! mmuah ! mmuah ! ohh ye , sila lupakan segala kemerepekan di atas . :D

HANYA INGIN KAU TAHU

Diri ini serasa tidak berdaya untuk melangkah lagi .
Tubuh badan ini meragui kemampuan dirinya menongkah badai .
Jiwa ini tidak pasti adakah dia mampu menggenggam sebuah harapan .
Mampukah impian itu ku renggut ?
Mampukah bintang itu ku gapai ?
Mampukah fantasi menjadi realiti ?
Apabila hakikat yang sebenarnya tidak begitu indah seperti mimpi-mimpi malamku .
Ya Allah , berikan aku secebis kekuatan-Mu .

Desahan hati ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

:'(

Babe ! tears seemed to love me a lot tuday . thankyou tears . u bathed my fluffy cheeks again . afta numerous time before , i know . why my world getting more miserable day after day ? i tried to remain calm , i tried to carve a smile , i tried to be strong , even i tried deadly to be super-duper coooool . unfortunately , every single things looked sooo fake ilyana . u wish ! instead of all the heavy-thunderstorm-tutorials and notes to catch up , the incoming-mid-sem-exam really made this young lady going down to earth . yes , i know i sound so weak right now . but who cares aite ? can u imagine u can catch up every syllabus within this one week ? AT HOME ? u are so amazing if you can do it dude . i guess i'm not the lucky one in this matter . pffffftttttt , its enuff ilyana . can you just stay strong and keep fighting like you used to do long time ago rather than crying and sighing all around ? =.=' OMG , i think i should just move on and keep stepping till the end . don't ever give up ilyana . this is not the full stop yet . your journey is still far . continue moving towards it even you have to crawl ! please girl , go against this stupid-useless feelings ! ALLAH is always there right ? remember HIM and everything will be just fine . sayang ku ilyana , even if no one care about you , you know that i will stay here supporting you fer every second of my life . i promise . :)

Dear heart , please understand the brain . it has to work a lil bit overtime . even if not all the time , i beg you just for this whole 2 weeks please . no hard feelings . empty the recycle bin of those rubbish damn feelings , can you ? i would appreciate it so much . thank you .

P/S : zul , thankyou best friend . and i really mean it . thanks fer being there with me through all the tears just now . :)

Andai hari esok ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

MUMBLING MUMBLING :)

Babe ! hasrat hati nak type cket2 jea malam neyh . but i don't know if it really happen as i wish . :DD

doakan saya tak overtyping okie dokie ? u know fitrahilyana very well kan ? ngeeee -.-

currently , this girl is having her full 'LEISURE-TIME-MID-SEM-HOLS' laaaa sangat ! best kan ? best kan ? mcm best jerw denga dapat cuti mid sem . seminggu plak tuh . physically , it sounds great . yea , it was holidays as well kan ? but the true fact is , this mid-sem break is actually the study week for every single person of ASASIANS oke ! haaa amek kau ! benam kepala dalam kolam siap-siap ilyana . tak sedar diri lagi tuh tak start-start study lagi . dah masuk monday dah neyh . tak hengat result test physics ko yg mcm sampah ry tuh ? so you better work hard now lady ! don't worry gentlemen , i will open up my book since tomorrow . that's guaranteed ! weeeeeeee . ayat nak poyo jea . buat taktau lagi . hahaha . ini bukan cubaan ye ! ini betol-betol . esok sy start study and will put 200% efforts to finish my beloved tutorial ! pffffttttttt -.-'' i love you deary tutorials .

last few weeks ? it was extremely exhausted and need my extra 110% attention to grab and catch up everything . semua sedia maklum yg minah nama fitrahilyana neyh sangatlahhhh rajin sekali kan ? hahaha . so last-min-work-out itu memang habit dy . lumrah hidup dy lah tuh terkejar-kejar siapkan keje bagai-bagai . pas tuh tak siap , tensyen tak tentu hala . so jangan salahkan sesiapa tahu . dia punya internal problem sendiri , i guess . terlebih adventure . huuuuu . but , i manage to get through all the pains and tears . yeaaaa ! give me a big clap ! yuuuhuuuu . giloo !

last friday , takde muet class ! haa heaven kan ? byk masa freee . weeee . mulalah buat keje gile kan pmpuan neyh . plan dgn sep nak kua afta tutorial math kul 9.30 pegy mid tgk wayang . ceh KONON ! sekali abes tutorial kul 9.30am , sambung plak dengan farewell speech dari sir adam a.k.a demo bio tercinta . ayat taley blah kan ? abaikan abaikan ! ngeeeeee . this young charming man demo bio kami neyh memang boleh pegang title the most eligible bachelor dekat U1 ! wakaka . series dy sangat hensem and charming ! sampai bergaduh2 dengan shahirah , alia , pqa , amal semua sebab semua nak pegy aussie ikowt dieee ! hahaha . termasuklahhh aku kan , si gediks neyh . hakhak . fyi , sir adam neyh nak fly gy aussie sambung phd dy dalam biochem (plant) . gile kan ? genius abes mamat neyh . padanlah dgn muka nerd dy tuhhh . ngeee sorry sir . but after all , dy memang sempoi habes . we will miss you sir adam jalaluddin . :)

okay ilyana , jangan berangan lagik . dy dah engaged yek ! back on earth ! hahahaha okay dokie ! smbung cite balek . heee

lepas borak-borak dgn sir adam + nasehat-nasehat bernas dy tuh (bernas lahh sangat) + gelak tawa riang ria + snap-captcha-photo-session , about 11am . OMG dah lambat lahh plak nak pegy tgk wayang kan . sbb kul 3 ada klas lagi . tapi disebabkan nak gak jadi adventurous , this girl kua gak dlm kul 11.30am dgn sep and farah , tutor-mate . heeeee mengadeeeee dy neyh kan ? memang ponnn . meroyan bena nak letak tapak kaki kat mid uh . mcm tak penah pegy . tampar jea . haha . tapi tak tgk wayang pun . sep bawak pegy makan kedai best . and it was really delicious sep ! time kaceh ! nanti sy bawak makcu sy pegy mkn situ tau ! tau ! macha ngamuk pegy mid tak tunggu dieee . heeee . gy test market jerw tuh . next time , kite pegy together-gether okay ? :) bukan pegy mana pun , rayau-rayau window shopping and mkn jea . ohhh ! jumpe syafiqah hasnan ! hahahaha . keciknyee duniaa . tak sangka giler ! then about pukul 1.30 naek ktm balek UM . kul 2.30 kowt sampai UM , rushing2 siap then pegy kuliahhh . heeee . one secret ! saya tewas waktu algebra ! kepenatan maybe . :DD

wahhh dah panjang kan ? lupa diri diee neyh dah ! hehehe . okay2 cket jerw lagi neyh ! summary2 !

first , roommate saya dah kembali . emira ezuna , jangan brany tinggalkan fitrahilyana lagi tahu ! aku tak rela tinggal sorang-sorang dalam blik . haha :D

second , saya nak bagitahu saya balik kampung tadi . mcm biasa lahhh , kait rambutan , makan durian and tambah satu aktiviti baru . woot ! woot ! ilyana mandi sungai tadiiiii ! suke suke ! hahahaha . thnx cik jep , bawak kami mandi sungai . ngeeeee rindu kampung sangat2 !

third , rindu dendam sy dengan baby haikal dah terbalas tadi . adek love you sayang . mmuah mmuah !

fourth , kolej kediaman raja dr. nazrin shah , saya balik khamis nanti tau ! tunggu saya . heeeeeee . mcm bagus jea nak balek ary khamis die neyh . skaly ary ahad baru jenguk muka . kan ilyana kan ? kenal sangat dahh awak tuhhh . :)

fifth , ilyana nak bagitahu dia sayang semua orang yang ada around dia . so , i love you guys ! ♥♥♥

sixth , dia sibuk sayang orang , dia lupa bahawa dia tak start study langsung . omaigod , i guess i got to go by now . soooo , bye peeps ! love ya . mmuah ! mmuah !

Bila  rindu ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

ITS HARD TO SAY GOODBYE

Babe ! omaigod nape malam neyh sayu sgt rasanya . stars seemed to be so shy to show the beauty of themselves . i guess they understand the inner feelings inside myself . aduhhhh . payahnya berdepan dgn perpisahan . memanglahh betul setiap pertemuan pasti berakhir dengan perpisahan . but ntah kenapa aku rasa aku tak bersedia lagi untuk itu . i never expected yang pertemuan kita akan berakhir secepat ini . aku sangat terasa kehilangan kau , sayang . emira ezuna , roommate pertama aku selepas makcu . sungguh aku sedih babe . ko dah janji nak tunggu aku balik dulu . aku tak sempat nak peluk ko , nak ckp take care kat ko , nak mintak maaf kat ko , nak suh ko blaja baek2 , smue aku tak sempat babe . aku terkilan sgt-sgt . tadi masa aku balek pun ko tidow . aku tahu aku tak berhak paksa ko untuk stay . sbb ko pergi to grab your bright future . aku faham tuh . tapi at least bagi aku peluang jupe ko for the last time boleh kan ? i can't imagine bila aku balik ahad nanti , katil ko dah kosong , meja ko dah takde buku bersepah2 , gambar2 ko dah takde . Ya Allah sedeyhnya aku . kite tak sempat pun nak snap pict berdua dalam bilik kan ? tuh request ko ary tuh . aku ingat lagi . babe , lepas neyh sape nak teman aku stay buat tutorial sampai 3,4 pagi ? sape nak buat keje gila skype dgn aku mlm2 ? sape nak ajar aku kalau aku tak faham ? sape nak buat kepoh dgn aku malam2 ? yg penting , sape nak kejutkan aku bgn pagi ? jam loceng pink telinga besar dah takde dahh lepas neyh . sape nak dengar semua masalah hati dan perasaan aku ? sape nak join aku ngutuk and gelakkan org tyme kuliah ? babe , 2 months sharing bilik dgn ko was a great moments . aku takkan penah lupa yg aku ada a wonderful best friend mcm ko . do take care there . jangan lupakan aku , jangan lupakan persahabatan kita . lepas neyh aku kena lahh pergi toilet awal2 sbb takde sape nak teman aku gy toilet kul 3 setengah pagi lagi dahh . ko idup baek2 kat sana okay . seremban jea kan ? nanti ada rezeki aku dtg jupe ko kat sana okie ? i'm gonna miss you so much dear . sesungguhnya kehilangan ini sangat menyakitkan . Ya Allah , salurkan kekuatan-Mu untukku . tears , please be nice . mira , aku dah start rindu ko sayangggg ! :'(

Been so hectic . be strong ilyana . you will survive .

nyte world~

BOYFIE BARU SAYEEE

Babe ! saya saja menggedik tahap giga nak bagitahu yang saya telah menaip post sampah ini untuk merasmikan my new boyfie . so abaikan tindakan tak berapa bijak wanita chumel ini . :DD

P/S : perempuan , tutorial ko dah siap ? report kimia dah sempurna ? physics lab dah tgk ? oh-aim-jeee ! i'm afraid the answer is NOOOO ! so , jangan nak jadi orang lupa diri fitrahilyana . ngeeeee

lupa siape saya ?

Fitrah Ilyana .