Babe ! kaki cedera ! i sprained my second last and my little fingers of my right leg . tadi langgar rak kasut masa nak pergi ambik adik balik sekolah . now dahh lebam and dah bengkak . and i cant even move both of them till noww . i knoww if dah lebam maybe terseliuh or mungkin patah . tapi takott nak pergi klinik ! takpe lahh tunggu sampai esok tgk surut takk bengkak tuhh . padan muka . lain kali jalan tgk bawah . jgn maen langgar jea semua benda . clumsy ilyana ! waaaaaaa sakit ! T.T
Hari ahad lepas kannn keluar dengan AAFZ . after all , as usual , we treasured the time being spent together the most . walaupun pergi beraya rumah masing-masing jea , tapi tak kesahlah . janji dapat spent time sama-sama . and we know we are true BFF as we came across to wear red pink together . yeahhh all five of us . without even planned to . thats the beauty of our friendship . these are some of the pix of US together . credit to ayuni and blog fatin . :)
Rumah Fatin , semua sopan lagik .
My house , tgk muka kenyang Zahid ;)
Rumah Amy , muka puas hati ^^,
Rumah Ayu , muka taiko memasing . :D
Fav pict ! muka epik Zahid tak boleh blah .
Bajet baik konon . tgk gambar bawah !
Haaaa amekawww . perangai masing2 .
Amy and Zahid
Fatin and Zahid
Yeee pergi rumah ayuni gakk . OMG rindu gilaaa nak mati dekat minah comel tuhh . thanks ayu sebab sudi terima kedatangan mengejut kitorg . and thanks gakk sebab jadi tempat pelepas rindu itewwww ! mihmihmih . seronok sangat jumpa ayu . seronok sangat lepak rumah ayu , sepahkan bilik ayu . ohhh how sweet our time together ! rindu already . ^^,
Okayy lahh . post hari nehh takde sebab ape2 kann melainkann sebab yg itu , so just be straight and make it short . ironi nyaaaa , lagu pertama sekali dalam iPod kita adalahhh lagu yang sama Fatin pernah bagi kat aku dan Amy masa dia kat Morocco dulu . masa tengah rindu kitorg lettew . hewhew . yesss , we'll be loving each other for a thousand years , AAFZ . layan dulu MV muka christina perri yang comel nehhh dengan muka edward cullen yg 'handsome' nehhh tau . sukaaa lilin banyak2 dalam MV nehh . saya nak pergi belek kaki dulu . till then , XOXO love yaaa ! :')
Babe ! here i am again . si gemok datang menyibuk lagik memenuhkan ruang sendiri , dengan belum mandinya . ^^,
Nothing special happened since the last post . tapi esok nak jumpa AAFZ . hmmm sumpah seronok . tak sabar ! tak sabar ! weeeee
Isnin nehhh batchmates yang kena supple tuhh akan menghadapi supplementary exam . to all readers , jomm kita sesama tolong doakan mereka lulus boleh ? kita seronok spent time dengan family sambut ramadhan , sambut shawal dekat rumah . tapi mereka terpaksa berjuang study habes-habesan for this supplementary exam dekat kampus . perjuangan mereka dah hampir ke penghujung . ini jea yang kita boleh mampu untuk ringankan beban mereka walaupun sikit . support mereka dan doakan mereka . mereka cukup kuat , and maybe kita tak sekuat mereka . so doakan mereka semua lulus dan dapat terus bersama-sama dengan kitorang mengharungi perjalanan sebagai pelajar-pelajar perubatan tahun 2 . insya-Allah Aminnn . btw , thanks for your little prayers , diamonds ! we really appreciate it . :)
Okayyy taknak panjang-panjang dahh post nehh . nak mandi nehh , nak solat . so make it short and simple , ilyana ! lagu yang itewww suka tapi jarang dengar . hmmmm , there's this one . dulu macam nak mati asek dengar lagu nehhh sepanjang masa . tapi , dengan lambakan lagu-lagu baru yang bersilih ganti , kesian lagu nehh mula dahh dianak-tirikan . terabai terus . so , baru-baru nehhh tiba-tiba teringat kat lagu nehhh , download balik . but STILLLLL ! jarang gakk dengar . sebab playlist tuhh ada beratus lagu , and malangnya lagu nehhh jarang appeared . DAMN shuffled button . hahaha okayy takbaik takbaik . nanti kita dengar lagu nehh selalu selalu yeee . tapi boyfriend takde , so dengar lagu nehh selalu nanti tetiba feeeling tak memasal nak ada boyfriend plakk . haaa cemana ? mihihihi . kayyy lahh , listen to this . serious best lagu nehhhh ! mello ! XOXO , love ya !
Babe ! lamanya ghaib ? enjoy raya mungkin . takde hati nak blogging . berapa kali dahh dok termenung depan page nehh , last-last terus close sebab taktahu nak tulis ape . banyak sgt nak cerita agaknya sampai otak dah jammed terus . apakan daya . haish payahnya nak tekan keypad lappy nehh sambil terbaring terlentang .dasar pemalas .__."
Rasanya tak terlambat lagi kann nak wish Selamat Hari Raya to all the readers ! yeayyyyy raya ! mohon ampun mohon maaf zahir dan batin kalau ada salah dan silap . terkasar bahasa , terlanjur bicara , terbongkar rahsia dan segala ter yang telah dilakukan . and yeahhh , saya dah ampunkan segalanya jugaaaa . :)
Semua msg raya dah dibalas . and to anyone yang rasa wish dia tak berbalas , maybe wish anda tak delivered to me . kadang2 wechat , whatsapp and even sms punnn teringin nak mogok dengan kita . haipp biase nehh . so again , sorry !
Tahun nehh raya semua nyaa sederhana . tapi Alhamdulillah kemeriahan nya tetap dirasa . gambar raya banyak tapi pemalas nak upload . takpe one day will do okayyy . keep waiting . stay tuned ! ;)
First raya , spent time dekat kmpung mama abah . melantak ape yang boleh dilantak . lepas tuhh membuta kekenyangan , bergelimpangan sesemua depan tv . org datang raya umah , menggelupur masing2 bangun . pmpuan cari tudung , laki cari baju . dah campak kat mana taktahu . 2nd raya , pergi melaka . ziarah relatives sebelah mama . masa nehh jadi budak paling baik di alam semesta sebab terasa diri dahh tua . al maklum lahh cucu sulung belah mama mihihi ^^, . 3rd raya pergi berjimba kat kuala sungai baru , relatives belah abah plak . masa nehhh dahh jadi junior balik . ramai abang2 yang layak ditarafkan ungka , so adik2 nya punn ditauliahkan menjadi beruk . apa nak buat . org pergi jalan ghaya dibawak ehh adik2 poei mandi laut . mandi laut punn ghoman mcm tak pernah jumpa laut sepanjang hidup . itu seronok ! okayy ini lahh rutin wajib every year kami dri 1st day smpai 3rd day raya . then lepas tuhhh semua buat hal masing2 balik . start lahh rindu-mindu balik . last monday again balik kampung , mak long buat open house . yesss melantak lagik . last tuesday , balik ipoh ! jumpa pahcu , tokcu , makcu and paling penting , jumpa feeyash ! OMG sumpah lama nak mati tak jumpa dorang . and yesss rindu dendam dahh terlerai walaupun sekejap jea dapat jumpa . takpe, ada rezeki kita jumpa lagikkk . :")
Okayyy cukup dahhh cerita pasal raya . nanti kita cerita lagikk okayy ? ape dia ? duit raya ? ahaha dahh tua . nak terima duet raya punn malu . dah besor gajah . so , kesimpulannya , income tak berapa nak banyak . sebab segan nak ambik duet raya dekat jiran-jiran sebelah rumah . T.T
Okayyy dahhh ! balik pada cerita asal . lagu yang buat aku rasa nak menari ? mihihi . lagu nehhhh !
2NE1 - I'm The Best
lagu nehhh rancak sangat . excited dengar , excited nak menggerakkan anggota badan . neuron-neuron semua excited bila dengar lagu nehhh . so , action potential maintained jea spanjang lagu nehh . okayyy sorry sebab tak faham . yang faham tuhh mesti gelakkann . hahaha . yg penting lagu nehh cool gila . muzik dia lain dari yang lain . arrangement dia punnn tahap weirdo gila skala 9 dari 10 . seronok didengar , MV punn best gilaaa , so tuntasnya , it's perfect . dengarlahh kalau tak percaya . komfem kaki tangan menggedik japg . hekhek gurau gurau ! okayyy sekian bedtime stories malam ini . XOXO love ya !
Babe ! now dah pukul 12.52 tengah hari . me tengah terbaring atas katil , sambil peluk caterpillar , masih berbaju tidur teddy bear dan YE ! saya masih sememeh busuk masam tak mandi lagik . sila bangga sekejap . mihihi . tengah demam nie . 3 hari kemas rumah punya pasal . angkara habuk rumah yang tak menahan banyaknya , hidung dilanda selsema puting beliung yang amat dahsyat sampai sekarang . haa tengok . sampai demam2 dah nehh . alhamdulillah , Allah masih kurniakan sedikit kekuatan untuk terus berpuasa . terima kasih Allah . :)
Ohh phone kredit dah expired . so sesiapa yang text tak di-reply tuhh mintak maaf . bukan taknak reply , tapi kredit dah kiok . elok gakk tuh . lepas neh kalau orang tuh msg , taknak reply . padan muka . kejap ada kejap takde , macam biskut . ingat hati org nehh buat dari besi ke ape ? suka hati jea buat org mcm tuh . huh
Dah , tak baik emo pagi-pagi nehh . ehh ? tengahari dahhh . -____-" post hari nehhh tak best lahh . lagu yang buat aku nanges ? adoyyyy . okayyy ceni . sebenarnya bukan lagu tuhh yang buat kita nanges . tapi keadaan semasa yang buat kita menanges . lagu tuhh hanya tiba pada waktu yang betul-betul tepat masa kita tengah sedih , and akhirnya sebab menghayati lirik lagu tuhh , terus menanges . kira lagu tuh pelengkap suasana , penambah perisa untuk kita menanges . sebab kalau kita dgr lagu yang sama waktu kita tengah happy , takkan nya kita tiba-tiba nak menanges kann ? ^^,
So , lagu ape yang konon-konon nyaa handal sgt sampai buat perempuan nehh menanges ? ek eleh ayat mcm poyo jea kann ? padahal memang jenis cengeng kuat menanges . >.<
How Do I Live Without You - LeAnn Rimes
Tak main lahh Adele punya Someone Like You . tuhh lagu putus cinta .org sedih bukan sebab putus cinta jea kan . ;)
Actually , bila mood aku tak menentu , aku akan dengar Sad Playlist dalam mp3 . tapi , bila aku rasa sunyi , bila aku rasa diabaikan , bila aku rasa semua org yang aku sayang mcm takde dekat dengan aku , bila aku rasa sedih , bila aku lemah , bila aku mcm tiba-tiba jea rasa aku sorang-sorang dalam dunia nehh , lagu LeAnn Rimes nehh tak pernah gagal buat aku menangis . hmmm tahniah LeAnn Rimes , pandai nyanyi . hikhik . XOXO , love ya !
Babe ! hari nehh sangat penat . yeee saya kann suri rumah sepenuh masa sekarang . so haruslah sentiasa sibuk dengan kerja-kerja rumah . bagus ilyana . dahh boleh jadi isteri orang dahh sekarang . semua benda dah pandai buat . rumah dah boleh urus . masak punn dah up 1 level ke amatur . ^^ haaa jangan salah faham . itu bukan perasan sorang2 yee . itu mama yang cakap masa call mama semalam . haiyo mama , ini puji betul-betul ke atau nak bodek nehh ? mihmih . takpe , yg penting dahh layak jadi isteri orang . itu penting ! eyyyy gatal ! >.<"
Tadi bawak abah pergi hospital . again . check-up untuk SOPD . Alhamdulillah , SOPD dah clear . infection dahh makin kurang . so , tak payah datang appointment SOPD lagikk . tinggal MOPD jea lagik yang still kena pegy buat follow-up regularly . dalam hati mampu tersenyum senang sikit . berkat Ramadan dan sinar Shawal mungkin . terima kasih Ya Allah . :')
Okayyyyy ! lagu yang itewww suka nyanyi ? the answer is : SEMUA LAGU . melampau ! pilih satu jea . jangan tamak . kay lahh kay lahh . satu jea . ;)
Girl On Fire - Alicia Keys
Haaa berani nak panggil aku lame ? haaa panggillah . tak pedulik . lagu nehh ringtone phone makcu . so , everytime phone dia memekak sebelah telinga , mesti aku akan melalak juga dengan nada dan irama buatan sendiri yang begitu irritating sekali . tujuan dia satu je . untuk menyakitkan hati , minda , akal , jiwa dan gegendang telinga makcu . bagus . anak buah paling berbudi bahasa alam maya ! and dia pulak akan buat muka sememeh tanda terlalu annoyed . tapi kesah plak aku kan . lagi aku tambah perisa secukup rasa dalam nyanyian aku yang akhirnya menyebabkan aku disepak terjun katil oleh makcu yang berperangai singa . sekian , bedtime stories hari ini . XOXO love ya !
Babe ! yeayyy iteww post lagik ! mihmihmih mengada . hmmm dah buka dah . kenyang perut suka hati . hari nehh tak masak . sebab abah kata tak payah masak . ibu bagi lauk . yeayyyy , this potato is so happy sebab tak payah masak ! dasar pemalas . +.+
Tadi tengok My Sassy Girl . homai menambahkan lagik obsesi dekat Cha Tae Hyun . walaupun dia duduk tangga no 2 dalam 2 Days 1 Night . . yee lepas Sung Si Kyung yang charming itu . ^^, Taehyun nehh sebenarnya comel , tambah kalau dia blur . *berangan*
Sebenarnya takde idea nak tulis pasal post kali nehh . so sebab tuhh merepek . hmmm lagu yang mengingatkan aku pasal boyfriend ? boyfriend punn takde , haaa mcm mana ? disebabkan aku masih berstatus SINGLE , aku rasa aku akan tulis post ini dari perspektif yang berbeza . so now , boyfriend aku is my brotha . yeeee , this post is dedicated to you En Mohd Azrul bin Baharin . so , sila bangga siket and rajin-rajin kan diri untuk lanje iteww sebab dah buat anda popular . ;)
Okayyy , first ini bukan abang kandung aku . Second , ini abang sedara aku , anak mak ngah . Third , aku memang akan cakap dia abang aku sebab dari kecik kami membesar bersama and aku tak pernah rasa dia bukan abang kandung aku . Fourth , aku pilih this abang as my boyfriend out of my 6 brothers sebab dia yang paling faham siapa ilyana . Fifth , dia mengaku dia hero Korea , no matter how much i try to deny that fact . Sixth , ini pengakuan paling ekslusif ! if aku boleh pilih siapa life partner aku , aku akan cari orang yang seperti dia . :D
Cukuplahh kott explanation serba ringkas itu . tak boleh puji lelebih lelaki ini , nanti bertambah tambah bongkak perangai dia . ><
Tentang lagu . lagu nehh first time kitorang dengar sama2 masa pergi ambik Helmi dekat Jasin . keluar jea music awal , terus dia menyumpah . "Lagu nehh macam bodoh lirik dia." then aku tanya apsal ? bila dah dengar , memang lawak lahh lirik dia . mcm sengal siket . pas tuhh dia punn gelak . "haa tau pun , jahanam kann lirik dia." tutup cerita masa tuhh . aku punn tak pernah dengar lagi dah lagu nehh lepas tuhh .
Here comes the funny part of the stories ! one day , aku rasa aku keluar pergi bank kott dengan dia . separuh perjalanan , dia bukak radio . masa tuhh , lagu nehh dah separuh dahh , tengah part chorus . belum sempat aku bukak mulut , tetiba dengar dia dok menyanyi lagu nehh . siap goyang kepala , tepuk stereng bagai . ahahaha masa nehhh memang rasa nak terjun dari kete nak gelak punya pasal . punya sampahnya perangai lelaki nehhh . konon lirik jahanam lah hape lahh . sekali bukan main seronok menyanyi . dasar loser . sejak tuhh , bila dengar lagu nehh mesti nak gelak . teringat dekat dia punya perangai sampah tuhh . hikhik . abang abang . poyo sungguh . okayyy lahh . tuh jea bedtime stories malam ini . sekian . XOXO , love ya !
Babe ! ye mulai sekarang rasa mcm lagi suka nak tulis post dalam bahasa ibunda terchenta . cukuplah dekat fakulti cakap omputih , dekat hospital cakap omputih . marilah sama-sama mengimarahkan bahasa melayu plak kat sini . ada org tuhh cakap jangan lah selalu cakap omputih . okaylah , kat sini kita cakap bahasa melayu okayy ? tapi if terojak bahasa , mohon ampun ye . memang dah terbiasa . bahasa rojak tuh sebenarnya bahasa sehari-hari fitrah ilyana . nak buat cemana kann ? >.<
Tadi pergi hospital . abah kena pergi regular check-up lagik . ye , lagi dan lagi . alhamdulillah , blood count dia maintain , walaupun takk sampai paras normal lagi . kidney dia pun normal . again , alhamdulillah . tapi ada 3 test yang tak boleh nak detect . doktor cakap maybe sebab abah ada makan supplement ubat so dia ganggu keputusan ujian darah . so , kena pergi lagi check-up lepas nehh . takpe ilyana , kau kuat kannn . :) nasib baik doktor perempuan tuh comel sangat , baik plak tuhh . ilyana , nanti dah jadi doktor , jadi macam dia okayy ? baik . . dan errrrr comel gakk ? mihmihmih ^^,
hmm susah nya post hari nehh . lagu yang mengingatkan aku kepada bekas kawan ? aku ada hilang kawan ke ? aku rasa takde . once org tuh jadi kawan aku , selamanya dia tetap kawan aku . so , aku tak rasa aku ada BEKAS kawan . ehhh ? *garukepala*
Ye , aku tak pernah buang kawan-kawan aku . pasti ! tapi , if kawan tuh yang buang aku , itu mungkin lah ada . tak semua org suka kita kan ? realiti . fakta . hmmm , okay lahh . maybe ada . recently . tapi aku bukan buang dia ! jangan salah faham . aku hanya meletakkan jurang yang aku pasti telah menjadi sangat jauh dari hari ke hari . jarak itu perlu demi keselamatan aku dan dia . kenapa ? biarlah hanya aku yang tahu . tapi , aku rasa lirik lagu nehh dah bagitahu segalanya kenapa aku perlu menjauh dari dia . jujur aku kecewa . dia pernah menjadi yang paling rapat dalam hidup aku . tapi , benda dah lepas , tak perlu dikenang lagi kann ? maaf , segalanya terlalu peribadi . banyak hati yang perlu dijaga . tapi , basically , itulahh dia . :) till then , XOXO . love yaa !
Babe ! post kali nehh rasa nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu sepenuhnya . sebab dah rasa macam lupa daratan pulak semua post asal boleh nak tulis bahasa omputih . jadi , post kali ini lebih kepada nak membuktikan aku masih anak melayu yang sedang berusaha untuk mencapai taraf perempuan melayu terakhir . ^^,
Dah lama tak post kan ? mana janji yang konon nak post tiap-tiap hari tuh ? tipu semata-mata . ye sebab aku malas , so takde post . itu standard . nak buat cemana kann . fitrah nya memang pemalas . =="
Aku tekan keyboard sekarang sebab hati aku tergerak nak menaip . aku tulis post nehh dengan background lagu yang sangat comel . so secara rasminya , lagu itu lahh yang menjadi lagu terakhir yang aku dengar buat masa nehh . ironi nya , lagu nehh gak lahh lagu terakhir yang kitorg dengar as AAFFZ semalam . *senyumsorangsorang*
Ye , semalam kitorang berkumpul semula after dekat setahun semua buat hal masing-masing . rasa macam tak percaya tapi , tu lahh . mimpi jadi realiti . semua dendam rindu dahh terlerai . sebuah lagi memori indah telah pun tercipta . hati bersyukur ukhuwah itu tak pernah pudar . jiwa bahagia bila jalinan kemesraan tu tak pernah padam . diri berdoa agar ikatan suci ini takkan terputus dan akan semakin kukuh dibawa arus masa . fatin buat aku rasa diri ini masih berharga . amy buat lara sepi dalam hati ini terisi . zahid buat aku mengukir senyuman ikhlas yang pertama . din . . aku pun tak sangka hati aku cukup kuat dan cekal untuk jumpa din balik selepas apa yang telah terjadi . tapi , mungkin kami harus melupakan segalanya dan bina permulaan baru dalam hubungan persahabatan ini . dan permulaan baru itu adalah semalam .
Terima kasih AAFZ . korang penyeri dan pelengkap hidup aku . uhibbukum fillah . :")
kesayanganku :')
So , lagu last yang kitorang dengar berlima semalam and lagu last yang aku dengar hari nehh adalah lagu yang sama . dengar dulu sebelum judge . :)
Mark Adam - Pencuri
Betul cakap Din . lagu nehh comel sangat . dia suka perempuan tuh dari darjah satu ! comelnya dia . untung nya perempuan tuh . hmmmm :3 and dengar dia sibuk FOKUS . sumpah epik gila . and ye , aku suka lagu comel dan santai mcm neh . okayy itu sahaja . kalau anda , anda dan anda suka lagu nehh , jomm kita sep sikit ! :D XOXO love ya !
Babe ! yeayyyy i posted in 2 days-a-row ! applause applause ! abah is getting slightly better . im feeling at ease a lil bit . so i can post happily . pray for my father's healthiness , guys . so that you can see my post everyday . :)
An OST of my favorite movie . FYI , i have so many favorite movies . in all genres . but then , as soon as i saw the title , the first movie that come up into my mind is The Hunger Games . labelled me a typical girl , but still i love this movie so much that i can even remember all the lines in it . naaa , i saw an O at your face . you know what song that i'll talk about , aite ? yes , it's that Taylor Swift's song originally . Safe and Sound . but , i hate Swift's version . i dont know why . yet , the one that i really love is the version by Tiffany Alvord and Megan Nicole . why ? because it's more to ballad melody , more soothing and more relaxed . it's calmer to be heard . and yes , it's in my lullaby playlist , the one that i listened to sleep every night . that's why i hate the original version because i hate the civil wars rap part . it's messy and cannot blend with the melody . im sure i cant sleep if i listened to the ori version . that's all . yeayyy i managed to post a short post today . congrats to me ! ^^,
Okay , need to sleep early . mama will be off to Lipis back at 3.30am . need to wake up extra early and prepare for sahur . tomorrow is another new full day . pray for my strength . and ilyana , don't forget to be strong ! last but not least , to my kembar nama , AIDA ILYANA , happy 20th birthday ! have a blast life and goodluck in whatever you're doing ! k daaaaaa !~
Babe . sorry for the long absence . abah has been admitted to hospital last wednesday . he had anemia and his diabetes are too high . been on the oxygen tube for one day , IV saline for 4 bottles and 1 pint of blood . luckily his blood count was upraised from 5.8 to 7.9 with the aid of only the 1 pint of blood . alhamdulillah , he's been discharged yesterday . but still he have to go to the hospital to observe his blood count regularly . i'm still wondering where's his blood go ? his urine and stool are clear . haematouria negative . stool color brown . no sign of haemorrhage anywhere . and out of sudden , his blood count dropped significantly . whatever it is , lets pray for the best so that his blood count will continue to increase up to the normal value back . and he will stay healthy as he used to be one time ago . aminnn . :)
Amy , Zahid and Din , thanks for dropping by to visit abah . seriously , im so touched . i realized that im not alone all this while . i still have you guys to support me . Atin , thanks for the text . take care , we'll meet sooner , miss you , love you . Emira , Ayuni , thanks for silently caring about me . i guess im not a good friend to keep everything out of your knowledge . its not that i want to keep it , i just cant think wisely of what im supposed to do .
Abang , thanks for being the greatest company . listening to all my bedtime stories , treating me with all your heart , patiently serving my childishness , hearing my cries , wiping away my tears , helping me out with all kind of problems i faced , sorting everything for me and thanks a lot for being a perfect transporter . bringing me anywhere im going . just as i wish . pick up Helmi from Jasin , sending back Helmi to Jasin , settling my result and college thing at UM , ANYWHERE ! you said , as long as i know you safe , i'll bring you anywhere . thanks abang . i dont think i can find an abang as superb as you . NEVER ! and yes , if i can choose my life partner , i wish that i can find someone like you . :')
And to all my friends who are keep praying for my abah , keep motivating me , staying withe me and supporting me , no words can be present to show how grateful i am . thanks for all your sincere prayers to my father . he's getting better . still , keep praying for him so that he will always healthy . love you guys . :)
Enough , ilyana . back to the track . a song from my favorite band . i've got plenty of them . but , still one of my bias is CN Blue . again , it's korean band . what to do ? it's mine anyway . so , feel free to read the next line or just exit if you think it's not suits you well . it fits me perfectly . ^^,
i've been a fan of CN Blue as soon as i listened to I'm A Loner by Yong Hwa at Running Man . yeahhh , it's a nice song to listen and it has a good wordings . mind to listen to that song if you have some time . but today , i'm not gonna choose that song as my top list . that song is quite popular , so i think most of us are familiar with it . for today , i'm going to pick a rather unfamiliar one because it's good to listen to something new , i guess .
So , why i choose this song ? first , because im a die hard fans of CN Blue . second , this is a ballad-cute-rhythmic song , which is also my main preference type of song . (btw , if u dont know that genre , ballad-cute-rhythmic genre is the genre that specifically created by me , so yeahh there it is) >_< third , i pick this song because it reminds me to YongSeo couple more than Banmal Song did . fourth , the lyric is quite sweet , just nice . and lastly , because the picture in one of the MV attracts my attention so much . so , lets listen to it and feel the melodayyyy . :) what is the song ? It is :
Babe . how i miss writing here every single day . yet , i have no idea , so no post . sorry guys . brain has been running so slow lately . how are you ? im here just fine . taking care of my father every single day makes me stronger and even stronger . fulfill his needs , massage his only 'bone-and-skin-left' body , making him happy , it's enough for me to say that im happy with my life so far . im not a typical teens who will make use of the whole sem breaks by hanging out with friends , going to every mall to shop for raya and so whatever . im a first daughter , who have her mom staying far away in pahang , who have to take care of her dad . im a sister , who have to manage her 2 heroes , who have to send and pick up her heroes of school , who have to take responsibilities in managing everything that im alone never think i'll have to do it at my age right now . yet , with all these responsibilities being placed on my shoulder , i know it's not even a burden for me . in fact , i accept it with all my heart and take it as a bless . maybe Allah give these test to me so that i can appreciate my family more . who knows , aite ? ilyana , after all you've been through and for anything that you'll be facing in future , i begged you to stay strong . you have to be strong no matter what ! why ? because your abah , your mama and your adik-adik are depending on YOU . now and the times ahead .
Still , im a human being . there's a time that i feel happy . there's a time i feel so tired and exhausted . there's a time i feel so sad . there's a time that i feel so down . there's a time that i feel like im losing myself , im losing hope and finally i want to give up . im not as strong as every people think i am . no i am not . im just pretending that i am strong all this while . so there's a song that makes me hopeful , a song that gives me some inspirational . i have nothing to say anymore . it's enuff i think . so just listen to it . and i hope it can give you some hope too , just like what it may gives me . but still , pray and al-Quran is the best cure of all . take care guys . love ya :') .
Babe . yeah im here . to spill something that cannot be spill to anyone . naaa it can . i choose not to share it maybe . im hurt . and its so painful . i dont know where im standing among us right noww . its not long ago that im smiling happily thinking about us . but tonight im crying badly thinking of how far the distance between me and all of you right now . yes , i admit i RARELY ask about all of you . how you've been doing ? how are you ? are you okay or not ? are you in healthy condition ? when is your exam ? are you doing well ? how your study ? and so many typical questions that should be asked . i SELDOM ask that . but one thing i want you to know that you all are always in my mind , in my pray , and in my heart . yeahhh im an emo bitch right now . but i hope you will understand how i feel if one day if you are the last person who knew everything about your own best friend . and what make it even worse ? you knew it from anybody else , NOT FROM YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND . one thing in my head right now , are you still considered me as your best friend ? or you already thrown me away out of your ship . maybe im the only one who dont realized this fact . im sorry but im very hurt right now . Ya Allah , please lend me your strength .
Babe ! it's 2nd day of Ramadhan . so i think it's not too late for me to wish all my Muslim friends , Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak ! may we get more than just hungry and thirst . not only that . this month is SO special to be wasted . so lets work to gain every single barakah hidden in it. :)
Me having my first day of Ramadhan ? well i can manage , i guess . it's not too hard . having all my daily routine as usual . maybe wake up extra early for sahur . then , perform my Subuh prayer , get Gemok ready for school , send him off to school , reach home manage housechores , take a nap for a while daa daa daa . that's all . time flies so fast so it's really not a big deal , i think . and just keep that positive attitude for the next 29 days ilyana . ^^,
What makes this Ramadhan different ? having to go through it without Mama by our side . sahur without her , cooking for buka puasa without her , going to bazaar without her , buka puasa without her , tarawikh without her , i have to admit , im dying a little bit inside . there's seemed a hole that missing in every single moment without her . but yes , at least we have family here ; abah , adik , makcu and me . but her ? she have to get through it all alone there in Lipis . please imagine how she'd feel . just be strong mama . and we cant wait to have you here in Seremban tomorrow , to do wahat we need to do and what we have missed to do without you . we love you and we all here are really really missing you a lot . just come home safely . thats our only pray for now . :')
Okayyy now stop the emo thingy . chill out ilyana . mama will be back sooner . put back your smile . and lets back to our topic . a song that reminds me of my 'first love' . first thing first , define 'first love' . who is my first love ? what love ? like a purely love cinta sampai mati ? or puppy love ? or maybe my first love that lead to the mushy couple stuff and all that ? hmmmm its hard to define when it comes to this kinda feeling and emotion thing . erghhhh .
Sokay i'll just make it simple . lets choose one person that comprises all the definition of that first love . the one that i thought will be my cinta sampai mati . my first crushes . my first love obsession . the very first person that caught my attention during my transition from the puppy love phase to a more mature love phase . and yes , it lead to the mushy , little idiot thing that i never did before that . so yeah , i decide to choose this person . let's dig back the old memories . im not here to describe about who's my first love . so no worries . we're here to describe a song that reminds me of him . and yeahh this is it :
Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
why this song ? because it has many emotions behind it . hate , sad and love . why hate , why sad and why love ? naaa it's an old story . too long to be told here every single thing . but one thing i can tell here is , i started to love this song when i finally can get over him . or else , i think im gonna hate this song for the rest of my life . ahahaha and yeah if you guys wondering when i experienced my first love ? it's Form 3 . yeahh Form 3 . so young . so immature . but it still makes up who i am right now . FYI , i made this blog on that year and because of him . so ironic that im talking about him again after 5 years . now he's happy with his life . im happy all my way through my life . no hard feelings . im happy as who i am . im praying for the best of him . and yes , i have no other feelings towards him . but yeahh , everytime i listened to this song , i remembered him . the one that used to have a place in my heart . >.<
Take-home-message ? First love is not always gonna work . Last will do , perhaps . ^_^
Babe . OMG it's been a while . it's hols but still so lazy to blog . why ilyana ? because she is lazy . simple ! >< yeahhh result has been announced . last weds . went to UM with abang . and finally i PASS my first year . and whatever grade i got , i dont even care as long as i passed . nowww im officially 2nd year medical student . applause to myself . mihmihmih . may next year gives me extra effort , extra hardworking , extra courage , extra spirit and extra everything together with less laziness and less procrastination . aminnnn . ^^,
To Dina and Wan Amir , congrats for the 'LULUS DENGAN KEPUJIAN' :) Dina , u are rock girl . unexpectable okayyy . so the very underdog . im proud of you babygirl . and to those 20 batchmates who have to undergo supplementary exam , be strong . you are the chosen one . you are lucky if we think in a positive wayy . you gain more knowledge . your time are filled wisely . you have the chances to strengthen the bond among yourselves if compare to us . just be strong . i know you all can do it . lets meet up again in 2nd year . lets sit in the lecture together again in Dewan Jemerlang . and let us strive together to nail our 2nd year successfully . promise okay ? yeahh promise !
okayyy back to the main topic above . a song that reminds me of the holiday . hmmmm personally i have nothing in my mind right nowww . holiday means time to listen to what has been left . so that means no specific song . HOWEVER ! last holiday , we went to Cameron Highlands remember ? ohh maybe it's not stated here i think . so yeahh , my last holiday was at the Cameron Highlands . and at that moment , i told Helmi that i love this one song from Ailee . and he love that song too ! whoahhhhh it was so exciting that we'd sang that song over and over again from the moment we reached there until we reached seremban back . that's how we bonded . through Ailee's song . ;) What song is it ? it's Korean song actually . but since it have English version , i put the English one here so that everyone can listen to it . still , to those who are anti-Kpop songs , dont listen . that's my take home message for todayyy . till then , love yaaa ! and dont forget to listen to this song first , it means a lot to me . :)
Babe . im here. counting hours for Wednesday . less than 24 hours , the full results will be announced . this time its eitheri PASS or FAIL . yet , please pray the PASS for me as i need it like so deadly . thankyou . viva list has been announced yesterday . Alhamdulillah im not in the list of viva borderline . or else , im sure i have to start thinking of going to supplementary exam . i studied nothing in this few days holidays . i cant imagine myself sitting in front of the lecturers answering their questions in person . :O mentally traumatized ! but then , to those who are sitting for viva borderline today , all the best , do the best and be the best . you guys are very lucky to have the chances to collect even more marks and experiences compared to us . and to those who are sitting for viva voce distinction ; dina , nasha , botet , wan amir , david , jin yi and tay tun khong , thousands congrats to 7 of you . you guys are superb and brilliant student . and again , all the best . i know you guys can do it . :)
Back to the main topic . a song that reminds me of a best friend . hmmm too many best friends indicates too many songs . to choose only one ? looks like i have to choose it wisely . since i never met AAFZ like ages , i think i have to dedicate this post to them . a song that remind me of them .
Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are
OMG why this song out of sudden ? because it has something that relates to all 5 of us . i don't know whether they realized it or not . i hope they know it after this . ;)
First , Amy and Fatin motivates me through this song . One dayy , im being so sleepy in Maths class that i heard nothing of what Cikgu Asmah being said . i started to doze off . that's when Amy pass a small note in front of my nose together with soft massage behind my neck . it's written there : "Don't sleep sayang . We love you because you're beautiful just the way you are" it brought smile on my face and throw away all the sleepiness . and i still keep that small note till now . thankyou sayangs . i love both of you too . :)
Second , this is the song that zahid always hummed in front of me . always like ALL THE TIME . yeahh , the whole world knows zahid is a loyal singer . he loves to sing no matter where he stands . so yeahh , this is the lullaby song from zahid to us in the class . ^^,
Third , everytime im feeling down , everytime im in a state of losing confident and hope , you're always the one who realizes it first . and you used to say this to me ; "keep your chin up , ilyana . you're awesome just the way you are" Thanks Aizuddin . and yeah , i gather all my guts to say your name after a while . finally . thanks for helping me going through my high school life . without you , im not sure i can survive . thanks for used to come into my life once . :')
Lastly , this song gives me a new mindset that i should accept people just the way they are . nobody's perfect . in fact , who does except our Prophet ? so , if people can accept us as who we are , why don't us ? take-home-message for today ; stop judging people and that's the moment where we can live happily as person . gentle reminder from me to myself and fellow favorite people of mine . have a good dayy . till then , love yaa ! XOXO :D
i'm just a typical girl who want some place in this world..
to share my happiness,,sadness,,and everything with the best person around me..
who wants the chance to love and to be loved...
the gurl who wants to grab her oppurtunity and exploit them to their best advantage..
a gurl who has her own ambition,,vision and future..
accept me as who i am...
~ FITRAH ILYANA ~
