DAY 14: A SONG THAT REMIND ME OF MY BOYFRIEND o.O?

Babe ! yeayyy iteww post lagik ! mihmihmih mengada . hmmm dah buka dah . kenyang perut suka hati . hari nehh tak masak . sebab abah kata tak payah masak . ibu bagi lauk . yeayyyy , this potato is so happy sebab tak payah masak ! dasar pemalas . +.+

Tadi tengok My Sassy Girl . homai menambahkan lagik obsesi dekat Cha Tae Hyun . walaupun dia duduk tangga no 2 dalam 2 Days 1 Night . . yee lepas Sung Si Kyung yang charming itu . ^^, Taehyun nehh sebenarnya comel , tambah kalau dia blur . *berangan*

Sebenarnya takde idea nak tulis pasal post kali nehh . so sebab tuhh merepek . hmmm lagu yang mengingatkan aku pasal boyfriend ? boyfriend punn takde , haaa mcm mana ? disebabkan aku masih berstatus SINGLE , aku rasa aku akan tulis post ini dari perspektif yang berbeza . so now , boyfriend aku is my brotha . yeeee , this post is dedicated to you En Mohd Azrul bin Baharin . so , sila bangga siket and rajin-rajin kan diri untuk lanje iteww sebab dah buat anda popular . ;)

Okayyy , first ini bukan abang kandung aku . Second , ini abang sedara aku , anak mak ngah . Third , aku memang akan cakap dia abang aku sebab dari kecik kami membesar bersama and aku tak pernah rasa dia bukan abang kandung aku . Fourth , aku pilih this abang as my boyfriend out of my 6 brothers sebab dia yang paling faham siapa ilyana . Fifth , dia mengaku dia hero Korea , no matter how much i try to deny that fact . Sixth , ini pengakuan paling ekslusif ! if aku boleh pilih siapa life partner aku , aku akan cari orang yang seperti dia . :D

Cukuplahh kott explanation serba ringkas itu . tak boleh puji lelebih lelaki ini , nanti bertambah tambah bongkak perangai dia . ><

Tentang lagu . lagu nehh first time kitorang dengar sama2 masa pergi ambik Helmi dekat Jasin . keluar jea music awal , terus dia menyumpah . "Lagu nehh macam bodoh lirik dia." then aku tanya apsal ? bila dah dengar , memang lawak lahh lirik dia . mcm sengal siket . pas tuhh dia punn gelak . "haa tau pun , jahanam kann lirik dia." tutup cerita masa tuhh . aku punn tak pernah dengar lagi dah lagu nehh lepas tuhh .

Here comes the funny part of the stories ! one day , aku rasa aku keluar pergi bank kott dengan dia . separuh perjalanan , dia bukak radio . masa tuhh , lagu nehh dah separuh dahh , tengah part chorus . belum sempat aku bukak mulut , tetiba dengar dia dok menyanyi lagu nehh . siap goyang kepala , tepuk stereng bagai . ahahaha masa nehhh memang rasa nak terjun dari kete nak gelak punya pasal . punya sampahnya perangai lelaki nehhh . konon lirik jahanam lah hape lahh . sekali bukan main seronok menyanyi . dasar loser . sejak tuhh , bila dengar lagu nehh mesti nak gelak . teringat dekat dia punya perangai sampah tuhh . hikhik .  abang abang . poyo sungguh . okayyy lahh . tuh jea bedtime stories malam ini . sekian . XOXO , love ya !

Jangan Pikirin Abang - Firman & Alice

Takde Boyfriend Nak Dipikirin ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 13: A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF A FORMER FRIEND

Babe ! ye mulai sekarang rasa mcm lagi suka nak tulis post dalam bahasa ibunda terchenta . cukuplah dekat fakulti cakap omputih , dekat hospital cakap omputih . marilah sama-sama mengimarahkan bahasa melayu plak kat sini . ada org tuhh cakap jangan lah selalu cakap omputih . okaylah , kat sini kita cakap bahasa melayu okayy ? tapi if terojak bahasa , mohon ampun ye . memang dah terbiasa . bahasa rojak tuh sebenarnya bahasa sehari-hari fitrah ilyana . nak buat cemana kann ? >.<

Tadi pergi hospital . abah kena pergi regular check-up lagik . ye , lagi dan lagi . alhamdulillah , blood count dia maintain , walaupun takk sampai paras normal lagi . kidney dia pun normal . again , alhamdulillah . tapi ada 3 test yang tak boleh nak detect . doktor cakap maybe sebab abah ada makan supplement ubat so dia ganggu keputusan ujian darah . so , kena pergi lagi check-up lepas nehh . takpe ilyana , kau kuat kannn . :) nasib baik doktor perempuan tuh comel sangat , baik plak tuhh . ilyana , nanti dah jadi doktor , jadi macam dia okayy ? baik . . dan errrrr comel gakk ? mihmihmih ^^,

hmm susah nya post hari nehh . lagu yang mengingatkan aku kepada bekas kawan ? aku ada hilang kawan ke ? aku rasa takde . once org tuh jadi kawan aku , selamanya dia tetap kawan aku . so , aku tak rasa aku ada BEKAS kawan . ehhh ? *garukepala*

Ye , aku tak pernah buang kawan-kawan aku . pasti ! tapi , if kawan tuh yang buang aku , itu mungkin lah ada . tak semua org suka kita kan ? realiti . fakta . hmmm , okay lahh . maybe ada . recently . tapi aku bukan buang dia ! jangan salah faham . aku hanya meletakkan jurang yang aku pasti telah menjadi sangat jauh dari hari ke hari . jarak itu perlu demi keselamatan aku dan dia . kenapa ? biarlah hanya aku yang tahu . tapi , aku rasa lirik lagu nehh dah bagitahu segalanya kenapa aku perlu menjauh dari dia . jujur aku kecewa . dia pernah menjadi yang paling rapat dalam hidup aku . tapi , benda dah lepas , tak perlu dikenang lagi kann ? maaf , segalanya terlalu peribadi . banyak hati yang perlu dijaga . tapi , basically , itulahh dia . :) till then , XOXO . love yaa !

I'm Sorry Goodbye - Kris Dayanti

Last goodbye ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 12: THE LAST SONG I HEARD

Babe ! post kali nehh rasa nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu sepenuhnya . sebab dah rasa macam lupa daratan pulak semua post asal boleh nak tulis bahasa omputih . jadi , post kali ini lebih kepada nak membuktikan aku masih anak melayu yang sedang berusaha untuk mencapai taraf perempuan melayu terakhir . ^^,

Dah lama tak post kan ? mana janji yang konon nak post tiap-tiap hari tuh ? tipu semata-mata . ye sebab aku malas , so takde post . itu standard . nak buat cemana kann . fitrah nya memang pemalas . =="

Aku tekan keyboard sekarang sebab hati aku tergerak nak menaip . aku tulis post nehh dengan background lagu yang sangat comel . so secara rasminya , lagu itu lahh yang menjadi lagu terakhir yang aku dengar buat masa nehh . ironi nya , lagu nehh gak lahh lagu terakhir yang kitorg dengar as AAFFZ semalam . *senyumsorangsorang*

Ye , semalam kitorang berkumpul semula after dekat setahun semua buat hal masing-masing . rasa macam tak percaya tapi , tu lahh . mimpi jadi realiti . semua dendam rindu dahh terlerai . sebuah lagi memori indah telah pun tercipta . hati bersyukur ukhuwah itu tak pernah pudar . jiwa bahagia bila jalinan kemesraan tu tak pernah padam . diri berdoa agar ikatan suci ini takkan terputus dan akan semakin kukuh dibawa arus masa . fatin buat aku rasa diri ini masih berharga . amy buat lara sepi dalam hati ini terisi . zahid buat aku mengukir senyuman ikhlas yang pertama . din . . aku pun tak sangka hati aku cukup kuat dan cekal untuk jumpa din balik selepas apa yang telah terjadi . tapi , mungkin kami harus melupakan segalanya dan bina permulaan baru dalam hubungan persahabatan ini . dan permulaan baru itu adalah semalam .

Terima kasih AAFZ . korang penyeri dan pelengkap hidup aku . uhibbukum fillah . :")

kesayanganku :')

So , lagu last yang kitorang dengar berlima semalam and lagu last yang aku dengar hari nehh adalah lagu yang sama . dengar dulu sebelum judge . :)

Mark Adam - Pencuri

Betul cakap Din . lagu nehh comel sangat . dia suka perempuan tuh dari darjah satu ! comelnya dia . untung nya perempuan tuh . hmmmm :3 and dengar dia sibuk FOKUS . sumpah epik gila . and ye , aku suka lagu comel dan santai mcm neh . okayy itu sahaja . kalau anda , anda dan anda suka lagu nehh , jomm kita sep sikit ! :D XOXO love ya !

Pencuri memori ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 11: A SONG ON THE SOUNDTRACK OF MY FAVORITE MOVIE

Babe ! yeayyyy i posted in 2 days-a-row ! applause applause ! abah is getting slightly better . im feeling at ease a lil bit . so i can post happily . pray for my father's healthiness , guys . so that you can see my post everyday . :)

An OST of my favorite movie . FYI , i have so many favorite movies . in all genres . but then , as soon as i saw the title , the first movie that come up into my mind is The Hunger Games . labelled me a typical girl , but still i love this movie so much that i can even remember all the lines in it . naaa , i saw an O at your face . you know what song that i'll talk about , aite ? yes , it's that Taylor Swift's song originally . Safe and Sound . but , i hate Swift's version . i dont know why . yet , the one that i really love is the version by Tiffany Alvord and Megan Nicole . why ? because it's more to ballad melody , more soothing and more relaxed . it's calmer to be heard . and yes , it's in my lullaby playlist , the one that i listened to sleep every night . that's why i hate the original version because i hate the civil wars rap part . it's messy and cannot blend with the melody . im sure i cant sleep if i listened to the ori version . that's all . yeayyy i managed to post a short post today . congrats to me ! ^^,

Okay , need to sleep early . mama will be off to Lipis back at 3.30am . need to wake up extra early and prepare for sahur . tomorrow is another new full day . pray for my strength . and ilyana , don't forget to be strong ! last but not least , to my kembar nama , AIDA ILYANA , happy 20th birthday ! have a blast life and goodluck in whatever you're doing ! k daaaaaa !~

Safe and Sound - Tiffany Alvord ft Megan Nicole

I'll be alright ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 10: A SONG FROM MY FAVORITE BAND

Babe . sorry for the long absence . abah has been admitted to hospital last wednesday . he had anemia and his diabetes are too high . been on the oxygen tube for one day , IV saline for 4 bottles and 1 pint of blood . luckily his blood count was upraised from 5.8 to 7.9 with the aid of only the 1 pint of blood . alhamdulillah , he's been discharged yesterday . but still he have to go to the hospital to observe his blood count regularly . i'm still wondering where's his blood go ? his urine and stool are clear . haematouria negative . stool color brown . no sign of haemorrhage anywhere . and out of sudden , his blood count dropped significantly . whatever it is , lets pray for the best so that his blood count will continue to increase up to the normal value back . and he will stay healthy as he used to be one time ago . aminnn . :)

Amy , Zahid and Din , thanks for dropping by to visit abah . seriously , im so touched . i realized that im not alone all this while . i still have you guys to support me . Atin , thanks for the text . take care , we'll meet sooner , miss you , love you . Emira , Ayuni , thanks for silently caring about me . i guess im not a good friend to keep everything out of your knowledge . its not that i want to keep it , i just cant think wisely of what im supposed to do .

Abang , thanks for being the greatest company . listening to all my bedtime stories , treating me with all your heart , patiently serving my childishness , hearing my cries , wiping away my tears , helping me out with all kind of problems i faced , sorting everything for me and thanks a lot for being a perfect transporter . bringing me anywhere im going . just as i wish . pick up Helmi from Jasin , sending back Helmi to Jasin , settling my result and college thing at UM , ANYWHERE ! you said , as long as i know you safe , i'll bring you anywhere . thanks abang . i dont think i can find an abang as superb as you . NEVER ! and yes , if i can choose my life partner , i wish that i can find someone like you . :')

And to all my friends who are keep praying for my abah , keep motivating me , staying withe me and supporting me , no words can be present to show how grateful i am . thanks for all your sincere prayers to my father . he's getting better . still , keep praying for him so that he will always healthy . love you guys . :)

Enough , ilyana . back to the track . a song from my favorite band . i've got plenty of them . but , still one of my bias is CN Blue . again , it's korean band . what to do ? it's mine anyway . so , feel free to read the next line or just exit if you think it's not suits you well . it fits me perfectly . ^^,

i've been a fan of CN Blue as soon as i listened to I'm A Loner by Yong Hwa at Running Man . yeahhh , it's a nice song to listen and it has a good wordings . mind to listen to that song if you have some time . but today , i'm not gonna choose that song as my top list . that song is quite popular , so i think most of us are familiar with it . for today , i'm going to pick a rather unfamiliar one because it's good to listen to something new , i guess .

So , why i choose this song ? first , because im a die hard fans of CN Blue . second , this is a ballad-cute-rhythmic song , which is also my main preference type of song . (btw , if u dont know that genre , ballad-cute-rhythmic genre is the genre that specifically created by me , so yeahh there it is) >_< third , i pick this song because it reminds me to YongSeo couple more than Banmal Song did . fourth , the lyric is quite sweet , just nice . and lastly , because the picture in one of the MV attracts my attention so much . so , lets listen to it and feel the melodayyyy . :) what is the song ? It is :

Lovelight - CN Blue

Lead me to the light ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 9: A SONG THAT MAKES ME HOPEFUL

Babe . how i miss writing here every single day . yet , i have no idea , so no post . sorry guys . brain has been running so slow lately . how are you ? im here just fine . taking care of my father every single day makes me stronger and even stronger . fulfill his needs , massage his only 'bone-and-skin-left' body , making him happy , it's enough for me to say that im happy with my life so far . im not a typical teens who will make use of the whole sem breaks by hanging out with friends , going to every mall to shop for raya and so whatever . im a first daughter , who have her mom staying far away in pahang , who have to take care of her dad . im a sister , who have to manage her 2 heroes , who have to send and pick up her heroes of school , who have to take responsibilities in managing everything that im alone never think i'll have to do it at my age right now . yet , with all these responsibilities being placed on my shoulder , i know it's not even a burden for me . in fact , i accept it with all my heart and take it as a bless . maybe Allah give these test to me so that i can appreciate my family more . who knows , aite ? ilyana , after all you've been through and for anything that you'll be facing in future , i begged you to stay strong . you have to be strong no matter what ! why ? because your abah , your mama and your adik-adik are depending on YOU . now and the times ahead .

Still , im a human being . there's a time that i feel happy . there's a time i feel so tired and exhausted . there's a time i feel so sad . there's a time that i feel so down . there's a time that i feel like im losing myself , im losing hope and finally i want to give up . im not as strong as every people think i am . no i am not . im just pretending that i am strong all this while . so there's a song that makes me hopeful , a song that gives me some inspirational . i have nothing to say anymore . it's enuff i think . so just listen to it . and i hope it can give you some hope too , just like what it may gives me . but still , pray and al-Quran is the best cure of all . take care guys . love ya :') .

Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

Holding On ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

ARE WE STILL IN THE SAME SHIP?

Babe . yeah im here . to spill something that cannot be spill to anyone . naaa it can . i choose not to share it maybe . im hurt . and its so painful . i dont know where im standing among us right noww . its not long ago that im smiling happily thinking about us . but tonight im crying badly thinking of how far the distance between me and all of you right now . yes , i admit i RARELY ask about all of you . how you've been doing ? how are you ? are you okay or not ? are you in healthy condition ? when is your exam ? are you doing well ? how your study ? and so many typical questions that should be asked . i SELDOM ask that . but one thing i want you to know that you all are always in my mind , in my pray , and in my heart . yeahhh im an emo bitch right now . but i hope you will understand how i feel if one day if you are the last person who knew everything about your own best friend . and what make it even worse ? you knew it from anybody else , NOT FROM YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND . one thing in my head right now , are you still considered me as your best friend ? or you already thrown me away out of your ship . maybe im the only one who dont realized this fact . im sorry but im very hurt right now . Ya Allah , please lend me your strength .

Abandoned ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 8: A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF MY 'FIRST LOVE'

Babe ! it's 2nd day of Ramadhan . so i think it's not too late for me to wish all my Muslim friends , Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak ! may we get more than just hungry and thirst . not only that . this month is SO special to be wasted . so lets work to gain every single barakah hidden in it. :)

Me having my first day of Ramadhan ? well i can manage , i guess . it's not too hard . having all my daily routine as usual . maybe wake up extra early for sahur . then , perform my Subuh prayer , get Gemok ready for school , send him off to school , reach home manage housechores , take a nap for a while daa daa daa . that's all . time flies so fast so it's really not a big deal , i think . and just keep that positive attitude for the next 29 days ilyana . ^^,

What makes this Ramadhan different ? having to go through it without Mama by our side . sahur without her , cooking for buka puasa without her , going to bazaar without her , buka puasa without her , tarawikh without her , i have to admit , im dying a little bit inside . there's seemed a hole that missing in every single moment without her . but yes , at least we have family here ; abah , adik , makcu and me . but her ? she have to get through it all alone there in Lipis . please imagine how she'd feel . just be strong mama . and we cant wait to have you here in Seremban tomorrow , to do wahat we need to do and what we have missed to do without you . we love you and we all here are really really missing you a lot . just come home safely . thats our only pray for now . :')

Okayyy now stop the emo thingy . chill out ilyana . mama will be back sooner . put back your smile . and lets back to our topic . a song that reminds me of my 'first love' . first thing first , define 'first love' . who is my first love ? what love ? like a purely love cinta sampai mati ? or puppy love ? or maybe my first love that lead to the mushy couple stuff and all that ? hmmmm its hard to define when it comes to this kinda feeling and emotion thing . erghhhh . 

Sokay i'll just make it simple . lets choose one person that comprises all the definition of that first love . the one that i thought will be my cinta sampai mati . my first crushes . my first love obsession . the very first person that caught my attention during my transition from the puppy love phase to a more mature love phase . and yes , it lead to the mushy , little idiot thing that i never did before that . so yeah , i decide to choose this person . let's dig back the old memories . im not here to describe about who's my first love . so no worries . we're here to describe a song that reminds me of him . and yeahh this is it :

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

why this song ? because it has many emotions behind it . hate , sad and love . why hate , why sad and why love ? naaa it's an old story . too long to be told here every single thing . but one thing i can tell here is , i started to love this song when i finally can get over him . or else , i think im gonna hate this song for the rest of my life . ahahaha and yeah if you guys wondering when i experienced my first love ? it's Form 3 . yeahh Form 3 . so young . so immature . but it still makes up who i am right now . FYI , i made this blog on that year and because of him . so ironic that im talking about him again after 5 years . now he's happy with his life . im happy all my way through my life . no hard feelings . im happy as who i am . im praying for the best of him . and yes , i have no other feelings towards him . but yeahh , everytime i listened to this song , i remembered him . the one that used to have a place in my heart . >.<

Take-home-message ? First love is not always gonna work . Last will do , perhaps . ^_^

Fall for me ?

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 7: A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF THE HOLIDAY

Babe . OMG it's been a while . it's hols but still so lazy to blog . why ilyana ? because she is lazy . simple ! >< yeahhh result has been announced . last weds . went to UM with abang . and finally i PASS my first year . and whatever grade i got , i dont even care as long as i passed . nowww im officially 2nd year medical student . applause to myself . mihmihmih . may next year gives me extra effort , extra hardworking , extra courage , extra spirit and extra everything together with less laziness and less procrastination . aminnnn . ^^,

To Dina and Wan Amir , congrats for the 'LULUS DENGAN KEPUJIAN' :) Dina , u are rock girl . unexpectable okayyy . so the very underdog . im proud of you babygirl . and to those 20 batchmates who have to undergo supplementary exam , be strong . you are the chosen one . you are lucky if we think in a positive wayy . you gain more knowledge . your time are filled wisely . you have the chances to strengthen the bond among yourselves if compare to us . just be strong . i know you all can do it . lets meet up again in 2nd year . lets sit in the lecture together again in Dewan Jemerlang . and let us strive together to nail our 2nd year successfully . promise okay ? yeahh promise !

okayyy back to the main topic above . a song that reminds me of the holiday . hmmmm personally i have nothing in my mind right nowww . holiday means time to listen to what has been left . so that means no specific song . HOWEVER ! last holiday , we went to Cameron Highlands remember ? ohh maybe it's not stated here i think . so yeahh , my last holiday was at the Cameron Highlands . and at that moment , i told Helmi that i love this one song from Ailee . and he love that song too ! whoahhhhh it was so exciting that we'd sang that song over and over again from the moment we reached there until we reached seremban back . that's how we bonded . through Ailee's song . ;) What song is it ? it's Korean song actually . but since it have English version , i put the English one here so that everyone can listen to it . still , to those who are anti-Kpop songs , dont listen . that's my take home message for todayyy . till then , love yaaa ! and dont forget to listen to this song first , it means a lot to me . :)

Ailee - I Will Show You

P/S : do well in your supple , Mr-Nice-To-Know :)

Playful ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 6: A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF MY BEST FRIENDs

Babe . im here. counting hours for Wednesday . less than 24 hours , the full results will be announced . this time its eitheri PASS or FAIL . yet , please pray the PASS for me as i need it like so deadly . thankyou . viva list has been announced yesterday . Alhamdulillah im not in the list of viva borderline . or else , im sure i have to start thinking of going to supplementary exam . i studied nothing in this few days holidays . i cant imagine myself sitting in front of the lecturers answering their questions in person . :O mentally traumatized ! but then , to those who are sitting for viva borderline today , all the best , do the best and be the best . you guys are very lucky to have the chances to collect even more marks and experiences compared to us . and to those who are sitting for viva voce distinction ; dina , nasha , botet , wan amir , david , jin yi and tay tun khong , thousands congrats to 7 of you . you guys are superb and brilliant student . and again , all the best . i know you guys can do it . :)

Back to the main topic . a song that reminds me of a best friend . hmmm too many best friends indicates too many songs . to choose only one ? looks like i have to choose it wisely . since i never met AAFZ like ages , i think i have to dedicate this post to them . a song that remind me of them . 

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

OMG why this song out of sudden ? because it has something that relates to all 5 of us . i don't know whether they realized it or not . i hope they know it after this . ;)

First , Amy and Fatin motivates me through this song . One dayy , im being so sleepy in Maths class that i heard nothing of what Cikgu Asmah being said . i started to doze off . that's when Amy pass a small note in front of my nose together with soft massage behind my neck . it's written there : "Don't sleep sayang . We love you because you're beautiful just the way you are" it brought smile on my face and throw away all the sleepiness . and i still keep that small note till now . thankyou sayangs . i love both of you too . :)

Second , this is the song that zahid always hummed in front of me . always like ALL THE TIME . yeahh , the whole world knows zahid is a loyal singer . he loves to sing no matter where he stands . so yeahh , this is the lullaby song from zahid to us in the class . ^^,

Third , everytime im feeling down , everytime im in a state of losing confident and hope , you're always the one who realizes it first . and you used to say this to me ; "keep your chin up , ilyana . you're awesome just the way you are" Thanks Aizuddin . and yeah , i gather all my guts to say your name after a while . finally . thanks for helping me going through my high school life . without you , im not sure i can survive . thanks for used to come into my life once . :')

Lastly , this song gives me a new mindset that i should accept people just the way they are . nobody's perfect . in fact , who does except our Prophet ? so , if people can accept us as who we are , why don't us ? take-home-message for today ; stop judging people and that's the moment where we can live happily as person . gentle reminder from me to myself and fellow favorite people of mine . have a good dayy . till then , love yaa ! XOXO :D

Just the way I am ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

DAY 5: A SONG THAT OFTEN STUCK IN MY HEAD

Babe ! hoyeah im back here . after quite some time . yeahh final exam has passed a week ago . feeling relieved yet ? ohh never till the result comes out this upcoming week . monday result viva . tuesday viva day . which i pray hardly that my name will never appear in these 2 days . im screwed if it turned out to be yes because i studied nothing in this a week period . pray for no VIVA for me pretty please ? AMINNNN ! and lastly , wednesday . the day between life and death . if pass then i may live happily ever after till sept . if it turned otherwise , ohh i cannot imagine any further . it gonna be as bad as hell i know . and again pray for NO fail .only PASS will do . and again AMINNNNNN !

yeah after a long time , im back with my long mission that are still stucked here without any progress being made . le sigh .  -.-" look how lazy and how low the determination i owned . whatever it is , im trying hard to finish it no matter how long time it takes . at least , it's something from me that's worth to be proud of . what to do . this is how ilyana always be . just bear with her . even though it takes you forever . because i know she will never change . mihmihmih :D

A song that often stuck in my head . a song i hummed almost everywhere . inside the shower , while driving , during shopping and even in the exam hall last week . what's song ? it's Mirror from JT . ohhh it's Justin Timberlake . frankly speaking , im not a hardcore fans of JT . i only realized he's the one who starred in Friends With Benefit together with the sexy bitch Mila Kunis after i watched Mirror MV . that showed how noob i am . and again , frankly speaking , he's not my type . ohh yeah he's not as hot as Chace Crawford or even cannot beat Jacob Black Taylor Lautner . in fact , izzue islam is much more better i think ? ilyana please behave , you're mentioning somebody's else hubby right now . :0 okay , close topic ! but yeahh , to summarize everything , nothing's special of JT despite his voice and his songs . that's fact . no offence . this is my opinion okie . :)

In spite of all my sarcasm towards the innocence him , why Mirror is always glued in my head ? first , as stated above , his voice is no joke . it's nice to be hear . second , i love the rhythm . it's soothing yet fun and exciting . and yes , it's in my lullaby playlist . third , there's one line that i remember the most . why ? because my dear rumies Hanis Amirah who keep repeating that lucky line over and over again , 100 times a day for about 2 months . can u count how many times i listen to that part ? naaa dont count . even the figures stated by me up there is not even true . hewhew . but yes , she loves that line very much . and i think that's the MAJOR reason why i keep humming that song or that line to be precise over and over again no matter what time and where i am . thankyou Hanis . i love you . okayyy , that's all from me fer tunight . before the button X up there is being pressed , mind to listen to Mirror just once . and if you guys wondering , which line that i meant ? it's :

"Cause I don't wanna lose you now"

And yes . i don't wanna lose anyone of you , my precious and my favorite peoples . that's my take-home-message fer tuday . and yes , enjoy the Mirror and nicely leave my page with something inside . night peeps . love ya . :)

A mirror to myself ,

Fitrah Ilyana .

A REQUEST :)

Babe ! homai lamanya dahh tak hapdate my sayangs ini . 15hb nehh cukuplahh 3 bulan . ada gakk org tanya kenapa lama sangat takk hapdate ? nak kata sibuk sangat , taklahh punn . asek dokk mengular ja dlm bilik . i think sebab wifi kolej yang semakin hari semakin terserlah kesiputannya itu yang menyebabkan aku semakin malas dan semakin jarang menjenguk my sayangs ini . sorry yee baby . :3

Currently agak busy . not agak . butreally busy . it's study week now . conass 3 last week . and i passed my biochem . conass 2 punn pass biochem jea . what a performance ilyana . tahniah . :) hmm now tgh dok perah otak ke tahap yg paling maksimum , study for final . bnyak lagik tak cover . bnyak lagi tak faham . banyak lagi tak hafal . bnyak lagik tak sentuh langsung . gahhhh . 12 foramen dekat skulls punn tak khatam lagik . gahhh im a dead meat this upcoming exam week surely . just bear with it ilyana . keep going on . :/

Tapi bukan nak ckp pasal nehh sebenarnya . and bukan gakk nak merungut . the tense will always be there no matter what . but tudayy , nak rehat sekejap . nak jawab question plakk . setelah sekian lama menyepi , jawab questions jea aku mampu . keji btol perangai kann . haha just bear with this orang gila . hmm i think dahh lama org takk tagged question for me untuk dijawab . but then , tudayy , my long lost friend yang aku jumpa zaman aku obses dengan Nubhan satu masa dahulu tetiba e-mail and said : "ilyana , u know i heart ya blog . but nowww , why hilang lama2 ? i mish u . please kalau nak blogging , answer these questions in your blog , can aaaa ? *cutieeyeskelipkelip*" haihhh Eisha . perlu ke nak jawab dekat blog segala ? nasib anda jauh dekat UK sana . haha okayyy sebab tuhh aku take my time and blogging fer tunite . now i answer all your konon-konon soalan comot jaaa . dekat nak exam dahh now dekat Malaysia sini . so , you better bring sumthing extra special for me as a replacement to this study-time-sacrifaction (sampahnya english aku? EH?) . okay Barbie Girl ? take care okay . and love ya ! :D (read this carefully and sebarang notis tidak akan dilayan. harap maklum!)

P/S: Jawapan se-simple dan se-jujur yang boleh. :)

#1 Let's start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
- Nak study abdomen ke nak telaah GIT system ?

#2 Do you ever get "good morning" texts from anyone?
- recently YES ! ooops !

#3 If your significant one is a smoker, would you care?
- Yes , i do care ! no smoking please !

#4 Do you find it easy to trust others?
- hell no ! errrr , it improves with time actually .

#5 What were you doing at 11PM last night?
- watching The Cube tapi tertidur lantaran terlalu penat seharian mengadap cadaver di faculty . :/

#6 You're lost walking down the road; who's with you?
- my crime partner, si macha makcu terchenta . cuba sopan sikit ilyana !

#7 What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
- berani nk menipu ? im green belt holder in Taekwando okayyy . elle mcm tinggi sgt ! haha

#8 Are you close with your dad?
- super close ! he's my boyfriend all the time !

#9 I bet you kissed someone last night, right? kekekeke
- absolutely ! my mommmy ! eyyyy ape gatal sangat nehhh eisya ! haippp .

#10 What are you listening to?
- Davichi - don't you know :) eisya , now this is my fav song ! please listen and comment back to me via wechat okayyy !

#11 You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life; what is it?
- ikut nafsu , Vanilla Milkshake . ikut naluri doktor dalam badan , mineral water jea lahh . kata nak sihat kann . ahahaha

#12 What time do you go to bed?
- paling awal 2am . paling lambat 4am . kalau penat , maybe 11pm . hikhik

#13 Is there someone who continuously lets you down? Whose ass need some kick, ha? ;D
- Yeah , surely have . but so kayyy , their ass tak layak terima ur beautiful leg baby . they made me stronger after all . good ape . :)

#14 Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
- depends . but normally slightly slower . tapak tangan gemokk sgt . apakan daya .

#15 Do you always answer ur texts?
- all the time jika kredit available .

#16 Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
- tak ada lagikk yang i fell the hardest . haaa cemane nak jawab nehh ? haha

#17 When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
- msg selalu , tweet slalu , whatsapp slalu , wechat slalu , viber slalu , tapi talked ? berzaman dahh takk . OMG rindunyaaaa ! :(

#18 Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
- yes ! my family ! never disappoint me . :)

#19 What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
- i tertidur masa tgk muvie . so rasanya masa tuhh tengah pkir rasa bersalah sebab i should be studying not tdow tak hengat dunia . T.T

#20 Is anyone else in the room with you?
- room ? mana ada dekat bilik nehhh . dekat kafe withh all these beruks heroes around me . haha

#21 Do you believe what goes around comes around?
- karma babe karma . it happened every second . :)

#22 Were you happier 4 months ago than you are now?
4 months ago is exactly 12 february 2012 . of course . i was enjoying my every second of sem break during that time .

#23 Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
- myself . you should deal with your own self first before anything .

#24 In the past week, have you cried?
- malu nak mengaku nehhhhhh eisya ! but YES , i did . *blushing* dah besar panjang menangis lagikk . ahaha

#25 What color is the shirt you are wearing?
- grey with yellow jumper outside .

#26 Do people ever call you by your last name?
- ilyana ? some might do . nak org credit nama dia lahhh tuhhh , kan Nur Eishal ! ahaha .

#27 Is anyone ignoring you right now?
- i dont think so . pepel love me btw . ahahaha sakit hati takkk jawapan mcm nehh ?

#28 Do you have a best friend? Me, perhaps? :)
- Yes lalink yes ! its you ! so jangan nak bersikap lupa diri and sila on skype bila free ! i dah nak start cuti dahh ini . hahaha and yes , you , you and you . anybody yang read this , yg rasa dia bestfriend kita , yes , YOU ARE ! ramai sangat . :) esp you Naeimah , AAFZ , emira , diyana , hanis , hanna , tirah  and so many more ! :D excited nyaaa sebut pasal best friend ini . haha

#29 Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
- no lahhh . semua punn family kitaaa . no biggies at all .

#30 Who was your last call from?
- ahahaha . controversial nyaaaa soalan nehhh . last call is from my macha makcu . mengamuk balik rumah takde orang . ahahaha padan muka .

#31 Are you mad at anyone?
- nope .

#32 Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
- of course ! eisha , mengade ehhh !

#33 How old is the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
- 47 :)

#34 How many more days until your birthday?
- almost like a year :) 23rd march aite ? lupa ke Eisha ! nak merajuk !

#35 Do you have any summer plans yet?
- we here dont have summer Eisha . lupa diri dahh ke ? or you mean our sem break ? berjimba selagi mampu . with all my korean thingy . :)

#36 Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
- yes i do . dont force me to mention it anywhere ! stop gelak jahat noww Eisha !

#37 Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
- unfortunately YES . :O

#38 Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?
- everybody have it . we all know that .

#39 Do you think age matters in relationships?
- i dont think so . as for me lahh . as long as you love him , he loves you . age is not a big thing after all .

#40 How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
- errrr one so far ? hahahaha excluding all the korean crushes . teeeheee

#41 Do you believe exes can be friends?
- yeah . maybe . if we know the limit .

#42 Do you regret anything?
- no . i never regret of anything happened to myself . it comes with reasons im sure .

#43 Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?
- boleh ke tak lahh aku habes cover everything by the time exam nanti nehhh .

#44 Did you ever lose a best friend?
- yes . and it sucks . luckily i have her back . and i cant afford to lose one after this anymore .

#45 Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?
- is there a person that i like? hmm not sure if i have one .

#46 Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
- most of the time kotttt ! saya kan anak dia yg paling cengeng . hihihi

#47 What was the last thing you ate?
- nasi ?

#48 Did you get any compliments today?
- i dont think so . study week ini menjadikan saya manusia zaman batu yg duduk dlm gua tak cmpur orang .

#49 Where are you going on your next vacation?
- Genting jommm mama abah !

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#50 Do you own anything from other countries?
- Yes . lagikk sekali nak credit ehhh Eisha ? ahahaha

#51 Are most of your friend guys or girls?
- mostly girls . :)

#52 Where have you lived most of your life?
- around my family . 20 years and still counting .

#53 When was the last time you took a long drive?
- errrrr 4days ago ? pergi lipis visiting mama terchenta .

#54 Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
- haha YES . tapi suka-suka jea lahh .

#55 Who do you text the most?
- my besties !

#56 What was the last movie you saw?
- The Cube . tak sempat habes punnn semalam . major spoiler mata nehhh !

#57 What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
- no current boyfie eisha ! hahaha im single okayyy .

#58 How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010?
- OMG eisha thiss is tooo much . haha . throwback times , i think i have 2 crushes . ONLY ! haha

#59 Do you curse around your parents?
- NO ! they never taught me one .

#60 Are you happy with where you live?
- YES ! :D home is where my heart belongs .

#61 Picture of yourself?
- mengade !

#62 Have you ever been dumped?

- gila tak pernah ? who doesn't ?

#63 What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?

- fingers . yes , that's the first thing that i'll look if i meet anyone . :)

#64 Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?

- macha makcu lahhh . tak habes2 berebut .

#65 What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?

- every little things from the one i heart the most . hehehe . no further questions eisha ! its nobody !

#66 Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?

- i don't think so . at least for now . :)

#67 Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?

- i don't think i have one . :)

#68 Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?

- only my BFF . hehe

#69 Do you miss your last sweetie?

- haiyooo makcik ! not miss . maybe teringat . :)

#70 Last time you slow danced with someone?
- bila nyaaa ? i only know how to dance to kpop songs okayy . and its not considered as slow dance kannn ? hahaha . soalan tak boleh nak controversial lagik ke mek !

#71 Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?
- yes i have one . errr maybe 2 ? haha yeah i think it's 2 .

#72 How can I win your heart?
- beli kann itewww hadiah banyak2 ! or if tak boleh bawakan kita boyfie korean sorg tau tau ! hikhik .

#73 What is your astrological sign?
Im an Aries Eisha .

#74 What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
- tdoq lahh eisha sayang . selamat dahhh . ahaha .

#75 Do you cook?
- in desperate condition . ahahaha mana reti masak sangat !

#76 Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?
- yes i have . hihihi gatal !

#77 If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?
- maybe ? awwwwwww :*)

#78 Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?
- mama said now kawan jea lahh dengan semua orang . :)

#79 What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?
- emmmm physical ? korean look ? ahahahaha ! look Mr N ! mcm korea kann dia ? ahahaha dats why he's one of my crush . weeeeee

#80 Name four things that you wish you had
- ipad , heels , kpop concert ticket and new casing :)

#81 Are you a player?
- i dont think so .

#82 Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?
- my friends jea lahh . haha

#83 Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?
- hahaha maybe . im not sure either if im in deeply in with someone . maybe it's just love . :)

#84 Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?
- haha no !

#85 Hugs or Kisses?
- hugs when sad . kisses when happy . simple !

#86 Are you too shy to ask someone out?
- ajak jea lahhh . haha

#87 The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
- fingers ! yessss , that's the first thing !

#88 Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
- AWWWW comel sangat !

#89 If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?
- kawan ape salahnya . but of course , put up the barrier first .

#90 Do you flirt a lot?
- im single . so kawan jea dengan semua org . but not sampai jadi player !

#91 Does someone like you currently?
- mana lahh nak tahu . takde lahh . merepek !

#92 Do you currently have feelings for anyone?
- haha im not sure . maybe a normal crush will do . :) kekekeke .

#93 Are you happier single or in a relationship?
- both have pro and cons . but now , maybe its better if i stay single . maybe im not ready to commit in a relationship . it takes two to tango Eisha . remember ?

okayyy habes dah jawab soalan-soalan Nur Eishal ini . dah boleh sleep lena dah malam ini makcik itu . thankyou for caring , thankyou for made me buat comeback in my own blog setelah lama menyepi . hehe love you Eisha . and love you guys also readers . pray for my upcoming final exam . doa kan saya lulus Part B tanpa perlu menempuh supplementary exam . aminnnn !

Eishal's BFF ,

Fitrah Ilyana .